Linda Cusmano ‘OUT FOR BLOOD 2011′

Well, I still find myself in shock that Michael Jackson is passed.  He was such a huge part of my life and influence.  I became a veg for almost 20 years because of him, I danced cuz of him and found myself cuz of him.  I was the girl people giggled at and pointed at in the 80s, the one with all the pins on my jacket, wearing his gloves, shoes, socks….walking around with a ghetto blaster playing his stuff……..now to find out he was on prescriptives now since the hair burn…..cocktails of it, like my mom is…….wow.  No one really knew about my mom either and those I told did not believe me cuz my mom put up a front that made it seem inconceiveable that she was a drinking drug user……. until she had accidents and ended up in ER and had blood alc tests because they could smell it on her and slowly others began to see - yet nothing has changed anyway……..her dr keeps a dealin’
but I had no idea MJ was that far gone too…..although he did not booze it up like my mom tends to on occasions and she is 75 so I suppose a stronger body than his frail light body.  He did fasts alot and over exercised, from all the stuff I read on him….

that is taxing on the heart too but now to know what was happening with the drugs……well, being I live in that situation I have a whole new light on him……I never thought he was wacko but if you know anyone on prescriptions or drinking and mixing, you know they do weird ****…..so being I know this first hand I now understand all his actions that everyone made huge deals about like the baby dangle etc…….you would be amazed what someone all hopped up on prescriptions is capable of and not even fathoming what they are doing……….and instead of help, he was made fun of, accused of things he did not do.  At least he is where he is loved now, unconditionally…….earth is more like hell for people as innocent and pure as he was.

Well needless to say I was very unmotivated this weekend.  I got in 3 days weights last week and 5 days cardio with 3 days routine work.  I hovered down to 122 a few times but still seem to stick around 125.  I feel I look leaner but once I post pics we can see if my eyes are on par….my friend Mariam will see them and tell me.   Part of me knows I am right on track but then I also know I have cheated each weekend the past few and should not have……..this weekend I did it again and cannot seem to control myself and am so hungry, my metabolism is through the roof.
I am soft today so I won’t bother with fat testing but will get pics n bf by weekend maybe, and that will help keep me clean for the week.
I have been inconsistent with my supplements which is so odd, some days I take it others I do not,
I did nothing this weekend……feels good but scary……I am now 4 wks out.
I feel good and feel I look good for this point but its always scary to take days off or cheat so close even if you are balanced right for the time!

Well today will be a good training day with an hour cardio and a good 45 mins of weights.

I am doing well with my leaning, training etc, all things considered.

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So after 4 hours of lost cardio up to yesterday, and only a day or 2 of weights, back at it today, did cardio for 30, routine for 30 and then had an interview and photo shoot for a local news print called Metro News between my clients.
I am 125 and about 16%bf.

Linda

Down to 16% today, 125lb.
Feeling it too.
I ended up taking yesterday off too……..I was tired and ravenous, I ate oatbran a few times, eggs a few times, a few small granny apples with pb, had a huge burrito bowl - not too bad but for this timing of the diet its a sketchy choice - I listed the contents in a previous post but the worst part is the extra starches in it even so they are all good ones, but I was just not going to stop munching so I had to eat!
Looks like the rest and food was what my body wanted and this mornings stats show it!
I fell asleep forgetting to get pics so maybe later today.

Linda

Darn it, missed cardio Wed, Fri, Sat and Sun! I mean I was not sitting on my ass but still………….and I think I am okay but you know how that plays with your head…..July 25 will be here soon!!
Did weights Wed, Thurs just routine work then weights again last night, but not as heavy as i should maybe, using bands at home, even so I have the bodylastics set with the blue band which is 15-18.lbs then i can add more bands to make it heavier I was not in the heavy mode but did not want to miss the workout neither so……and my arms look great when i train, relaxed they are still not all pokey and curvy but getting the tone back……I am at 127, then 129, and not sure this morning of weight or bf……will check this week with some pics. I know I look leaner, that I know for a fact and my saddles are smaller, the skin is more custard vs cottage cheese in the leg area….which the camera won’t pick up too much but whatever…….I spent a lot of time mentally memorizing the routine to the music too.

Did some art this weekend too…..also went out…..

I was at a clients house for a early dinner gathering with my acu/yogi and another lady who is into wellness massage etc who I have not been to but my client as and was refered by our acu so anyway, this lady has pets! Normally I would have prob politely declined……I really like time to myself and rarely do stuff with people anymore and when I do its only a few times per year and you have to bend my arm……like a few months ago when a client took, me and another gym guy to a canucks game……..but anyway…….
this lady has 2 wonderful dogs, 2 cats, and a horse! So we are all chillin in her back yard which sits on a river and this is in NORTH Van which is still pretty cityish, there used to be less houses and more land there years ago, many, but now its all filled in like most areas…….they still get bears and cougars and such but its very city still so anyway….the trees in that area are all slowly getting cleared to build on big lots of land but anyway…………..
so she has a horse who is about 20 named casablanca…..I call him casanova, he is a big drassage horse and her dogs are also older………so anyway…..here we site in her backyard on some glorious furniture on the river, trees, grass, and a big beautiful horse walking around doing the lawn………….it was amazing.
No offense to the ladies, I love them dearly but that was the clincher for me, the horse and pets!!! And so much reviving energy.
Before this, i was at home sitting on my back porch and we hear an eagle cry, I look up, and there are 2 flying around directly overhead!!!!!!! in looking at them I see this rainbow…….on a clear sunny day, no rain the past few days and none to come, yet a rainbow, and it was AROUND the sun……never seen this before it was amazing……..I see nature things like this as signs of positivity, good signs for fortune and luck and peace.
so today I was just bagged, canceled my my one and only appt and am sitting here relaxing like a bum! had my egg, posted a questions btw in the foods area of the main forum…….and here I sit. Anyone wanna go out and play????

wait, gonna do my stats……..

Okay so I am 125.4 or .8…..it changes but whatever…..and am around 17% bf…………..that suprised me, missing 3 hours or 4 of cardio this week and I still dropped a few lbs and 1% bf.
I have to get to 6%. 11% more to………by July 25th so 8 weeks left…………I think I will get there if not early!
So maybe the rest break was good?
its always such a mind f*&k when competing and I forget something somewhere daily! I have to slow down and think carefully cuz the lack of carbs turns you stupid!

Linda