I’m SO passive… and a puker…
So the other day, I vented a bit about two comments that my personal trainer made - one about another female in the gym, and one about me, both about breast implants. Now, those two comments combined made me uncomfortable… but not uncomfortable enough to do anything about it. The fact is, I’m an extremely passive person. A doormat, one might say. But most people who know me… would think the total opposite. They view me as straightforward, honest, say what’s on my mind, type of person. But the truth is, I’m not. I will only say what I think among a handful of people. Everyone else sees the passive, suppress your emotions, Janet.
I will do almost anything to avoid a confrontation with everyone, except close friends and family. Actually, sometimes I will try to avoid it with them, too, now that I think of it. This is one of my biggest flaws. It is what prevents me from being friendly with people, having more close friends, and allowing myself to freely let down my guard. I’m sooooooo passive. This, I am working on. And maybe one day, I will have the courage to say something like, "Hey Trainer, stop talking about implants! It makes me uncomfortable!" . But for now, I will just acknowledge that his comments were unprofessional, and next time it happens, it would totally be my place to say something about it.
Now on to the puke. 
Today’s workout had me sweating so much that I was slipping across the mats and stablizing balls. I normally work up a light sweat, enough to delicately dab with my towel, once every 10 minutes or so. But not today. I was sweating so much that it was running into my eyes, stinging me with the pain of my own salt. My heartrate was consistently above 170 for an hour, with only a few seconds break in between. About 45 minutes into it, I started feeling pretty sick.
"I’m going to puke", I said. He’s all, "PUSH through it! It’s just the lactic acid flooding through your muscles! ONTO THE NEXT SET". So I pushed and pushed. And another 5 minutes, I felt the fluid surging up to the back of my throat… I paused, bent over… and swallowed it down. I finished up my workout, cooled down for 10 minutes, and went down to the change room… and let myself go. I let it ALLLLLLLLLL out until nothing more came out. This is all probably TMI, but this next part is especially gross. So stop reading if you get grossed out. But the puke tasted REALLY good. It didn’t taste sour or disgusting like puke ususally does. It tasted EXACTLY like my protein shake and sweet potatos that I had for breakfast. It left a nice sweet taste in my mouth afterwards.
LOL. Anyway. On that sweet note, I’ll stop writing.
February 25, 2008 at 10:26 am
I didn’t stop reading when you said stop, but by then it was already too late.
February 25, 2008 at 10:28 am
wow…that is kinda nasty.
Both the trainer and the puke.
February 25, 2008 at 1:19 pm
HAHAHA! The last thing you want to do is start enjoying the taste of your vomit.
You’re pushing yourself hard, but it’s good to really give it your all sometimes. I have days where I sweat so much I don’t think I have any more water left.
We’re both very shy and quiet, that’s good. I feel like I can connect to your writing and experiences more this way.
February 25, 2008 at 1:32 pm
Even if I wanted to stop reading I couldn’t I needed to find out what happened! Ah, so glad I kept reading. Now I will be thinking about protein shakes and sweet potatoes and vomit. What a combo!
I am shy and quiet about some things but I am not sure I would have kept working out feeling like I was going to vomit. I don’t know if you were in a gym when you hurled but I would have been mortified to chuck on the gym floor.
What did the trainer say after that happened?
"Oops, sorry my bad."
February 25, 2008 at 1:35 pm
Medically speaking about to puke is your body telling you something. I would take that and say to yourself time to back off and hydrate…. Vinny
February 25, 2008 at 2:16 pm
train to you puke, YES hardcore! I love it. I did it the other day and all I could think about was that I hoped I was not losing protein and creatine!
February 25, 2008 at 2:17 pm
I’m definitely non-confrontational, too, but definitely wouldn’t have put up with his remarks. You are a way bigger person than me for sticking with him… I would’ve reported that! So kudos for your patience.
As for the puke, is it weird that I say congrats?! Hee, because it IS kinda cool when that happens for the first few times… makes you feel all tough!
Glad you had a great workout in, puke and all!
February 26, 2008 at 3:32 am
LMAO Janet that was funny as hell, the puking part i mean, i didnt stop reading and i am still laughing. Know one strenghts and percived weekness is a good thing, Balncing passive with assertiveness is a good thing. And i did make it 3 in a row. Yeasterday i almost weakened a little during my work out but this little voice said in my head make it 3 good days…… Thanks for the help, Hope you have a good morning : )
February 26, 2008 at 5:26 am
I’m only passive in the business world other then that I will tell someone anyone sometimes I how I feel about them and if they don’t like it oh hell oh well! I think you’re being a little to hard on yuorself but at the same time if someone says something inappropriate to you, you gotta call em on their bs otherwise yeah they will walk all over you. The only reason why people are affraid of confrantation is because they fear that what someone may say to them will be true but I tell you what….I can clown a person way worse then they ever could me! Oh and the puke good job! Good workout!
February 26, 2008 at 5:26 am
Your so LUCKY! When i got sick last week after training legs my puke didn’t tase good at all. It really just tasted like puke.
February 29, 2008 at 5:41 am
I have never had good puke in my life, not even when its been pure vodka coming straight back up with only a second down there.