In_Flight’s BodyBlog

my confidence is one of those things that get me all the time. i havent grown up being a very confident person so i struggle alot more than most people with alot of things, whether it be walking down the street, meeting new people or just working out. I have not been able to go to the gym. i did whne i was in grade 11 for a while most just me and a few others in the afternoon then i started going in the evenings i think only twice. I quickly became very embarrassed, not only was i wway out of my comfort zone working out infront of people but i was constantly getting to remarks about how small i was…they were only trying to be funny, not make me feel bad but it TOTALLY set me back, the end of me going there was when i asked for help forom the trainer on an exercise and he looked at me like i had three heads and didnt know what i was talking about, i said ill figure it out on my own, quickly finished my exercise, jumped on the eliptical and made my way home asap!…so i still havent got the guts to go to a gym since then, though i LOVE training. but it doesnt end there. When i work out at home, i aim one mirror in front of me and on to the side so i can get a good view of my form. even being by myself i often feel awkward, like look at me. why is little me training???…..This week though there was a break through, as i have been training i have been feeling very confident, i enjoy watching my muscles work and i feel like i fit the image as a "fit girl". I feel confident!… I have also been doing yoga every morning in my living room, this is Extremely big for me bc my boyfriend sees me, and once he even joined in (i used to lock myself in my room for yoga!!) I still work out alone in my rooom, with that door locked just in case…but im feeling so much better about myself, im excited to see what will happen next, may ill leave the door open :0 lol. i know this all probably sounds sooooo silly but for me who almost has a panic attack when i jog in the eveninig bc people can see me, this is a great succses !!:)

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