Janellerific’s BodyBlog

Last night I got the first good leg workout that I’ve had in awhile.   Certain aspects of my life are pretty ****ty right now, so I took it out on my legs.  Sweating like a pig made me feel amazing.  I’ll be going to do that again after work today. 

I may require a little extra motivational support for the next few days.  You kick me in the ass, I’ll kick my own ass AT the gym.  Fair?  YES!

Oh, and do any of you have any chicken recipes?  I’m really really sick of chicken.

I am not dead and I am not a quitter…I’m merely having a case of the perpetual Monday’s.  And I’ve been too busy to be on the computer.  Ok, that’s a lie.  I’ve been on Facebook too much.

 Going to the gym after work with the boy today.  Apparently we’re doing Bi’s and Chest…I’m going to force in some good ab stuff too…

Back to tracking my workouts on here.  My guns are looking a little sad

LOVE YOU ALL!

My trip to the doctor yesterday confirmed my greatest fear:  I’m a moron.

Turns out I have had a terrible ear infection for about 2 months…it’s what caused the stroke-like symptoms…numb face, screwed up vision, hearing difficulties, dizzyness, out-of-body feelings…the doc said he was surprised I could hear out of my left ear, and he was also surprised that I hadn’t complained of pain and headaches sooner.  Oh, and the ‘night sweats’ were caused by the fever that I’ve had for ages.  STUPID STUPID JANELLE.  Now I’m on antibiotics and some vertigo-fixing meds…the pressure in my eye is already starting to subside, which is nice…I was tired of looking at people with my left eye closed and my head tilted.   The only thing that I’m still concerned about was my inability to form a sentence…

I’m SUPER happy that it wasn’t TIA…I’m too young for strokes! 

I’m still pushing myself to go to the gym…4x this week already, and it’s only Wednesday!  Today was shoulders, traps and calves.  I got to do Elvis lip and I liked it. 

The boy will be home in a week!! Then, the next day, we leave for Beautiful British Columbia to spend some time with my family.   I can barely wait!  It’s time for a quick cut before I get home…35C+ weather is NO TIME for clothing!

Thank you to all of you for your thoughts and kind words during my retardation. 

I made it to the gym this afternoon.  My boss gave me the day off of work to get medical appointments lined up, and I spent the greater part of the afternoon sleeping.  I was going to skip the gym, thinking my body maybe needed the rest…however, I REALLY wanted to lift something heavy, so I went anyways.  I’m glad that I did.  It felt REALLY good.  Not as HARD ASS as I would like to be, but hard enough to feel like I got a workout in.  And I had some of the post-squat nausea that I love/hate so much  

I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow afternoon.  His wife/receptionist said she’d get all my test results in order so they will be there when I go in.  Hopefully he’ll have some answers for me…or at least suggestions as to how to prevent a future incident.  I feel more optimistic with each passing day, and I think that a positive outlook is half the battle. 

I’m famished and I have a protein shake to guzzle.  Love ya’ll!

This morning I decided that I was going to the gym.  I missed it the last few days, and I wanted to get back into the swing of things.

 I decided that chest and hamstrings would be a good way to get back into it…chest went ok, although I was really struggling, even with 20’s for chest press.  Hamstrings…not so much.  I did lunges and cleans…although I don’t think cleans are really hamstring exercises.  Regardless, it took a lot out of me.  I managed to get in 3 supersets, and I tried to do cardio but I felt so weak that I decided I’d pushed enough. 

I’ll push a little more every day…until I’m better than I was.  It still feels fabulous to know that my chesticles got some lovin’ today!

I’m so frustrated today.  I’ve been taking all the necessary steps to increase my health.  I’ve lost damned near 40 pounds in total, decreased my cholesterol to normal levels, been working out regularly, eating way healthier than ever before…and today, my body basically said "I DON’T CARE!"

I had a TIA, which is basically a mini-stroke.  I’m 26 years old and in generally good health.  All of a sudden, I couldn’t talk…my vision went blurry and my face went numb on the left side.  I scared the living daylights out of my clients, and cried for a good 2 hours,  scared and confused about what was happening to my brain.  A TIA can be a warning sign that an actual stroke is on its way.  I’m home alone…the boy is still away at work, and my parents are 11 hours away.  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared ****less.  I’d also be lying if I said this was going to control my life.  Sure, it ruined my afternoon and has caused me to be more exhausted then I ever recall being in my life, but tomorrow is a new day.

Anyways, I just needed to get that out.  Sometimes I feel like it doesn’t matter how hard I try…when your time is up, your time is up.  I’m really not ready for my time to be up.

I have a confession to make.  I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to get a gym membership for awhile due to financial BS. I confessed this to the boy today, and he said he wanted to pay for my membership because he knows how much I love workin’ on my fitness and he wants me to be happy.  I, of course, said "NO" because I’m an independent (stubborn) woman and I like doing things on my own.  So, I decided I’d go without food and get a membership ANYWAYS…lucky for me, the gym is giving me 2 months free, due to the fact that the pool is closed for the remainder of the summer!!! YAY!!

 So, I went to the gym, totally intent of doing back and tri’s, but was thrown for a loop by a few things: a) I ran into an ex boyfriend…who hasn’t seen me since I lost my 40 pounds.  He was more awkward than I remembered him being (which is difficult, considering he was the most awkward person I’ve ever met when we were dating) and he KNEW I looked good.  I knew it too.  Oh, and b) the gym was a sausage fest…packed with males of all ages.  I was the ONLY female.  This meant unwanted attention.  All I wanted to do was lift, and lift heavy.  I worked out for about half an hour, then I decided that I’d just come back in the morning and do my workout.  I’m feeling way better about myself than I have in years, but I still have lots of work to do, and it’s hard to do it when you know people are gawking at you.    

So, here’s a blog about something other than the boy!!  Working on your fitness is fun!

Today is the first day that my gym will be open since I left for holidays.  I am super pupmed to get in there and kick the sheyat out of some heavy weights!  I plan on doing a full-body workout today, to get myself back into the groove.  Come Monday, I’ll be back to the whole ‘2-body part supersets’ routine again.

I’ve taken some extra shifts at the liquor store lately.  This means that yesterday was another 8am - midnight  work day.  I am exhausted, but had to get up early because I need to go deliver some meds to a client who isn’t able to walk right now due to an infection on his foot.  I don’t mind doing it, since it should help speed up the healing process.  However, I would have loved to be able to sleep in until noon.   Tonight I work 5-12 at the liquor store, and I work again tomorrow from 5-10.  By the time next Friday rolls around, I will have worked 12 days straight, and 16 shifts between the two jobs.  Luckily I have more holidays coming up soon!!

Speaking of my next vacation…I’m taking the boy home to meet my family!!  Everyone is super excited and I’m touched that he’d buy a plane ticket at such short notice to spend time with my friends and family.   I can barely wait!  I have so many plans already.  I’m especially pumped on the fact that we’re going to get in some serious hiking in the MOUNTAINS!  Oh how I miss the mountains! 

I went running a few mornings this week and I did some 8-minute abs a few times…I haven’t really been on the ball, simply because the gym is closed and I’ve been busy working as many extra shifts as I can before I leave.  Plus, the boy is working out of town, so if he’s not home, I might as well be out making money.  I’ll be back at ‘er today…have no fear!  I’m still a HARD ASS!  Oh, and the diet is still clean, just having a really hard time eating enough food.  Hopefully the workouts will help get that back in order!

Someone inquired as to my lack of blogging lately and I felt like I owed myself an explaination.  At first I wasn’t sure why I wasn’t doing it…I love writing, because I love talking.  And writing is like talking in print.  I love bb.com, I love workin’ on my fitness and I love all of you.  Still, something just feels different lately.  I want to spend less time on the computer, more time outside/reading/hanging with my fur kids/working/walking/crying/doing laundry etc. Ok, so the computer totally trumps some of those, but you get where I’m coming from. 

Since I got back from my trip, my life has changed a bit.  The roommate and I seem to have progressed to a common-law relationship over night (which is fabulously amazing and so completely strange for an old-fashioned, never lived with a boyfriend kinda girl like me) and my gym is closed.  It’s not opening up again until the 11th (2 more sleeps!!) so I can’t exactly go there to work on my fitness.  I’ve been walking the dog a lot, doing some light stuff at home and having a really hard time eating enough calories.  The boy left to go back to work on Tuesday, so I have no one to nag at me about eating, cook food for me, or shove it down my throat when I’m being difficult.  *sigh* I just feel like if I’m not lifting heavy, I shouldn’t be eating a zillion times a day, clean or not.  I’d like to say that everything I’ve eaten has been CLEAN, just not enough.  But I have de-puffed from the vacation, which is lovely

So, yeah…I’m not avoiding you, I have nothing to hide and I’m still alive.  I just really don’t think you want to read about the things that are on my mind right now…this is, afterall, a bodybuilding website, so a blog about an amazing love is just not really appropriate.

 I’ll be doing burpees for all of you today

Hello folks!  After a much needed vacation, I’m finally back!  I had a wonderful time, full of excessive amounts of food, booze, playing on boats, sitting by the fire, watching stars, enjoying lightening storms, etc.  You’ll all be thrilled to know that I also made it to the gym 3 times over the week.  Considering we were staying out at the lake and the gym was in town (which required 30 mins of driving to get there) I’m pretty impressed.  I was a bloated mess most of the week, but a happy bloated mess.  The water consumption has been increased intensely, and the bloating is going away!

Anyways, I don’t have much to report.  Actually, I have tons to report…life has taken a pretty crazy direction since the end of vacation time, and I’m feeling fabulous.  Love you all, and I will be back in the grind in no time!