SIXTEEN WEEKS….

Thanks GUYS!! Your the best!!!!!!!

Well today is the big day – interview day – so wish me luck!! My parrot LoLa would say that to me – however she only says my name and calls me “Baby” to bad she wasn’t human – could use a hug right now LOL

Still have the “eye twitching thing going on- which kind of sucks – that’s was STRESS does to me – lets just hope that they don’t notice it much –and also hope that my car makes its there  and doesn’t decide to crap out on me half way there-

Despite all that has been happening over the last 7 days – I did manage to train- I did however miss a few days because of “family issues” discussed in the previous blogs.
Although I am not 100% physically I managed to say on my diet with 2 cheat days- I call them cheat days – not because I decided to go to McDonalds and eat three # 1’s – but because I missed meals-didn’t have much of an appetite – and probably ate 3 times a day for those 2 days rather than 6 – but stuck to the meal plan. Definitely not enough calories in my system, and obviously it wasn’t physically possible for me to train on those days.

So far today managed to get my meals in up until this point – so this is a better day; except for the car thing.

It just never ceases to amaze me that - when there seems to be light at the end of the tunnel - something else happens. As Bryangee said to me the other day  "Somehow though they always seem to get better just in time for the next disaster"; the man is SO RIGHT - I mean its nothing serious or life threatening but just yet another "tire" thrown in my way as I drive. Looking forward to my day off tomorrow and a job interview that I have been waiting for - I am driving and the "check engine light and cruise control light went on in my car! This happened once before and the dealer assured  me that not to worry and they fixed the "problem" - I wouldn’t think twice about it - but this is a BRAND NEW CAR!!! - about a year old.

I was basically forced to purchase a new vehicle when my beloved "Eggplant" ( 2000 Mercury Mountaineer); as I fondly called her, because that was the DISGUSTING color when the sunlight hit her "just right", decided to say "YO Ma- I ain’t doing this anymore.. so piss off…how rude to treat me that way -especially since I was on my way to the gym to work out!! LOL and driving on the highway!! That’s okay - revenge is sweet - she’s an hunk of squished metal somewhere LOL

Anyway, I need to seriously catch up with my Day ???????? of 103- haven’t been able to focus much on the writing although i have been training - except for a few days last week when Dani was sick etc etc. I must be majorly stressed right now, my right eye is started to twitch- thats bad - that hasn’t happened to me in a long time -when for example I am in the gym and talking to people between sets- they are kinda looking at me funny - I am wondering do I have a "bat in the cave" and they are not telling me or can they really see my EYE TWITCHING uncontrollably LOL.

The last time that this happened was when I was going through my divorce - my eye twitched for about six months!!

Catch up to you guys later

Kat

Me just kissing "ass" to be the guest of HONOR at the Circle Bash LOL

I spent the better part of my afternoon holding and comforting a dying friend, a friend - who provided unconditional love always, a friend that was so excited to see me - even if I was only gone for the 2 minutes it took me to take the trash, a friend that occasionally left me little presents around the house - a friend that loved me fat or thin, (wo)man’s best friend, my dog Dani. She was diagnosed with lymphoma about a year and a half ago, had surgery to remove the very large lesion on her abdomen, unfortunately it re occurred in droves throughout her body, needless to say her prognosis was terminal; she is only eight years old.

I have to say that I was and still am totally beside myself this afternoon and now this evening after returning from the vet. Writing seems to take the edge off; I get to purge myself to the masses; not for sympathy, just to get this out of my system. Ultimately,  I do not want her to suffer- so I sit and ponder and waited- for my 4:30 pm appointment - my choice would be to put her down and so was the Vet’s – I cannot see my friend  suffer no longer. I hate making decisions such as these- to painful and sometimes to selfish. who exactly am I doing this for; her or me.

I have been through this type of decision making many, many times before and one would think that it would get easier, it doesn’t. If you ask me “Am I ok, I’m not- its times like this I wish I was a child again- no worries or responsibilities or that dreaded decision making.

I wish that people can be like dogs, what a better world it would be; they communicate with their eyes - and body language - you know exactly what they want and how they feel about you - no games.

I can honestly say that I would take a bullet for any one of my pets - I cannot say that about a lot of people that I know.

Sorry this couldn’t be a more up lifting blog, I am just not “feelin it “ today. So tomorrow is the day … not looking forward to that at all…

I actually should have video’ed my actual workout - but there was to many people in the gym and decided to video after - hence IM TIRED LOL - but you get the idea. First clip with (2) 30lb. DB, second w/ (2) 25’s - I think LOL- if you have seen my other vids- I am known to pick up 2 wrong weights LOL -

Today back workout was somewhat limited – my “old knee” injury was acting up in fact it was very very painful- I couldn’t do stiff-legged deads , or one arm rows- I had to modify the workout so as not to put undo pressure on the knee-
Despite this injury I managed to do 20 minutes of cardio – which probably added to the pain – but I needed to do it

Diet was okay today and right on track!

Shoulders/ 20 mins Cardio 3.5/5 incline

Meal I Double Scoop IntraPro Chocolate/ ½ cup Oatmeal
Meal II/III ½ cup vanilla low fat yogurt/ ½ cup low fat cottage cheese
Meal IV 6 ounces chicken/ ½ yam, asparugus
Meal V 6 ounces chicken/ ½ yam
Meal VI Double Scoop IntraPro Chocolate