Jgenesis7’s BodyBlog

Okay so its January 5th and here goes another diet right? Nope wrong…..this time things are going to change, I had to take complete control by Giving up control! I joined a medical weight loss program that I actually believe in. At my heightest I was 188 pounds and I know that I can’t do this thing on my own. I actually DO know the right foods to eat and the right exercises all of that but I just couldn’t get it together no matter how I played with the nutrients, the supplements and the workouts I still felt hungry, I still got sick from low immunity and I still continued to gain weight. So I decided it was time to take all of my knowledge and throw it in the garbage and let a physician run a huge amount of tests on me, my thyroid, an ekg and every where else. It turns out I’m 44% body fat….and I was given all the foods I need to eat for the next week until my blood results come back. Its been three days and I am following the program to a tee, with the exception of 1/2 cup of cabbage soup a day. I an so very afraid that I will lose it and go into a binge like is my custom on any other program I have been on. My health is so important to me right now so I will do this for my children and myself. HERE GOES MY TRANSFORMATION! WISH ME LUCK AND BLESSINGS!!

I’m still trying to figure this whole need to lose weight and build muscle thing. What I do know is that I can not continue to be fat!! Its crazy because I have this fat in my waist that extends to my back and it is so uncomfortable to walk or even stand; how do overweight people do it every day of their lives I am 186 pounds and extremely uncomfortable in my own skin. I know that am breaking this food addiction thing and living the life I should be living at 33 years old.

I am learning a lot about obesity, All the people who judge overweight people and say things like "just stop eating, don’t you know you are hurting yourself". Those people don’t understand the relationship with food that people have over time. Food has been my friend many nights…it doesn’t whine, it doesn’t complain, it makes you feel good and wants nothing in return. So I fully understand the struggle of the obese, for many food is the only friend they have known.

BUT, yes in order to live a Long healthy life, the time must come that you have to release your BFF (FOOD) and get that body movin and groovin; that is where I am right now….The one thing that makes me feel extremely happy at the end of a hard day which includes a total daily commute of five hours, dealing with four children; running a city agency in a crazy political environment; helping my husband run his business; attempting to cook and clean after 7pm..yikes! My one pleasure is spending some time with my Chocolate Chip Mint Ice Cream Friend and an Iced Cold Corona! I know this must be adjusted because in 2006 when I got married I weighed 160 pounds and loved nothing more than to finish work and hit the gym while the kids hung out and played in the kids area…..and now I’m 186 and love nothing more than to eat ice cream; the difference a year makes!! I have to just acknowledge that feelings are real….when I workout real hard for a full week and eat right my body starts to crave all that is bad! the fat does not like to lose!! Listen, in the end I got to do what I got to do, because I want to look like Adela Garcia…..

I am extremely excited right now. My husband and I have been working really hard to get our business of the ground…he finally got licensed as a Heating and Airconditioning contractor and now I have to get this businesses up and running……

This success has taught me something about myself, when I want to celebrate I think about food first. As soon as I heard the news I ran to the market to buy a cake….thank goodness I caught my emotion and checked it quickly. Instead of buying food I purchased balloons and got on the treadmill.

Three food triggers I have identified so far are 1. Celebration 2. Saddness 3. PMS

Anyway, Still working hard to reach my goal of 135 pounds by my birthday…..77 days (11 weeks and counting).

Somewhere in the bible it talks about how what you really desire to do is not what you do because your mind and your body pull you towards what you shouldn’t be doing. That is me to a "T", I know what I need to do to get where I want to be (135 pounds, fit and muscular helping others in their pursuit of health and fitness) but my mind has a way of steering me in the wrong direction. I am determined to live by my spirit who in the past few day has been guiding me in the right direction. I have prepared all my meals ahead of time and will be consuming each at two and a half hour intervals. I will not allow my mind the ability to creep in with Krispy Kreme thoughts. Wish me luck and blessings!!

Today I took a day off from work and actually looked in the mirror….Who the heck was that looking back at me? It was a fat old looking lady with dimples all over her butt……What happend to me? When did I allow life; work, family, and every other disctraction get in the way of my goals and my health and well being. I am extremely disappointed in myself and TODAY is the first day of the rest of my life………Does anyone have some advice on staarting new……….??

I have been working closely with my trainer, but the eating thing is crazy. I can’t seem to stop eating; I finally started to follow my eating routine this week and I feel some changes, but I am so afraid that once the weekend comes I am going to blow it! Does anyone out there have any ideas on how to focus……??

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