The path to an x smoker, Day 2, 05/04/2009
The rough draft is that I started smoking in the early years of high school, to tell the truth it gave us something to do, and of course it was cool right! Well then after starting dipping and only soon after deciding that I shouldn’t do both, (dont mix bad habits). That I stopped dipping due to the effect on my guns, which were residing badly. I have been smoking off and on for around 3-4 years, and in the last year have become deticated to working out and fitness, yet this nasty habit still has hold over me, no more. For once I’m going to get in my car drive around and not smoke, doing whatever I have to do not to smoke anymore. In these blogs I’ll discribe how I feel, where I was, and what I did to keep my addiction from taking over me.
Day one: 05/04/09
I woke up this morning as usual, came down stairs and sat in front of my laptop, maybe hop on bodyspace.com, turns out the computer was dead and i found myself staring off out the window at the gloomy morning, Now this may not be weird but when you do it for like 30 min at the same object, it gets alittle strange. Why, I don’t know. But last night I almost broke and it hasn’t been long at all, driving home from my girl friends house, finding myself wanting a pack to puff on the way home. Drove by the bp gas station, and what is my luck, There closed… I lucked out there. Anyways not to bore you just one day two, I feel ok, about to go tan and to some fitness stores, but I can already feel that urning in my stomach that moves up my lungs and into my mouth, calling for a smoke. Yicks this could be hard, lmao.
May 4, 2009 at 2:30 pm
It may or may not help now, but i used to smoke and i just wanted to let you know that it gets to a point where you have no inclination AT ALL to smoke. Its not like every day for the rest of your life you will walk around trying to deep breathe through intense cravings…you get to a point where you just couldnt care less about it…hope that helps with a bit of a light at the end of the tunnell