Same Old Song
I am a person that gets heavy into things and then starts to second guess myself down the line. I know this about myself and work steadily against it. Currently I feel pathetically weak and fat. This occurs every time I start to get physically fit. One thing a fat man does well is avoid doing things that brings his predicament into direct view. He doesn’t look into mirrors. He buys slip on shoes. He makes sure he wears clothes that are loose. Eating nutritionally sound food and working out forces the fat man to look directly into the abyss. That is where I am. It takes a tremendous amount of will and visualization to stay focused on the prize. It takes time and I am much better off today than last weak, but I also see how far I have to go. This is where I must focus on one day at a time. I need to focus on the now. You see, I give myself this talk quite often. If I keep this up day after day I will be where I want to be in two years or less.
November 28, 2007 at 5:04 pm
Hang in there. You’ve had some good progress. I think the hardest thing is adopting a different attitude about food, because our culture has such a bad attitude about food and we are surrounded by bad habits. It sounds like you’re on the right track. I think this forum can be useful to trying to provide some discipline to your regimen. Good luck!
November 28, 2007 at 8:06 pm
This is my favourite entry from you thus far. You know what to do JR and your doing it! You WILL achieve your goals. Remember this is not like the lottery where you do the work and you might win… consistent clean eating is a sure thing!
December 3, 2007 at 6:26 pm
Ah my friend, you also have to realise that strength is absolutely not sticking to something without wavering. True strength is following a course and overcoming challenges. The test of the strength is to face those self doubts and persevere, as you have. You had a less than ideal week, and yet this week you’re looking back on it and you’ve overcome it. That is the strength that will see you through to your goals.
I also have to repeat that I really love how great you are at writing down and vocalising your thoughts. Your entries always capture the emotional aspect of transformation so beautifully, perfectly in fact. Definitely keep it up.