I have had a few things throw me off track feeding into some laziness......missed 2 weeks between Oct and Nov program bringing it to become my Dec Program.....and have had a hd go kaput and I lost 9 mths of data I was 'going to' back up......mentally paralyzed me and left me so unmotivated.  End of year too, feeling a bit burned out.

I did 4 days of my new program, not properly either and then this hard drive issue so been off a few days again and eating badly so I gained 2-3 lbs, not a huge issue but in the mind of a recovered anorexic its enough to scare you back to regular training and eating right.....at least the days around the holiday.  results come fast and easy for me most times but its still work and its below zero and I just want to hibernate right now.

its a good thing I love my job......personal training and my clients rock but I also have some art and my book writing dying to be attended to which I have been ignoring - knowing when I begin I go till I finish and go hard so............can anyone say 'balance'????

I need to keep saying this to myself and not overdrive  myself which is my tendency.

Gotta keep telling myself to chill.......