Broken!
I’m so bummed! 
My beautiful little laptop gave out on me. It was only a little over a year old!! Piece of garbage. HMPH! Yuck. I had sooooooooooooooooooooo many files on there that I am so SAD to be losing! I could just KICK myself for not copying them over to my external harddrive! UGH. So now I am stuck with my desktop. Which I hate. I hate vista. *rants*.
Okay. Enough venting. 
I am grateful for my desktop, vista and all! 
I have made my butt over to 10 of my workouts this month, so I am in line with the first half of my May goal! The clean diet part… well. 
I am eating cleanly, but something’s come over me in April and it’s carried over to May. I am just not willing to sacrifice the foods as much any more! I guess what it comes down to is lately, I would rather eat the dirty foods than see progress. On the plus side, I am doing enough cardio and lifting that it’s not doing much damage, but I am not progressing, either. A part of me feels like I’m just spinning my wheels and I feel frustrated that the desire to eat junk is stronger than my desire to see progress. A fairly simple problem with an easy solution, really. I guess I will have to find some way to want a tight and toned body more than being a social leper with my eating.
All right. So bring it! C’mon, you guys. Please remind me why I want the bod more than I want the foods! Shame me!!
So do you remember umbrella dude? Since I wrote about him last week, I have seen him almost EVERY time I’ve been at the gym! And I’ve seen him at Whole Foods as well, which is just down the street from the gym. LOL. Do you ever run into someone at the market, go your separate ways in opposite directions, and keep running into each other in the next aisles? And then it’s super awkward because you’ve done the small talk thing already and you have nothing else to talk about. So you move on, go to the next aisle, and then you keep running into them? So you get the bright idea to skip an aisle or two… which is GREAT… but they did the same thing as well, so you keep running into each other? No? Just me? LOL. A few days after he walked me to my car, we finished our workouts at about the same time, and we were both walking to the changeroom, and he asked if I wanted to grab a coffee. I declined, and since then, he is still really friendly… bordering on flirtatious. Like… giving me lots of compliments and such. Today, I saw him and he had noticed I wasn’t there yesterday. I was wearing this clip in my hair to keep my bangs out of my face, and he commented on how cute it was, and then he reached in and tucked some of my hair behind my ear, and goes, “There! And now you’re perfect!”. LOL. I laughed uncomfortably, and mumbled something about needing to leave. I changed reaaaaaaally slowly, and we still finished at the same time, and he walked me out to my car again.
Eh. It’s sort of an uncomfortable situation (I don’t need any assistance in solving it. 
I am just airing out some of my thoughts) that I got myself into. I am capable of getting myself out of it, too! I just… don’t like confrontations. I (am) contemplat(ing/ed) switching around my whole workout schedule just so I wouldn’t have to see him anymore. LOL. The old Janet would probably join another gym so she wouldn’t have to deal with it. LMAO. How funny that I am not even joking a little bit with that last statement. Old habits die hard, I guess. It’s strange being raised to value other people’s feelings and considerations more than your own, and making the transition to go the other way. Although… I can’t place the blame entirely on the way that I was raised because my sister is nothing like me, and we were treated pretty much the same way. So I guess it’s both nature and nurture showing its wicked passive head in me! All right, then. I’ve claimed it, I’ll solve it.
And just for giggles. I got some pictures back from when I traveled last winter. I went to Amsterdam and had some pot for the first time. Here’s a picture of me incredibly high. LMAO!!!!!
May 14, 2008 at 3:02 pm
Hey, I just saw your blog on the main page. Where have you been? I left a comment for you a few days ago :/
You can have some go through your harddrive and still back up those files on your crashed computer (that is unless you checked on that already). My buddy did it for me before.
btw - love the pic of you being high as a kite….that’s so awesome!
May 14, 2008 at 3:14 pm
JJ– LOL! you make me laugh because I do the same aisle avoidance thing…is the umbrella man stalking you?? (jking) but really sounds like he likes you a bit…..
onto important things… girl– you set out to accomplish a goal…you are not going to get there eating like Ninja bill ! (sorry bill) seriously, 4 weeks of sacrifice will reap months of moments of satisfaction!! don’t lose site you are so close!!! (and all that food will be there when you get that hot bod of yours that you desire (ummm can i have your old one?)
May 14, 2008 at 3:35 pm
sorry to hear about your laptop I think I’d mourn that loss pretty hard. Are you sure it’s "dead", dead?
And I figured that guy was going to get "more friendly"… The hair thing took big nerves…. lots of people don’t like being touched by newer acquaintances.
And lastly, that is an awesome picture!!!
I can almost recall the feeling that makes for such interesting expressions…
May 14, 2008 at 3:46 pm
dropped by for the chance that JJanet had a blog today…AND…YES!!! Have I told you lately I love your bloggage? Anyway- bummer on the laptop….bummer on umbrella dude…unless he is a good looking guy - maybe a cup ‘o coffee…but then again- that could lead to other expectations and wanting to start working out together…ok…talked myself out of that advice…avoid!
LOL! Funny…I have had to REALLY try hard to eat better as well…don’t know why…this is the time of the year to really crank down on the diet and kick up the cardio… Kinda in the same boat… but did have a good day to day… chicken breast from Whole Foods 
I have been very good for bfast through work…but when I get home…I guess I still have too much crap in the fridge I need to throw out for the next 90 days!!! Good work on the 10 down so far this month!!! I have 7 down….but 10 cardio days in… it is mid May…time to take it up a notch or two!!!
May 14, 2008 at 5:23 pm
Lmao…what a funny situation! I would just change the time I worked out at the gym too! No need to walk away completely! AND now we know he DEFINATLY had some intentions when he held that umbrella for you! lol
JJANET…You just showed your TRUE CANADIAN SIDE EH!! roflmao! I’m not gonna touch the pot too much…because ummm….well anyway…I dont…but I did…and ummmm….roflmao
SO awesome to see a JJ blog!! I missed you!!
May 14, 2008 at 6:53 pm
Well, you can’t have it both ways. You can’t eat the dirty food and workout then feel frustrated. You are progressing in not getting fatter! Ok, wait… you wanted help to go the other way…
Well I was once told never to give a woman a solution to a problem, she just wants to vent, so that’s my easy answer. I sympathize with your frustration.
As for Umbrella Guy, can’t blame him for trying, but people should never touch others without asking especially near the face. Maybe I’m just weird that way, but if I am not overly aquainted with someone and they reach for my head, their hand gets slapped away (not that that ever happens to me).
Maybe instead of changing your workout time you could just hit him with a faceful of pepper spray. Bet he’d leave you alone then!
May 14, 2008 at 7:07 pm
Sorry about the CPU. ROFLMAO at the pic.
I have a solution to your problems. Don’t change your workout plans talk to the guy. What you do is every time you see him complain about how you hate guys hitting on you at the gym and how your just there to work oh and keep mentioning how you are glad he is not that way. Unless he is stupid he will feel like an ass as well as get embarrassed.
I told you before there are guys that are just "nice" I think you being a little hottie.
May 14, 2008 at 7:43 pm
Maybe don’t change your workout times. I agree with dunkonu9. Just go there and when he asks you out again, tell him that he’s sweet but you’re NOT INTERESTED! Because he obviously likes you! Good luck with that and keep us posted!!!
May 14, 2008 at 8:39 pm
Is that an umbrella in your pants or are you just happy to see me??
I SO knew you were a stoner!! I bet you work out in tie dies and crank up Dark Side of the Moon on your hemp-made iPod! Hell, you are probably stoned as you are reading this. Put down the munchies, Cheech!
May 14, 2008 at 8:57 pm
Man, a woman who starts her blog with Vista bashing. You are freaking awesome!
I totally feel you on the cravings for bad foods. I’ll never give up my cheat meals. I would go absolutely bonkers without them.
Umbrella dude touching your hair was certainly odd. I would just tell him you’re not interested. If you change your schedule you could still bump into him.
May 14, 2008 at 9:05 pm
The data is safe and sound on the drive sounds like the mother board punched out not the drive. PM me I might have a friend in your area you can call to help save your day.
Big James
May 15, 2008 at 3:59 am
Good morning, Janet!
First, sorry to hear about your laptop. I’ve become so accustomed to logging on from anywhere now that the idea of being tied to a desk is frightful! You have all my empathy!!
Now, this creep-o. I’m glad you’re handling the situation without avoiding it. Avoiding issues usually doesn’t solve them and sometimes makes it worse! Kudos to you!!
Eating - you just need some "downtime" to assess your goals.
Sometimes the best thing we can do is tread water until we’re rested enough to move forward again.
May 15, 2008 at 4:56 am
Geek to the rescue!
The laptop has been repaired!!! YAAAAAAY!! It was the motherboard, and it’s been fixed, albeit temporarily! I’m not expecting it to be around for long though so I’m cleaning it out and making sure everything I want is out of there!
May 15, 2008 at 5:28 am
Stay away from the GREEN for MUNCHIES are soon to follow!! Or is that why they’re back *questioning eye* LOL j/k LMAO @ Jul’s comment. Umm, I’m not sure how to help you other than you need to gorge yourself on the bad foods so they make you sick so you no longer want them….at least that’s how I work. I feel horribly bulemic when I say that, but once I’ve been sick from something I tend to not want it again.
I hear you on the computer thing. Even though my laptop batter lasts all of 20 minutes before it HAS to be plugged in, I still like it better than my desktop. And they even have the same OS hahahaha Glad to see you have it back!
Umbrella Dude–hehehe SORRY! The hair thing was a bit much, in my opinion. I would straight up tell him that you’re not interested–be FIRM about it, but try not to completely crush his fragile ego. All guys have fragile egos; it’s up to us to figure out how to not be a total witch when denying them lol
May 15, 2008 at 6:10 am
I just got a MacBook Air about a month ago. Amazing machine. You must try one. Too many features to list. But I love the thing.
And unless some crazy stalker dude steals the whole computer from you, you’ll never lose your data. You can back up online automatically. : )
May 15, 2008 at 7:27 am
Glad to hear your laptop got fixed. I was going to let you know that just because the system crashed… doesn’t mean that your files are lost. Almost 99.9% of the time you can recover files from a corrupt PC. And in regards to the umbrella man, sounds like he did have "other" intentions now I guess. Just be careful he’s not a stalker.
May 15, 2008 at 9:38 am
LOL! Was that the paranoid look?
I know your not looking for a solution but I will always say something like I have to go meet my boyfriend.
May 15, 2008 at 5:55 pm
Sweet, you have your very own stalker…
May 15, 2008 at 7:29 pm
LMAO at King’s comments… that picture is definitely pretty classic, though!!
The guy… hrm, I think that it was TOO much of a coincidence with the aisle thing, and with being escorted everywhere at the gym! I don’t think you should switch your schedule around, though - that’s not fair to YOU if that schedule works for you! Remember my own guy problem? I just had to tell him right off the bat that his comments were making me uncomfortable and he backed off and now we’re ‘cordial’ friends. Communication is an excellent tool!
Awesome job with the workouts!! As for the food… hrm, once I figure it out for myself, I’ll pass on the wisdom!
May 16, 2008 at 12:16 am
LOL,,,even high you are incredibly adorable Janet!
May 16, 2008 at 5:28 am
See theres why you are not eating clean….. its called the munchies : ) LOL
May 16, 2008 at 5:41 am
I kept running into a large bearded woman with a poodle skirt on in the store one time….Strange doesn’t really begin to paint the picture…
May 17, 2008 at 1:09 am
I KNEW IT!! sorry..teehee!!