JJanet

May’s almost up, and I was thinking about how I did with my goals, and what I need to change in order to make June an even more successful month! Today marks my 20th workouts (yay to Redblokey and I for meeting our workout goal!), but my clean diet needs… a bit of work. My cheat meals/refeeds this month have been HUGE. They are like… mini-binges!! The gorge-fests have counteracted the effects of my workouts, so I am still pretty much in the same place. Hehehehe. To be honest, I rather like the way I look right now. My bodyfat is certainly not at it’s lowest (beginning of April), and neither is my weight. But I have TONS of energy, I feel FABULOUS, and with clothes on, I feel I am probably looking the best I ever have! So May was probably a good month to stay pretty much same.

But I’m going to be in a bikini for a week in June (going to Mexico! ), so for 3.5 weeks, I want to shift my goal towards looking good in a swimsuit, not just in clothes. Which means bringing that bodyfat DOWN!!! Here’s my plan for how I am going to get there:

- Workout 6 days a week, Keep calorie range below 1500, and 1 cheat ITEM (not meal!) a week. Also, I am doing a small experiment with my diet. I like to workout early in the morning, but my breakfasts were weighing me down. So instead of eating oatmeal and eggwhites before my workout, I am just sticking to a cup of plain greek yogurt (f-a-g-e). I know most people recommend having carbs before a workout, but I’ve done that for months now, and I would like to see if I notice any positive changes having a breakfast that is not quite so carb-heavy. So a typical day of eating will look like this:

Breakfast- Plain Yogurt

PWO - Sweet potato, whey/casein shake

PWO2- 1/3 cup of oats, 5 egg whites, serving of PB2, steamed green beans

Dinner - 6 ounces of ground chicken breast, 1 teaspoon of olive oil, spinach leaves

Snack - 1 cup of yogurt, 1 serving of PB2, celery sticks

Prebed Snack- Chicken breast, 4 ounces OR 1 can of tuna, 1 teaspoon of olive oil

And the breakdown: 1303 calories, 172 grams of protein, 89 grams of CHO, 30 grams of fat, bringing the percentages to 53% protein, 28% CHO, and 19% fat. Hmmm. The calorie range seems low, but there are several little things throughout the day that I don’t count, and my refeed item will be mostly CHO based, so I think I’m good to go!

I will take a progress picture on June 19 (ugh!). I have avoided taking those dreaded bikini shots because I felt sooooo horrible about myself for days after I took them, but it helps keep me focused, and the bit of accountability I have really steers me in the right direction. So that’s my focus for the next little while!

I have to tell you guys about a small victory I had! I met some new friends! They are fellow gym-goers, and last week, we went out to lunch after our workout! I could NOT have been happier! I do not know if it is the type of friendship that will be deep and lasting, but it was SO much fun to be a girl, and enjoy the senseless, useless gabbing we did! I don’t think I stopped smiling for days!! I’m so lucky!!!!

And an update on umbrella dude. He is officially getting on my nerves. I no longer feel like being polite to him. He is starting to ask more personal questions like, “What’s your address! I want to send you flowers”. And “When will you be at the pool next? What time?”, and “Where will you be going after you workout?”. Invasive much?! My new strategy now will be to, 1) Not smile anymore, 2) Not make eye contact with him, 3) Keep answers short and vague, 4)Remind him that I am not interested in any sort of friendship/relation with him, 5)Run to my new gym buddies for protection and get them all to give him a weird look. LOL.

Hope everyone is happy and healthy!

I’ve been taking a lot of classes at the gym lately to help with the cardio minutes (so that I can smoke bull-dogz in our cardio contest! hehehe!), and I’ve really been enjoying the spinning classes. It’s a fun way to make 60 minutes pass by in a flash, and forces me to work in intervals instead of my usual steady state sessions. But damn, sitting on that seat makes for a sore tush. At the end of today’s class, there were a few women standing by their bikes, discussing how wearing biking shorts alleviates a bit of the discomfort, and I asked one of them where she got the bike shorts she had on…

… and it turned out that she was not wearing any bike shorts.

She was really offended at my assumption. Yes, yes, ass, u, me.

Oops.

She hissed out, "I’m NOT wearing biking shorts. This", while gesturing towards her butt, "is EXACTLY why I’m GOING to these classes!". She sent me a glare that had me wishing I could blend into the walls, and she and her friend sent me one last withering glance before they left.

LOL. I felt SUPER horrible. But LMAO!! Why do I say the dumbest things to people?

My fellow bloggers! I can’t believe May is already here! My goal for this month is to make a combined total of 40 workouts with this Bloke’s help! I tracked the exact number of days I was at the gym for the past few months and decided I needed the numbers to be higher and more consistent! So we’ll see how this goes! My diet has been sorta kinda clean. But not really. Okay, it’s sucked the big turd since I got back from Vegas. ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT, if I must be completely honest. It sucked for ALL of April. *cringes*. Hehehehehe. But that’s changing now! May WILL be a month of GREAT nutrition.

Maybe.

I was talking to one of my closest friends. She lives abroad so our phone conversations are far and few in between because of the time difference. But anyway, we were gabbing like girls do, and I was marveling to her how NICE I think people are! For example, it was raining earlier, and I didn’t bring an umbrella (I never do - it doesn’t really bother me when I get a bit wet!), but this guy who was in the front area of the gym went out of his way to walk me to my car covering me with his umbrella. HOW NICE is that? So I was telling her that sometimes it amazes me how kind people are.

She rolled her eyes at me. (I COULD TELL!!!) And she was like, “Don’t be so intentionally stupid, Janet. He probably had NO kind intentions whatsoever, and was probably using it as an opportunity to talk to you and get to know you better.”

EH. So I ROLLED my eyes right back at her (And I know SHE could tell, too! Hehehe!), and said that I wasn’t about to assume that any time a guy did something kind for me, it was because he found me attractive. How stuck on myself would I be to assume that? It reminded me of fair Pixi’s entry about the dude and the email and stuff. I mean, I’m not a complete idiot, and sometimes they make it clear that they are interested in me, but other times when it’s just kind gestures like that, to me, that’s just human kindness.

It makes me wonder how hesitent people must be to do something kind for somebody else because their intentions will be misunderstood. For instance, I have taken to smiling at people all the time these days. Men, women, children. Men almost always smile back. Women seem to smile back about half the time, and the other half of the time, they turn away and avoid me. Children always smile back or glance away shyly, but I notice their mothers often seem to think I have other intentions or something! Sheesh, people! It’s just a smile!

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. A kind gesture is JUST a kind gesture. I would prefer to think people are good and kind rather than think they are interested in me. Does that make me intentionally stupid? Who knows. I’m just going to keep smiling.