JPhillips17’s BodyBlog

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Ok so i’ve gotten a lot of pms about my bout with an eating disorder!  Thank you so much everyone for your support and kind words!  I just thought I would fill people in on the details, and hopefully shed some light on this taboo topic.  Eating disorders ARE NOT only for women.  For me, it was actually a modeling recruit that started my downward spiral.  I was 18, and at the time a nationally ranked golfer!  I was in the mall one day at Abercrombie and Fitch when asked if I had ever considered modeling.  Hell no i hadnt, i played golf everyday of my life, and when i wasn’t at the golf course i was probably eating a cheeseburger, pizza, chicken fingers, mozzerella sticks, mac n cheese, or drinking milkshakes!  I wasnt fat (127lbs) but i had that skinny soft look.  Anyway, she asked me to send her pictures, and to be sure to include "ab shots."  Hahahahahahah ab shots?  no chance i had anything resembling abs!  Well i asked around to a few people how i could get a 6 pack and i received some advice to read mens health.  Well i did, and i read every other thing i could get my hands on.  Problem is i kept reading what NOT to eat.  Well before too long it seemed as if i wasnt eating anything (a whole egg seemed like i was eating too much…one meal for me consisted of 2 rice cakes).  In fact, when i went on my family vacation to the beach, i LOST 3 lbs in a week!!!  Well for the better part of a year i struggled…physically, mentally, and emotionally.  I lost friends, because i no longer wanted to go out for fear of being faced with having to eat something i couldnt.  I didnt like myself, beacause in my mind i was never lean enough.  At 120 lbs, i really was going downhill!  Thank god i ended up getting a job opening up golds gym.  While there i met a woman that knew i needed help.  She knew that i wanted to be bigger, but also realized my constant quest for being so lean.  She told me she would help me, and for some reason i let her.  She put me on 4000 calories a day.  Now being annorexic i was also becoming a bit OCD (which i guess is part of the disease).  Every night i would write out a meal plan and then cook the food before the next day.  Before i knew it i was gaining weight! The rest is history….i was able to put on about 30lbs while at home in virginia, then when i went away to college i met some great friends and training partners that pushed me to begin the physique i have today.

 The point of this blog is not only to tell my story  but to put out an awareness.  This situation was extremely real in my life, and is real in many peoples lives today!  At the end of the day, it comes down to being happy with yourself but that comes from finding balance!  I wouldnt trade anything for being involved in this great industry, but that doesnt mean i dont have friends and that i diet year round.  We all need to enjoy living this healthy lifestyle….eat some cheat meals, take days off from the gym…and go out and party your ass off every once in awhile!

 PM me please if you feel you may be heading down the road i did, i would be more than happy to help:)  Hope everyone is having a great nite!