The Cup’s half empty!
(Note: I would just like to vent. No need to console me. I know I’m being irrational. 
Crap, I’ve been in the foulest mood all day. STINKING ROTTON. I am so glad I have not come into personal contact with any of my friends because I am NOT fit for company. Friends wanted to go out tonight, but heck, with eating clean and no drinking, and this horrible mood of mine, I decided I was better suited to my own, foul company.
Firstly, I’m a little bit sick. I had a fever this morning, but it’s probably gone now, so I can’t use that as an excuse.
Second, I feel freaking OLD today. My little baby cousin… the one who puked all over me when I babysat her, whose diaper I changed… my little angel… she HAS HER FIRST BOYFRIEND!!! OH. MY. GOSH. F*uck, when did I get so old??!
Third, EVERY close female around me is having a baby!! AGH.
Just… foul. FOUL I SAY!
All right. *deep soothing breath*. Must not raise my cortisol levels. It was just a stinky day. But I know tomorrow will be better because I will make SURE it is better. 
ETA: I forgot! The thing that REALLY annoyed me!: There is ANOTHER reason I’m just the grumpiest thing on this earth. I was chatting with my sister (who lives a country away!), I told her, "I’m feeling REALLY discouraged today. I’m so tired of this eating, but I REALLY want to make my goal. Look at this picture and encourage me please." So she looks at it, and goes, "Ummm… Janet, I’ve always wanted to ask you when I’ve seen your progress pics: Are you sucking in when you take those?"
WTF. In a snarky voice, I said, "NOOOOOOOOO, I’m NOT sucking in. If I was sucking in, you’d see my sternum, all my ribs in the front, back and side, and part of my pelvis bone. So NO, I’m not sucking in." And she goes, "Oh. Well… what do you want me to say?" And I said, "PLEASE say something to encourage me!!!!!!!" And she smirked (I could tell by her voice!) and she says "Well, would you like me to wash my clothes on your abs?!" in this SUPER SARCASTIC VOICE. AGHHHHHH! If she was here, I would have just SMACKED her.
AGH.
March 14, 2008 at 6:31 pm
Don’t worry, kids aren’t all their cracked up to be. haha
plus you get more sleep! Hope tomorrow is a better day
March 14, 2008 at 6:31 pm
JJ Your not even close to being old . Hope you start feeling better and try to have a good weekend.
March 14, 2008 at 6:43 pm
That’s right. bcardi151 is "close" to being old and I’m - at five years older than him - and officially old.
And I also agree with mamma2three on the kids perspective. Do you have any idea what it costs to raise just one child? Holy dollar signs.
I think that most potential parents would quite possibly change their minds if someone spelled out the "fees" involved in "purchasing" the privilege of raising a child.
Zoinks!
Signed,
Curt - the happy *uncle*
March 15, 2008 at 4:32 am
Your sister is probably just jealous of your awesome body. I had a pretty lame last night because I went out with my friends as the DD so I won’t drink. They all got really drunk and were having an awesome time dancing and I was just sipping my seltzer . . . I kept thinking to myself, I will look hot for doing this, I will, I will, and they will be feeling awful this morning when I’m in the gym. Sometimes you gotta be like the little engine that could and just keep telling yourself over and over again that you can do it. And you can!! Stick with it!
March 15, 2008 at 4:50 am
I agree she is probably a little jealous. Don’t sweat it your hot she knows it.
Don’t sweat it about the negatives. I think somoene told me yesterday " I can choose to be all depressed by all the negatives out there, or I can be grateful for the positives"
I took that advice got my sorry butt up and threw on my body armor and hit up a hard core session of HIIT.
You did good yesterday and did not even know it.
March 15, 2008 at 6:44 am
No consoling, damn and that what i wanted to do. You always make me smile when i read the way you write. 1) your are not old. 2) yes you have a great body. And 3) yes i rember the first time i saw my neice with her new ummm chest, the same little girl whos diper i use to change. SMILE Janet welcome to the first day of the rest of your life. : )
March 15, 2008 at 7:40 am
Ugh…we all have those days!! Your DEFINATLY not old!! That would make me old too..and i’m not so your not! lmao! And I just saw your ab shot from March 11….you look FANTASTIC!!! You have awesome definition!!
March 15, 2008 at 7:46 am
You’re not old…….because I refuse to think that I am!!!..
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Life is an amazing experience. We are tough and fragile at the same time, both physically and mentally. Keep your dreams alive and enjoy the ride…:)
March 15, 2008 at 9:13 am
=) I can relate to this.Well half of this I defiantly don’t worry if people have kids I asked my mom few days ago if she would of rather had me then she was older and she said yes it would be much more spacial even if it was 26 instead of 22. BUT my sister is generally nice unless I’m doing something good or getting into shape she says many things that would make someone say forget it I’m not born for abs but that only makes me go on and when i see me getting closer to my goal I will show her.
March 15, 2008 at 9:16 am
P.S. I agree with people above your abs are PERFECT
March 15, 2008 at 10:47 am
I’m older than you, so you’ll get no pitty from me. The kids I babysat are getting married and having kids for godsake. The abs look super duper so buck up little trooper, it’s all worth it in the end.
March 15, 2008 at 3:56 pm
Oh my lord. Try it when you’re 36! I completely forget how old I am until something like that smacks me in the face!
March 15, 2008 at 9:24 pm
Dont worry about what your sister said. Most people dont get what we are trying to accomplish anyway, so it is hard for them to get excited for us. Oh Well!
March 16, 2008 at 12:12 pm
Yeah, my little baby cousins…one is married and divorced already and the other is engaged…all before I did it the first time…lol
But you do realize that since she’s your sister, it’s perfectly okay to smack her later for what she says today…lol "Remember that time back in 1994 when you stole my barbie?" *smack*
March 17, 2008 at 10:57 am
Gotta love sibling rivalry… luckily my brother and I don’t have too much of that, but she just sounds jealous. And you are NOT old!! Otherwise that would mean I was and I still want to be considered a spring chicken.