JustMinxy’s BodyBlog

Hey Ya’ll,

 So first I want to thank everyone for being so AMAZINGLY kind to me throughout my pregnancy. It’s been a rough & tumble journey but we are FINALLY nearing the FINISH LINE!!! I am officially 6 calendar & 6 Lunar months TODAY!!!!

So one of the most COMMON questions I get when I am out and about or online is "What do you eat to look like that?"

Well my answer is going to come with a bith of a confession as well. The truth is I suffered from hyperemesis gravidarum  (H.G.) for over 5 months of my pregnany. When I say SUFFERED, I mean I SUFFERED. I actually lost weight, ended up under the care of a horrific home health agency who did NOT care for the PICC line I had inserted into my heart chamber properly, and yeah almost ended up dying. I take daily injections into my stomach to prevent blood clots and I have a clot in my arm that requires monitoring by a high risk obstetrician. In fact it is the head of the department at another center. I also still receieva care from my regular OB (who allowed the placement of the pICC in the first place without informing me of what it was or where it goes or the risk to me & my unborn child).

 So I have had a time of it. The good news is, that my unborn son has never failed to thrive & reach all the markers on development and wellness.

 So back to "What do you eat?" I learned FAST that a regular pregnant lady diet wasn’t going to work. Puking 20 times a day, I realized I just wasn’t going to be able to tolerate processed foods, sweets, junk food. Dang it! My original diet was very close to a contest prep diet. Over a gallon of water a day. Oats, green leafy vegetables,eggs, LOTS OF EGGS and (omg all the vegetarians will give me an evil look now)protein in the form of a chicken breast. Yes I was a vegetarian for many years. My diet at the time consisted of mostly soy and tofu-both a no-no with H.G. I simply just could not eat it and keep it down in any form.

So I made the choice to try and consume animal products. IT took a while to adjust and not get creeped out lol.

The H.G. just stopped a few weeks ago. It happens. There is no cure for it, sometimes it lasts the whole time, sometimes with hydration therapy the body an get a break and adjust to the overproduction of female hormones that they think may cause it. Damn it-I’m just to much of a chick I guess!

I still have bouts of sickness, but only when I even THINK of eating junk. So I stick to my occasional fish, my oats, greens, eggs, eggs, water. I avoid most breads, sugar, soda, fried foods, dairy & caffeine.

Hey Y’all. Thanks so much for the AMAZING support. I so need it. Pregnancy is not a cake walk. It’s definetely not for the weak-of heart or mind.

I suffer (yes SUFFER) from Hyperemis Graviderum (sp?) which basically affects 1-2% of pregnant women. It basically means I puke all day and night. If I drink water, I’m praising the porcelain God. Medication can sometimes help. Unfortunately for me, the only kind that does help me is $300 for 20 pills, which I have to take 2 times a day. So I’m still waiting to see if my insurance will FINALLY approve the payment. In the mean time, I’m off to the er 1-2 times a week for treatment for dehydration and to stop the nasead and vomitting. The medication through iv usually lasts a day. So that’s when I eat. Think of it as having severe bulimia but being pregnant. Except at least a bulimic can choose not to throw up.

So I’m pretty tiny still. All bump, no rump. Ok that rhymed and was so lame. My cardio is not an option now. I need my fat. I do walk a few times a week. Only short ones cause I have dizziness and migraines, everything you would have from nutritional deficiency.

Life is so ironic, cause it’s not like I needed any more dark clouds to make this journey even harder. It’s already pretty tough. But thank you guys for being a little ray of light. Bye you sexy beeyotches. I gotta eat before this medicine wears off.

 10 Things I miss About Weight Training

10. Pushing myself for one last rep

9. Pushing myself to beat my personal best

8. Pretending to not be able to deadlift more than 100 lbs and taking fools money when I deadlift 230 & higher from the floor

7. Wearing my fav husband beaters with the phrases: women lift…Girls workout, women train…

6. Impressing the guys at the gym with more than my figurific glutes-but really impressing them more with my big azz biceps

5. Sweating, really sweating like a she-beast

4. Inspiring other women who saw me when I let myself get FAT, and then regained my body in less than 2 months with hard work

3. Feeling like I was at CHEERS, cause everybody knew my name at my gym

2. Seeing my body change every week

1. My gym rats who were as dedicated to training and the ultimate physique as I was

10 Things I Don’t Miss

10. The showers that were too cold then too hot

9. The broken equipment

8. The hairy fat guy who always wore daisy dukes and had to do every single exercise that could possibly show his gonads

7. The anorexics who would do the class then jump on the stairmill for 2 hours

6. the high gym fees

5. The guys who always wanted to show me how to do my exercise better, when I never asked and when obviously I had a better physique than they did

4. the sexist dumbass jokes from my gym rats

3. my stinky gym bag, gloves, shoes

2. the callouses from lifting heavy even with gloves

1. 2 a days!

10. Your overweight, more unattractive, or out of shape friends will love the news!

9. Guys don’t care, or rather MOST guys don’t care if you are married, pregnant, or missing a few teeth.

8. Morning sickness isn’t just in the MORNING!

7. Hair grows everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE at an alarming rate.

6. You won’t be able to promote parties or events even for your own company cause sleep you will, sleep you must!

5. Kids will suddenly love you. Lil kids are always rubbing my belly!

4. Hmmm six packs mixed with pregnancy make a weird picture. WEIRD I tell you!

3. it’s not that hard to stay fit and ironically you can do as little as 15 minutes of MINIMUM exercise while carrying another being in your womb and stay very toned!

2. BOOBIES! Pregnancy is an instant boob job! My boobs are BOOBTASTIC!

1. There is a wonderful little pill that will make all the nausea and puking go away!

OK so i think I’m going to start blogging my pregnancy. I can’t be on here everyday-ha-ha I got a life ya’ll! Nah just kidding. But I am getting so many pm about my pregnancy and fitness regime and my diet.

 OK let’s establish some points: I don’t know wtf I am doing! So take anything I say with a grain of salt. All the ladies I have helped to shrink the pounds, what do i always tell ya’ll first? I don’t know, it’s all trial and error and your body is your body-discovering what works for you, your life, your journey is the key to fitness success.  Hmm I am taking that advice for my own pregnancy.

So let me answer some common questions so you can stop sending them to me:

1. First trimest

2. Nope my ass looks the same

3. Nah you cannot be my baby’s daddy

4. yes, if you want to buy my kid something go for it, I am not stupid, kids are not cheap

5. I will be a single mother, even when the unexpected happens, don’t settle for anything less than the kindest treatment from your fellow human beings

6. Nah I don’t wanna date. Thanks for asking, but I can’t get past the creepy factor. Do you wanna date me cause I’m pregnant, cause I’m me, or cause I can’t get pregnant lol?

7. No I really don’t want to have sex with you. Seriously? I’m carrying someone’s child for pete’s sake. I don’t think my kid wants some strange poker hitting it in the head. Get outta here dweebs!

8. Yes, I was pregnant in my avi. And I am still modeling where I can disguise it for now.

9. No I am NOT weight training. Seriously people can you picture a pregnant woman SAFELY deadlifting 280lbs?

10. No. The answer is NO. lol.

10 Things I find Beautiful

1. Honesty

2. Loyalty

3. Friendship

4. Kindness

5. Muscle

6. A BEAUTIFUL person, who is also BEAUTIFUL inside

7. Intelligence

8. Children

9. Dedication

10. LOVE

10 Things I Find Ugly

1. Selfish people

2. Cheaters

3. Liars

4.Thiefs

5. Posers/Fakers/Wannabes

6. Those who put material wealth above their humanity

7. Descrimination

8. Intolerance

9. Violence

10. Disloyalty

10 Things I Don’t Worry About

1. Physical beauty, that is fleeting. I’d much rather someone say “She’s such a kind person”

2. Ugly chicks-I’d much rather be ugly outside than inside and if you are ugly outside and inside-well you are simply screwed.

3. The spotlight. I see so many people on here trying to get some shine. I wonder if they realize what it’s like getting what they are so desperately attempting to get-POPULARITY. Everyone wants to be seen, but having the glare all the time and never knowing who is in it for what’s inside, is not as much fun as you might think.

4. What other’s think. I know my flaws in character, in physical appearance, and as a human being. Your opinion isn’t needed.

5. Ugly chicks-oh wait didn’t I already address that?  Ah well some things need addressing twice. I can never hate on a fugly chick, never that! So next…

6. People who don’t care about anyone but themselves.

7. This whole online scene. Real life is out there. This is just an ILLUSION people so don’t get caught up in what you see, who you meet, or what they say. It’s 99% lies and the rest is smoke and mirrors.

8. Materialism-Food, clothe, shelter, healthcare-that is me. When you have had great wealth, and great poverty, you learn what is really important.

9. Performance enhancing drugs. Not into them.

10. Jerks, douche bags, and the like. I really hate lames.

10 Things I DO Care about

1. My family

2. My friends

3. The conflict in the Darfur region

4. Ending abuse against children

5. the homeless

6. War veterans recieving their benefits and the help they need after serving our country

7. World peace

8. Ending excessive waste and recycling

9. Being the kind of friend I wish i could have

10. Being real, being honest, being LOYAL to those that are loyal to me and have my back. Loving those who love me. Not just say it but do something totally different. My friends would never let anyone talk trash about me and I would never let anyone trash them-it would be a smack down before that.

 Sometimes when you are feeling defeated you can be inspired, uplifted from the most random places… This is the song I will play when I let others make me doubt myself. When I give away my power. When I think the real win comes only when someone hands me a sword or a plastic trophy. When I compare myself to the girls with their implants, their chemical aids, their justified anorexic contest prep. This is the song I will play when my loved ones aren’t showing me the love. Or when someone judges me on my body and not my athleticism. When my strength, my intellect, my ability is questioned. It’s really NOT how fast you get there, or what is waiting on the other side-it truly is the climb!  If I never step foot on a stage for competition again, I will rule my temple and I will complete my metamorphosis-drug free! By my rules, my sweat, my strength. Who really wins the marathon? The first to cross the winner’s line or the very last after the crowd and the cheers are long gone? The first person of course:) But the last one who drags their dehydrated, aching, bleeding, swollen, body pushed to it’s physical limits by sheer will power-well that is one bad ass mother****er and I wanna be like that person!

I told my fellow rat packer at my gym that I would be quoting him today*wink

We were having a discussion in between sets about the loss of strength I have had since have been on contest diet.

I was like all the other women on the ___forum support using fat burners, diet pills, performance enhancing supplements, etc.

He said"Those people, I see them everyday. They lack DISCIPLINE. They have no will power. The body can be pushed, it will adapt, if you have the courage and strength to train through illness, weakness, and even hunger. Their minds are weak, therefore they take the easy way out. They do not impress me." or something like that, that cat is soooo deep. he’s a natural, the kind that should be on stage but instead chooses to train and develop for the true art form of bodybuilding, to form true discipline, and to command his own body. He says when you are hungry-EAT, when you are weak train with high reps but push your body.

 The thing about respecting someone is you BELIEVE in them and what they say because they live lives of honor. I believed him so much, that even though my mind had fooled my body into believeing I was weak from hunger, that my strength was at 1/2 percent, I decided to not believe in the weakness. I went on to up my 8 plate leg press to 16 plates! Nobody sets my limits, only I decide what can and will not be done by me! 

I always laugh when someone tells me I need hotrox or whatever it is, I have my own fat burner-it’s called sweat. I have my own appetite suppressor-it’s called willpower. I have my own steroid-it’s called lifting heavy and real hard earned muscle.

Oh and to those BRAGGING about using Hydroxycut, read a little thing called the news lately? Well if you haven’t PEOPLE ARE DYING and they are suffering LIVER FAILURE so I suggest you get to a doctor FAST and get an attorney and next time, take a dose of WILLPOWER first before popping a magic fairy pill!

Things are happening I didn’t think were realistic for me at this point in my life. I thought my modeling days were so over. I’ve booked spokesmodel gigs here and there the last few years. Just on a whim or whatever.

 Well since I began this journey to figure, I have had more opportunities than I even imagined. Chances for videos, and a major men’s publication-hmmm could it be the Black Man’s Maxim? Hmmm maybe *wink* (can’t jinx it and yes I will have on clothes if I get the gig), and today I find I am booked as a feature model at a MAJOR music "gig" with record execs, artists, etc from all over the globe!!!! Too bad music isn’t my dream because this would be a great way to network or drop a demo. Hopefully I can do that for a few good pals trying to get signed or something. They are only using 12 models and they will also appear in the official calendar. Plus the swag alone is too die for! I originally was just curious about one of the artists video shoot with lLil’ Wayne, and then through the artist referall to be one of his models the conference decided they want me to e one  of their official models instead!!!!

 So yeppers this is so fun and funny! I mean I’m a mom for pete’s sake! Just to think November I was 225 lbs, wearing a size 18 and ALMOST sure I’d never ever get my body back.

I take it all with a grain of salt really. What matters most is inside, I firmly believe that. yet it’s neat to have your physical transformation recognized. Plus the pay ain’t bad lol.

So to other moms sitting in their grannies fretting over what once was, you can get it back babes! Aint’ easyt for sure, but it is possible!