I have started the new year with blog on my website, sign up and follow along, it has training workouts, meal plans, exercise videos and more!
I have had a few things throw me off track feeding into some laziness......missed 2 weeks between Oct and Nov program bringing it to become my Dec Program.....and have had a hd go kaput and I lost 9 mths of data I was 'going to' back up......mentally paralyzed me and left me so unmotivated. End of year too, feeling a bit burned out.
I did 4 days of my new program, not properly either and then this hard drive issue so been off a few days again and eating badly so I gained 2-3 lbs, not a huge issue but in the mind of a recovered anorexic its enough to scare you back to regular training and eating right.....at least the days around the holiday. results come fast and easy for me most times but its still work and its below zero and I just want to hibernate right now.
its a good thing I love my job......personal training and my clients rock but I also have some art and my book writing dying to be attended to which I have been ignoring - knowing when I begin I go till I finish and go hard so............can anyone say 'balance'????
I need to keep saying this to myself and not overdrive myself which is my tendency.
Gotta keep telling myself to chill.......
Training goes well, diet goes well, even almost getting a full 2 gallon water in per day which has had amazing effects on my health........tweaky back but tolerable. it has healed a bit from that drug, it actually reversed a bit of damage and rebuilt the area a bit. at the least I know I can do some cycles of this to help rebuild it as it degenerates over time, which it will not just due to the nature of the disease but also because of the constant use of the cortocosteroids. I am about 16% according to my umbilicus accumeasurement, 120-124lb is my bounce of weight and I feel good, I look pre season, not off season...........I like that. Well actually for a natural show I am closer to on season look.....the look for my goal card is actually pretty extreme hence taking to me to new heights. Training under an hour for weights then under an hour for cardio 1, and my night cardio is only 3 days per week for 30 mins but not super passive mind you and I am pushing myself on everything but not weight wise....just endurance wise even muscle endurance wise. Yesterday I got super pissed off............I went to pick up my 45s for a set of chest press and could not get them f#@$^%ers in the air!!!!!!!!!!! I swore a blue streak and hate that I am not able to. I was able to at one point lift 52.5 lb DBs for my presses..........but this is something I can achieve again......its not back related. I just will possibley never hit my 205 for squat and deads again, the 2 plate per side lifts........but with the training I am on, weights can be heavier on some but most reps for 15 or more are light or body weight.......I did 400 mt climbers one day!!!!!! I just hope I don't get stringy looking! Well today is a cheat so I start my day with a coffee - and tons of cream!!!!!!!!!!!! Picked up some organic Italian wine to try with dinner, a white............but next time we go to the BIG liquor store where they have everything............I wanted a non suflite organic wine from bc or italy or france.......but incase I don't like it, we have sake which I know I like and regardless how well it fits into the menu, I can use it before or after dinner and the wine can be demoted for cooking if it sucks! Next year though, I want to try cooking some of the Thanksgiving meals/treats/sides I saw on martha sterwarts site. its nice with the pics to see how it looks and she has uber choices....... Next week I may go watch a local novice show as a few ladies and a trainer from the gym are going to be there as well as a lady I had helped out a bit......we will see how I feel. I have also been prompted to look ahead at my business, been in talks with my rmt and acu/yogi and for years we have been saying, 'we need to open a clinic together' and well, the time is coming with changes in all our lives leading and pointing us in this direction! We want to keep on the market we all attract and its a wellness/holistic/spiritual types we attract and I can do my competitive training for myself and for competitor clients, like a competitor training clinic too! I am so excited. I have known my mt since 2000, I know her integrity so its a safe and right...feeling, the venture is clear, I can see and taste the end result! Of course this is talking and early planning stages, this would all occur around 2012 for actually opening etc. Unfortunately I have been burned by too many fitness professionals to trust anyone in MY field...........sadly. If I ever do get a trainer under me there will have to be some ultimate trust there........and years of knowing the person. THANKS GG FOR THE AWESOME AVY!!!!!!!!! this year I am also giong to be setting up more shoots for my site, and get memberships up and running again, and will set up shoots with local babes too...........so gg, when you come out here, we have to shoot!
Well I am back at it and on a program which is more on season than off but I am going with it.
am working with Fitness Factory now, I saw the progress of other gals and whetehr it be the politics or look, I need the support so......I did it.
I have never used anyone before, have done it all myself up to now, this next show I am very serious about and want to sweep the shows I do 2011 so i am prepping at over a year out to make sure there is NO WAY i can lose.
I don't want second, I want first and I want overall and by Summer 2011 I want my pro card for ifbb.
So far so good, I am still pretty lean from last show, compared to how big some girls get off season, I only gained like 5 lbs and softened up a bit.
I think this extreme prep will get me my way, get me what I want.
Also being at Nationals for a 3rd year, not in a row but still builds familiarity which seems to be a helper to get you top spots in this show.
I finally saw a pic from the night show, although my color was gone by then, my cuts were just not enough to get me first.....the girl who won was that much more leaner, so I am leaning down more for Nationals of course which is in 2 weeks.
I am probably closer to 6% bodyfat now, 7-8 is where I sit I would say.
Now to balance things til Nationals, all the best fitness shorts from all over canada will be there, fitness short tends to be the toughest category.
2 weeks, actually more like 10 or so days left.......Aug 15th is the day.
onto nationals, I see from my placing, the muscle gained is still not enough, the gal who won is harder and bigger, but I did place higher than last yr, again because I am harder and bigger than I was last yr so on to more work toward being harder and bigger to increase my placings.
Things are going well, I am ready.
I feel good and I feel I look good. I would like to have been a tad tighter but have 5 days and am in pms.....but I think as is I am probably still stage passable.
I did Cardio movie night Friday and Saturday. This is where I pull the recumbent bike in front of my TV, and rent movies on demand. Friday I rented 'Push' and did 2 hours on the bke, then Saturday I rented 'Knowing' and did 2 more hours on the bike!
Been training moderate to light, to maintain and cut. Diet is great, suits are ready, tan is ready.........set ......go!
I am not going to post any more updated pics, going to be a bit more secretive for now........
Well, I still find myself in shock that Michael Jackson is passed. He was such a huge part of my life and influence. I became a veg for almost 20 years because of him, I danced cuz of him and found myself cuz of him. I was the girl people giggled at and pointed at in the 80s, the one with all the pins on my jacket, wearing his gloves, shoes, socks....walking around with a ghetto blaster playing his stuff........now to find out he was on prescriptives now since the hair burn.....cocktails of it, like my mom is.......wow. No one really knew about my mom either and those I told did not believe me cuz my mom put up a front that made it seem inconceiveable that she was a drinking drug user....... until she had accidents and ended up in ER and had blood alc tests because they could smell it on her and slowly others began to see - yet nothing has changed anyway........her dr keeps a dealin'
but I had no idea MJ was that far gone too.....although he did not booze it up like my mom tends to on occasions and she is 75 so I suppose a stronger body than his frail light body. He did fasts alot and over exercised, from all the stuff I read on him....
that is taxing on the heart too but now to know what was happening with the drugs......well, being I live in that situation I have a whole new light on him......I never thought he was wacko but if you know anyone on prescriptions or drinking and mixing, you know they do weird ****.....so being I know this first hand I now understand all his actions that everyone made huge deals about like the baby dangle etc.......you would be amazed what someone all hopped up on prescriptions is capable of and not even fathoming what they are doing..........and instead of help, he was made fun of, accused of things he did not do. At least he is where he is loved now, unconditionally.......earth is more like hell for people as innocent and pure as he was.
Well needless to say I was very unmotivated this weekend. I got in 3 days weights last week and 5 days cardio with 3 days routine work. I hovered down to 122 a few times but still seem to stick around 125. I feel I look leaner but once I post pics we can see if my eyes are on par....my friend Mariam will see them and tell me. Part of me knows I am right on track but then I also know I have cheated each weekend the past few and should not have........this weekend I did it again and cannot seem to control myself and am so hungry, my metabolism is through the roof.
I am soft today so I won't bother with fat testing but will get pics n bf by weekend maybe, and that will help keep me clean for the week.
I have been inconsistent with my supplements which is so odd, some days I take it others I do not,
I did nothing this weekend......feels good but scary......I am now 4 wks out.
I feel good and feel I look good for this point but its always scary to take days off or cheat so close even if you are balanced right for the time!
Well today will be a good training day with an hour cardio and a good 45 mins of weights.
I am doing well with my leaning, training etc, all things considered.
Lots of media are interested in featuring me and am liking the coverage as it has all been very positive!
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So after 4 hours of lost cardio up to yesterday, and only a day or 2 of weights, back at it today, did cardio for 30, routine for 30 and then had an interview and photo shoot for a local news print called Metro News between my clients.
I am 125 and about 16%bf.
Down to 16% today, 125lb.
Feeling it too.
I ended up taking yesterday off too……..I was tired and ravenous, I ate oatbran a few times, eggs a few times, a few small granny apples with pb, had a huge burrito bowl - not too bad but for this timing of the diet its a sketchy choice - I listed the contents in a previous post but the worst part is the extra starches in it even so they are all good ones, but I was just not going to stop munching so I had to eat!
Looks like the rest and food was what my body wanted and this mornings stats show it!
I fell asleep forgetting to get pics so maybe later today.