Trish’s BodyBlog

So, I’ve had pretty much a month of inconsistent training. By that I really mean I have been feeling completely off and basically lost track of what exactly my goals where and have barely sustained 3 workouts a week. After feeling very down and stressed and not all there these past few days I decided to just sit and think whats up with myself and you know, try to fix it because I was becoming miserable.

Now, I didn’t really come up with too much last night, but while working and walking, putting one of the kids for a nap it dawned on me. I lowered my goal after being discouraged. I missed my two 45minute cardio sessions a day, and wasn’t excited for my training because it wasn’t what I wanted. I totally regressed back to where I was before I had trained hard and seriously and let myself keep off it, and discouraged myself. I guess change can be a very scary thing sometimes as its not what I am use too, and lost sight of my goal. I wasn’t as happy, I wasn’t as energetic as when I was training and its kind of odd. But when I decided that I was going to go back to training for a full marathon I have seemed to perk up a bit. Its weird really.
So though I only have 5 months now, I think I really need to do this marathon, not only for my health but to enforce this life style change. I need to learn not to give up and really follow through on this goal. I have never really done it  before so I have to realise that sticking to this life style change isn’t going to be a piece of cake and definitely not my marathon training. But I really want to be present on October 19th and cross that darn finish line! This marathon is really significant to me as it represents so my change to a more motivated, positive me. This whole process is turning out to be such a learning experience and I need to learn not to let anyone discourage me from my goals, especially the demons in my head! So now its back to pushing myself, and this time I can’t give up.

Wish me luck!

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