From Alcoholism to Anabolism
June 25, 2009I’ve just finished training shoulders today and I feel great getting that pump and aches in my delts! Those last two reps, man!
Thinking back to the last few years when I was hit by a psychological problem called alcoholism — that means I had to drink a bottle of gin or brandy or anything alcoholic every other day just to keep me from shaking, not to mention to keep me in one piece. I was really devastated and I felt I was dying slowly! My hard-earned muscles from all those past years of powerlifting and bodybuilding just seemed to weaken and atrophy to an alarming degree. I lost a great deal of muscles. The mass of my upper chest muscles faded away. My knees buckled every time I had to walk down the stairs. My hands and fingers lost strength and coordination. My kidneys hurt! My obliques twitched every time I had to move. One time I even urinated unconsciously for the first time while asleep!!! My body wanted to stop drinking but my mind didn’t want to. So this gradual suicide and slow death went on for another month or two.
Then finally one day early this year (2009) every thing suddenly changed. I got myself to the gym and tried bench pressing to see if I’m still worth living. In my frustration for failing to do bench 6 reps with a 65 lb barbell and zero rep in parallel-bar dips (my favorite exercise in the past — weighted dips with 120 lbs for 10-12 reps, circa 1981), I fought very hard with myself to quit drinking once and for all and got my ass back weight training and live an alcoholic-free life.
Today my bench press, squat, deadlift poundage have all improved a lot. Thanks to muscle memory. But I’m still a long way to the finish line, but I’m on my way for sure. The persistent pain in my kidneys is gone. My knees are now stronger. My hands are no longer shaking, except of some joint pain here and there (what to do, I’m getting old). I’m gaining muscle mass slowly once more.






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