In_Flight’s BodyBlog

So I started going to the gym about a month or so ago with a girlfriend in the a.m. this messed things up for me b/c i usually go in the p.m with my guy. I was juggling workouts for a few weeks and now im not even going in the evenings b/c its too much. I did this b/c she was shy and wanted me to go with her. ive totally been there so i couldnt say no. welll……she turned crazy!!!! she drives off of doing better than me!!!!! a little healthy competion is good but this is too far! I only get a half assed workout b/c of her asma and she takes so damn long getting to the gym that we dont have much time before classes, it ticks me off because ive talked to her about it and nothing changes. she will tell me about how shes going to work out at home after class ….onyl on days when she knows i work or have clinc so i might feel guilty that i cannot workout. She’s started drinkign the tea i drink, eating the food i eat and even dressing like me! its driving me nuts! and anything i do good, shes trying to do better…like everything!

on valentines day i took some naughty pics for my guy and i told her i was gonna do it. what happens? the day after v-day she shows up with her camera to show me the pics she took for her guy!!! we went shopping togetehr and i said about how much i loved a dress, there was only one left and the moment i took my hand off it to go look at another one she grabbed it, tried it on and bought it!

I have been doing REALLY good with my diet and that and id been saying how much better i felt…what does she do? invite me over, buys chips and ice cream…we start eating and soon into the movie i notice that IM eating. she may have had 10 chips and i tottaly saw how my bowl was rounded with ice cream and hers only had a few spoon fulls. also today she didnt show up at the gym….she come to class with a huge chocolate bar and an apology sign on it?!!?!?! seriously maybe im analzing this too much but i hate it.

Im now at the point where i dont want to tell her anything good baout my life because she takes it..she even went so far as to buy the exact same teapot as me after i came to class saying how much i loved it!!! LIke i said a little bit of competition is healthy but having a friend who intentionally does not want you to good sucks. im b/w a rock and a hard place…i love her but i hate this

Im feeling better, getting myself together, back at the gym, back to a diet. and then mother nature hits!!! what!! im bloated, gasy, craving everything and feeling like laying on the floor and not maving. At least I know why right? and i can fight it, but holy crap what timing!!!!

                      
                        LIFE IS NOT ABOUT FINDING YOURSELF

                      
                        IT IS ABOUT CREATING YOURSELF

                      
                                                               -author unknown

So far monday has been good. up at 6 am, workout, alot of sweat and then classes.

havent ate anything bad yet

dont know what ill be doing late but the morning was a happy face

I can hardly talk. im so sick ive been for a while now. Ive still been able to eat but not much and i can lie and say ive been taking the time to cook some ood hardy meals at all.

My guy and me are on the outs, seeing where thigs go. So i havent been to the gym b/ctheonly time ive had to go was whn he was there and thats just asking for weirdness. besides i havent been must feeling like training. I cant say my ambition is really there. I know i gotta get back  to it, if for no oher reason i should becase itll help me feel better. i just gotta get off my butt. Maybe after work today who knows if ill get all the homeowrk im behind in done!

anyway thats my awful week. hope today is the start to feeling a bit better.

  ~ I am thankful for my family who aways give me a reason to shoot higher~

It was so fun but i was oh so bad. chips, homemade dip, cake, bacon wrapped scallops, beer, ceasers and much more! my diet for the weekend. So friday night some friends from Nova Scotia came up to see us. we went to a house birthday party that night. The next night was the UFC fight (which was amazing!). sunday night was superbowl (another great one!). this morning doesnt feel so great lol.

im catching up on homework and lots of it, i have a messy house to clean and im pretty sure i ate and drank enough calories for the rest of the year! The gym will be much needed today, another kickass week whiich is always goodfor the gains but my bad habits are not so friendly which my thighs or midsection. cardio must go up! and no more binging. (untill graduation night and maybe a bit of chocolate on valentines day