This is F%#*ing bulls%(&^!!!!
So if you hadn’t read my last blog it was basically how last week i had a 3 day break. I ate whatever i felt like and only worked out 5 days last week as opposed to my usual six. Now just when i was having some compassion for myself and giving me a break, i weighed myself this morning AND I GAINED 1.5PDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I couldn’t believe it????? like WTF?!?!? It made me want to break down and cry!! I can’t even have a 3 day break (the first in like 8months) without gaining F%^&ing weight????!?!?!
This made me discover why i gained so much weight last year and ballooned to over 145pds!! I can’t stick with this type of strick dieting & exercising all to be at a weight that is normal for my height and bone structure!!! I just want to have a huge pitty party for myself because i am discovering (once again- resulted in weight gain) that i either work out 6 days a week and eat little to nothing to just MAINTAIN a normal weight of around 120, or i can either exercise like 4 days a week and STILL eat little like 4 days a week (allowing treats here and there- and by treats i mean granola cereal or carbs so nothing like fastfood or icecream- yuck) and be overweight for my height!!!!
i don’t know anyone else who diets and exercises the way i do and they go out to eat during the week, drink juice & eat treats all the time and don’t worry about dieting and what not and they all weigh what i weigh right now!!!!!!!!!!
i am just so blue and don’t want to except that i am doomed to be one of those people who has to diet all the time in order to look half decent…. i still have a huge ass and my legs and arms jiggle and i could stand to lose another 5pds but now i am getting closer and closer to back to where i started. I am already wanting to just say **** it and sleepover at the b/fs house again and not go to the gym tomorrow!! AND THAT WOULD MEAN GAINING ANOTHER 1.5PDS next week!!!! then i would be 121pds!!! this is so not fair….. i just want to be normal…… i want to be like everyone else…. this is not fair…….. 
i just dont know what to do….
April 17, 2008 at 4:57 am
But how do you look? Weight is almost meaningless unless it’s an abundant amount say 20lbs, Your body can retain water at times, you could have more undigested fecal matter in your bowel, or you could have gave your muscles nutrients and they grew! Hang in there, and try to stay motivated! Keep working on it, improvise, adapt, overcome and kick butt! Just don’t give up!
April 17, 2008 at 4:58 am
No offense your 5′4 as am I. Our max average weight of not being over weight is 130-140 I you have muscle 5 more pounds to get to 115 come girl your got more important things to worry about!!!! Youve came this far from 140 something. Look where Im comming from… Your body wont let u lose it cause IT DONT NEED TO LOSE IT!!!!
April 17, 2008 at 5:04 am
P.S. Do you eat the small meals through out the day? It seems like I’m always eating, I think every two to two and half hours, and thats at work. When I get home I have a few healthy snacks and dinner, play with the kids and then it’s bed time.
April 17, 2008 at 5:43 am
1.5lbs isn’t that much if its water weight. If you’re not eating enough your body is going to all the more hold onto what surplus you do give it. Try figuring out your base metabolic rate and how many calories you are burning from workouts/activity/etc. then subtract about 300-500 calories from that and you’ll be where you need to be. It takes 3500 calories to burn off 1lb which is a very steady and healthy weight. Once your body is more accustomed to the new diet intake you can adjust it again after you know your energy level. Also, glycemic index is something to consider. Granola is one of the most misleading snacks as its usually higher in carbs and calories, especially if sweetened with honey. Not that its a bad food, but it carries a lot more weight than most people realize.
April 17, 2008 at 6:02 am
Hey Jena . What you are saying is very scary. You could be suffering from a very serious condition called body dysmorphic disorder. This means that you might have a very different view of your body than the rest of the world. For some reason you are latching onto things that only you can see and are blowing them out of proportion when no one else can every see them. This is how a lot of anorexia and bulimia sufferers start out. Try talk to a counselor. Another thing to remember before you get too depressed about your situation is that the body weight is continually fluctuating through out the day and the week even. Certain foods make you retain and in a couple of days it will be gone again. 1.5 pounds is nothing to stress about at all.