10 More Days…
My forearm is getting that tell-tale hollowed out look when I am leaning out. Yay? 
I wish it would take the fat off of my STOMACH instead of my already skinny forearms. LOL! I am only a few pounds away from when I was my leanest in early April, but it definitely looks different this time around. I thought I added some muscle to my frame so I was anticipating looking more musclar at a slightly higher weight, but for some reason, it looks like I have even LESS than I did that first time! I see this particularly in my abs. Eh. I’m not going to worry too much about it because I know I am eating right, I geared my workouts towards leaning out, and all other areas of fitness are in line with my goals, so onwards I go! No room for hesitations or second guessing now! 
I did something really tough yesterday. I wrote an email to my sister and brother in law, and aired out some of my grievances with them that I had been keeping in for a few years. It was sooooo hard to press the send button. But send it, I did. And I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. That is, until I saw their reply this morning. It was something along the lines of, "We got your email. We are thinking of how to respond to you. Later."
Ugggh. That was SO not the response I was hoping for. This is my first real confrontation with my family, and I feel SO much anxiety over it, it’s not even funny!!! I am crossing my fingers that a week from now, I will look back on this and think of how awesome it was for me to do something that is so out of my comfort zone. I wish it was next week already, and I could be away from all this tension…
June 10, 2008 at 3:13 pm
Good for you for asserting yourself. Sometimes we work ourselves up dreading the response when it usually turns out to not be as bad as we think…although, I’m not sure how to take this response. We’ll lets just think of it as positive, rather than blurting out what they think/feel, they would rather think about it to choose their words wisely.
Was this one of those vent blogs that you didn’t want advice on? oops.
June 10, 2008 at 3:53 pm
Good for you sweetie, sometimes we just have to clear the air with our families. I was in my 20’s when I finally did that and after a little bickering and a few mended feelings we are all closer than ever. Good luck and stand your ground. Cheryl
June 10, 2008 at 4:22 pm
Awww hang in there and breathe!! Family stuff is never easy and sometimes things need to be aired!! Good for you for taking that step!!
June 10, 2008 at 5:59 pm
JJanet, it seems you’ve grown a lot assertive-wise just from the few months you’ve started blogging - congrats for that, and I think it’s great that you were brave enough to finally be honest and up front with your family! Hopefully they will take your point of view in mind, and that your relationship will grow stronger from this. Hang in there, girl - I hope it works out positively!!
June 10, 2008 at 7:11 pm
I think I can say it for everyone we are all proud of you. You really have grown and standing up for yourself is really something that you have to do. Congrats and keep up the hard work.
Big James
June 11, 2008 at 4:02 am
Hi Janet!
Yay for leaning out! 
It’s good to get things out rather than hold them in. As I’ve grown older, my relationship with my family has improved because I’ve been more honest with them!
June 11, 2008 at 4:32 am
: ) You have to be true to your self Janet family be damn. If you know in your heart what you did is right and that what you said is true then you did the right thing. Rember …..
you are the one who has to look at them self in the mirror and live with there discions everyday. : )
June 11, 2008 at 5:50 am
Well, if your family gets uppity with you, just remember the pepper spray! It is a great attitude adjuster. J/K
No matter what the outcome of your sister’s reply, you are better off for having aired your grievances. If your goal is to be more assertive, each time you do it the next becomes a little easier.
June 11, 2008 at 7:58 am
family can be the worst sometimes about stepping over the boundries. Some of them just do not see it at all. You will thank yourself and wonder why you did not send it along time ago when it is all said and done. Glad your getting results of your hard work in the gym and the kitchen. Keep it up.
June 11, 2008 at 7:51 pm
Oh man that sucks. If it was something that has been bothering you for a while it’s probably best that you got it off of your chest. That kind of anger/resentment can eat away at you. Better to deal with the unpleasantness of clearing the air and being done with it!
June 11, 2008 at 8:29 pm
Life: It happens, both good and bad. The secret? Never run, never hide, approach every situation, always with your best. Congrats on choosing not to run anymore: In the end, it will (WILL) work itself out.
June 14, 2008 at 5:22 pm
Family tension sucks, but it MUST be better to get it off your chest - out in the open rather than letting the poison/discontent fester inside you.
I believe you did the right thing. Wishing you a positive resolution.
June 14, 2008 at 5:24 pm
@ bigjeff0065: All that money spent on counselors and you have the answer right here and for FREE!
Pepper spray! Imma try that at our July 4 family picnic!