Jumbo Rider’s BodyBlog

I am a person that gets heavy into things and then starts to second guess myself down the line.  I know this about myself and work steadily against it.   Currently I feel pathetically weak and fat.  This occurs every time I start to get physically fit.   One thing a fat man does well is avoid doing things that brings his predicament into direct view.  He doesn’t look into mirrors.  He buys slip on shoes.  He makes sure he wears clothes that are loose.   Eating nutritionally sound food and working out forces the fat man to look directly into the abyss.   That is where I am.  It takes a tremendous amount of will and visualization to stay focused on the prize.  It takes time and I am much better off today than last weak, but I also see how far I have to go.  This is where I must focus on one day at a time.  I need to focus on the now.   You see, I give myself this talk quite often.  If I keep this up day after day I will be where I want to be in two years or less.

Ok, a few posts earlier I was crowing about my low 93 blood glucose (bg).  The next day my fasting BG was 173.  What is up with that?  There is a process referred to as the Dawn Affect.  An hour or two prior to waking up you body prepares for the day by releasing stored glucose from the liver into the blood stream.  For diabetics like me that poses a problem.

As a diabetic my body does not utilize insulin properly so that bg just floats around in my blood.  The best thing I can do in the short term is to eat a protein/fat breakfast early and to exercise early.

bg 183

1 4 egg white 1 omega 3 egg + onion + mushroom

2 1 cup yogurt + 1 cup blueberries

3 6 oz turkey pastrami + 3 oz cheddar + mixed greens salad

4 1 cup yogurt + 1 cup blueberries

5. chilli

Fasting BG 178

1 3 eggs + 4 oz turkey sausage + 1 cup carrots

BG + 1 130

2 1 cup cottage cheese + 1 cup blueberries + 1 oz almond

3 10 oz turkey + mixed green salad

4  1cup cottage cheese + 1 cup blueberries

Thursday

1 1 cup yogurt + 1 oz almond + 1 apple

2. 8 oz turkey burger + mixed spinach salad + 1 oz cheddar cheese

3. 8 oz salmon + mixed spinach salad + 1 oz cheddar cheese

4. 8 oz turkey (white and dark meat) + waldorf salad

5. cottage cheese + 1 oz almond + celery + apple
Friday

1 Cottage cheese + 1 oz almond + apple

2 Missed

3 5 oz turkey pastrami + 3 pickle spears + 1.5 cups celery

4 1 cup cottage cheese + 1 0z mixed nuts + 1 cup blueberries.

5 12 oz feta burger + mushrooms + onions

As I have mentioned before I am a type II diabetic.  My blood glucose has not been below 100 since I started taking readings.  The lowest I had been was 112 after 9 hours or so without eating during the day.  Today, 1 hour after my second meal I got a 93!  While I am not yet seeing tangible body changes I do have this going for me!

1 1 cup yogurt + 1 scoop Whey + 1/2 cup carrot +1/2 cup celery + 1 oz almond

2. 9 oz turkey + 3 oz cheddar cheese + 1 cup celery + 8 oz 2% milk

3. 1 cup yogurt + 1 scoop Whey + 1/2 cup carrot +1/2 cup celery + 1 oz almond

3.5 1 oz almond

4. 16 oz turkey burger + 6 oz muenster

1. 1 cup cottage cheese + 1 oz pecans.

2. 1 cup carrots + 1 cup Celery + 6 oz steak

3. 8 oz hamburger + 1 cup of celery.

4. 1 cup yogurt + 1 apple + 1 oz walnuts

5. 1 cup broccoli +  4 oz salmon

6. 1 cup cottage cheese 1 oz pecan

Thinking about the 2008 transformation challenge boost my determination to place some show-and-tell pictures of myself on the site.  Nothing harder for a fat man to do than reveal the fat to the world.  I need to accept myself where I am to move forward in life.  That is core to my system.  Putting that picture up for all to see is simply a step in my acceptance.  A step toward fixing this problem.

I am not a fat guy.  I am a guy bearing 150 pounds of fat.  What is the difference?  A fat guy has his personhood defined by fat.  Fat is what he is through and through.  A guy bearing fat is a man defined by his will.  Only the guy bearing the fat can ever really overcome his obesity.

11/14/2007 was the last day I ate wheat or corn.  I am 5 days dietary clean and sober.

I am not on a low-carb diet.  I eat all of the vegetables I want and a couple of apples a day.   Grains are avoided and so are potatoes for the time being.  My body feels good.  My cravings have subsided.  The cravings are gone unless I fail to eat.  Then my body wants food and it wants in now.  Moral of the story is don’t miss meals.
1. spinach, onion, mushroom omelet

2. 4 oz hamburger 1 cup of carrots

3. 3 oz turkey sausage 1 cup of spinach salad

4. 1 cup cottage cheese + 1 oz of nuts

5. 8 oz steak + spinach salad + 1 cup cottage cheese