In_Flight’s BodyBlog

having a pretty bad day, feeling grumpy and gross. definatly considered gettin some chips before work.

then i came online and saw all your wonderful comments and it made me steer away from the junk and think about getting my head on straight.

Thanks

basically it boils down to you and my boyfriend lol. and honestly i like it that way. when i go with my boyfriend about 4 years ago he taught me a valuable lesson…to take compliments with a smile and a thank you! it isnt easy at all but i got it and i use that lesson everytime i get n e compliment…alot of girls will tell me how they love that about me, and my answer is always that its hard but its worth it for me and the person im talking to. bodybuilding however still hasnt hit my comfort zone with everyone yet and i kind of tend not to mention it. I still dont know exactly why i do, but i love it, that of couse makes it that much harder to explain. I go to school with people who have ALOT of opinions so i tend not to even mention i work out at all to most people lol and i come from a small town so its pretty hush hush there as well. IF i do get a comment or compliment i will usually turn it into a joke, get really uncomfortable and change the topic quick.

in saying all this i hope you realize how much i appriciate the support system i get here. at home around my boyfriend im still shy, i tend to be very modest for the most part, only talking about bodybuilding in a general sense instead of perssonal. Here however is where i can let it out. my struggles, my accomplishments, pictures, advice..its amazing. i feel like on here i can be the Victoria no one else sees, the strong, commited, curious one. I love every bit of it.

I guess all this means thank you

my b/fs parenst were up all weekend…so besides yoga and some walking i didnt get much accomplished. IM happy i watched my diet, it seems to be getting alot easier to do for me

I was in need of a kick ass workout today and that is what i did!! legs, shoulders and abs… i had soooo much fun. i love when i enjpy my workout. now if it wasnt for homework i would go for a run just because i feel so pumped lol but i guess i should get stuff done.

 We went to  naturally fit the other day, they were sellling outdated protein and well we havent had money for any in like FOREVER!!! so we went up. a chick we know works there so we got it for like nohtnign, but i hadnt tried it before and probably wouldnt have so i was a little weary on what it would taste like.

IT WAS AWESOME!!! 1 scoop+ 1  banana and a bit of milk..it tasted just like a fruit smoothie. ISO LEAN strawberry kiwi. pretty damn good if u ask me

well its been weird, im drained!!. staying up on my diet for the most part but im bloated as hell still….i’ll chalk it up to stress for the week since its the last of classes for the semester. My workouts haven t been great at all!!!! but im still trying, im so tired i just want to sleep but there is sooooo much to do. my yoga is still keeping me sane for now lol. i think i may kick in some pilates for the rest of the week so im still getting a workout…..

my confidence is one of those things that get me all the time. i havent grown up being a very confident person so i struggle alot more than most people with alot of things, whether it be walking down the street, meeting new people or just working out. I have not been able to go to the gym. i did whne i was in grade 11 for a while most just me and a few others in the afternoon then i started going in the evenings i think only twice. I quickly became very embarrassed, not only was i wway out of my comfort zone working out infront of people but i was constantly getting to remarks about how small i was…they were only trying to be funny, not make me feel bad but it TOTALLY set me back, the end of me going there was when i asked for help forom the trainer on an exercise and he looked at me like i had three heads and didnt know what i was talking about, i said ill figure it out on my own, quickly finished my exercise, jumped on the eliptical and made my way home asap!…so i still havent got the guts to go to a gym since then, though i LOVE training. but it doesnt end there. When i work out at home, i aim one mirror in front of me and on to the side so i can get a good view of my form. even being by myself i often feel awkward, like look at me. why is little me training???…..This week though there was a break through, as i have been training i have been feeling very confident, i enjoy watching my muscles work and i feel like i fit the image as a "fit girl". I feel confident!… I have also been doing yoga every morning in my living room, this is Extremely big for me bc my boyfriend sees me, and once he even joined in (i used to lock myself in my room for yoga!!) I still work out alone in my rooom, with that door locked just in case…but im feeling so much better about myself, im excited to see what will happen next, may ill leave the door open :0 lol. i know this all probably sounds sooooo silly but for me who almost has a panic attack when i jog in the eveninig bc people can see me, this is a great succses !!:)

I have to say, i dont really enojy doing legs so much. i dont know why, maybe its because i dont see results so quickly or that i get so sore but i just dont care for it. however i get through the workout and always happy the next mornning afternoon when the pain sets in

clinic sure does kick my ass though. have sore legs and standing all your wieght on them for hours massaging kinda hurts after a while lol. the only good thing is that it is impossible for me to forget how good i worked them lol.

ill dealt with the pain

Can’t complain really.  things are going pretty good. school is gettin hectic but im staying on top of that and my workouts. Yoga evry morning, workout 5 days a week, cardio 2.

took a photo of my back today. yippie…very pleased!!!!! i love when i surprise myslef. my diet is still kicking my ass abit but its 10x better than a month ago lol, its soooo hard have like NO money to buy food and still maintain a good diet.

ive preparded a 6 week challange for myself to give me somethng to aim for. im very excited about it. My detox is also going very well, im feeling refreshed and at ease. since ive came to college so much has changed for me, alot is still changing and i love every minute of it

Main objective of august- full body detox. Yoga, body scrubs, sea salt baths and maybe a cleanse. Im feeling the need for freshness lol.

Training- more days off!! hahaha im a busy girl so i need to be realistic about this, i will feel less guilty if i choose to have the day off rather than "skipping" a day.

monday-abs, shoulders, glutes

tuesday-OFF, CARDIO

wednesdya-abs, arms

thursday-OFF, CARDIO

friday-abs, legs

saturday-OFF

sunday-abs, back,chest

Diet- im working on allowing some cheats in. Wednesday, Saturday= 1 cheat meal! up the water intake, eat more protein and cut out some carbs

my body is finally back where i want it. soon time to start challanging myself again. Back at 5 meals a day, trainigng 6 days a week and cardio at least 4 days a week. im also back out for my walk enjoying the air.

These last few months have been a challange. i was in a rut in all aspects of my life and kept falling behind, i didnt know if i would catch up again, it seemed like when i felt like i wanted to take control again something always happeneed to screw it up..that somehting was always me.

I feel so much more peacful and relaxed lately. though there are still some struggles that need to be dealt with at least now i have my training back in order to help me deal with the stesses. This morning on my way back from my run it starting raining, it was the most amazing run ive had, it was beautiful.

 Eating a bit too many carbs lately, thats my only real complaint. Now i need to start thinking about how i will challange myself for August

HAve a great day!!

i went to a pool party yesterday and 2 things happened. #1 a guy friend of mine commented on how "jacked" i was lol #2 i was too embarrased to take my jeans off!! this means that i still have my shape, but ive lost my confidence. i really need to get back at least to where i was.

I got up at 6 am this morning for a walk. its the first time in weeks ive been able to get out of bed early. I made some scrambled eggs for breaky and packed lunches for school. I need to get back at it fast