Grammy Pam’s Blog

I am down 2% bodyfat from when I started with the trainer since the end of June. I don’t know how that compares to usual/customary but seems low. However, I am seeing and feeling a difference everywhere. Many people noticing and commenting. Anyways.. Its a going and feelling good about the healthier me..

Okay so I feel like I am slacking on Saturday and Sunday when I dont actually work my muscles. I do hit the cardio as I do on other days during the week when I dont work with my personal trainer. It just feels WEIRD!~  ( I work with him 3 days wk/1 hr each session)

He wants me to rest on my rest days but I am really having a hard time doing it.. I dont think the cardio is enough…??? grrrr

It just feels like I am wasting time…

Yay, just got back from cardio.. wow the gym was busyyyy.. love it when its busy with individuals who are serious about working out and not just walking around..

If I have never said it before, I LOVE to sweat…. loveeeeeeeee it~

Workout with Jason at 6:30 a.m. tomorrow.. I think he is testing my body fat.. ughhh.. lol..

Yay..

I missed 2 training days with Jason and soooooooo glad I went today.. I missed everything about it.. Cant wait for the soreness to hit tomorrow..

So yesterday was my first weigh in since my first meeting with my personal trainer. Since June 17th, I have lost 9.6 lbs. When I first heard that, I was bummed. I thought it would be alot more than that. Jason thought it would have been less because I didn’t work out for over a full week because I was sick and then on vacation for a week. I still maintained my clean eating most the time, although I really didn’t eat enough.

I feel better, healthier and fitter already just in this short time… It has done a world of good for my confidence and just the feeling that I care about myself and am making changes for good is such a great feeling.. I actually kayaked in Mission Bay… something I would have never have tried last vacation.. it was great and will do it every year!!!!

 Thanks to my friends out there that support me and encourage to keep a movin… hugs to you all!!

Pam

Grrrrr.. I am cranky about getting up and going to train at 6 oclock in the morning.. I dont know why.. anyways.. I will be fine.. Ate great this weekend and Jason should be happy with me in the morning as I am.. I didnt drink enough water.. anyways I wanted to vent and to be able to look back at this in a month and say what a schmuck I was.. p

…and I didnt die!   lol

 Wow. I cannot even begin to tell you what a difference this last week has made. Getting up and started before 6a.m. to be able to keep my evenings free for everything else I need to do has worked out great..

When I am not with my trainer on M W and F I am at my gym doing my cardio first thing in the morning so I dont slack off and cant have the excuse to have enough time to fit it in.

I am eating clean.. Journaling every single thing I eat, with the time and amount.

It’s amazing that prior to the personal trainer I didn’t think my body was able to do the things that it has been made to do. I CAN do it. Its hard. And without my trainer being there telling me that I can do it, I would have quit when it got tough and not followed through.

I am not weighing myself, and am leaving that to him. He will weigh me Monday mornings. Ihavent posted my weight or measurements as he did all that in the beginning and I didnt want to know the numbers. I am trying to get away from a certain weight I think I need to be etc.. I haven’t even got on the scale at home and wont. I haven’t even thought about it once.

 I feel amaaaaazing and clean. lol Some of you may relate.

:)

I had my first hour session Monday and it was great!

Yes I am sore and wincing a little but I am ready for 6:30 a.m. again tomorrow morning! Bring it on!

My eating is almost 100% clean. yay!

Woohoo!

I met with my personal trainer today and I think he is the perfect match for my goals. I am so excited! I will go 3 times a week, an hour each time and am giving him my food journal daily. I have prepared my meals for tomorrow and am ready… so here I go! Hard work, sweat and probably some tears!    P

Well here I am, months later after joining BB.com and barely writing my first blog. I am making this really short and sweet…well not so sweet.

1st-this is scary. I am one of the "overweight ones" putting myself out there for all to see.

2nd-the reason I have finally took the plunge into blogging is to hold myself accountable. I have to stop kidding myself that refraining from posting a pic and/or to blog wont hurt me. It already has. It’s obvious I need to see my daily journal to see where I am struggling or succeeding and maybe someone out there to help keep me going in the right direction.

This 225lb body is just not working for me anymore. It has never "worked" for me. I never feel as heavy as I am. A recent picture of me at Disneyland with my family had me face my denial. I still cannot believe my eyes. It’s not me in that picture. ( I am still trying to deny its me!)

So here I am. A wannabe bodybuilder/athlete/fit fanatic, since I was 18. My daughter will be 25 and granddaughter 2 1/2. I have support from my family I just have to believe I can do it.  No more excuses.

I meet a personal trainer tomorrow night at gym specifically for training. Not a franchise etc,, Im scared. But I am ready. He has asked me to bring a food log. LOL

Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life~

Pam