My commitment..to ME
Today I ran/walked for 30 minutes, then I walked for about 60 minutes, I had a nice little workout, I tanned, I ate really good (exept a bit of ice cream after supper) and My day for tomrorow is already planned out. All I can think about though is the stupid ice cream, the dishes im doing which im the ONLY one who ever does, the mess my house is in b/c my guy stayed home from work today and how I should be at the gym right now. My point….I focus on the negitive in my life…im not happy. I find myself unhappy alot….but these day im more unhappy then i am happy.
About 18 months ago I was in really good shape..and i still am (just not as strick) but now all i think about is what i do wrong and then all i thought about was how in control i was. My life is fine, im in good shape and have the potential to take it farther. Thats awesome. so why do i focus on all the bad? I donno!
I spend at least 1 hour a day either thinking, writing, reading or talking about how to improve my life. what would make me happier, then it seems like that where it stops. Does it stop b/c my guy is home from work and i fall back into my routine? does it stop b/c i like to have something to work towards?? i dono but I hate it.
So my commitment to myself is that a few times a week i will come on here and write about me. I will focus on one thing that makes me unhappy, talk about why it makes me unhappy, what control i have over it and how i can change it. Hopefully this will open my eyes and get me going again, focusing on ME ME ME.
Thanks for reading this blog and feel free to read the others as they come. I dont expect answers to my problems, you dont even have to respond, but if you feel like reading maybe you’ll learn a thing or two too 
All my bb.com friends…xo
May 13, 2009 at 5:56 pm
I hear where you’re coming from. I’ve been deployed for a while now, when I got out here, I was in good shape, not great but good. I was going to improve on it out here, but somewhere along the way I lost focus. And now I eat junk food and don’t workout. I’m trying to get back into a routine, but it gets harder each time I try. I’m finding myself searching for the same answers you are. Hopefully, we’ll find them soon
Good luck and stay focused!!
May 13, 2009 at 6:35 pm
A lot of things that make us unhappy (whether we realize it or not) is exactly because we can’t control it. I hope your blogging about it gives you some measure of control and, eventually, allows you to correct it or move past it.
May 13, 2009 at 9:31 pm
we all have to find that balance! I have that same trouble, i like yoga and just a good hard run to release a lot of stress. a type of run that pushes my limits, along with some emotional music to get me going and just vent. i find that i just need to relax and do something that makes me and me alone happy instead of worrying about everyone else.