stress…your body
We all have our moments, our down times, our lows. but we usually quickly forget how it feels and forget it happens. IM not sure if i suffer from depression, ive ALWAYS went through these "bad times" but i know its bad and i know im not alone in feeling this way. There are days and even weeks where i cry, feel TERRIBLE and would rather stay at home and wallow in self pity then see the light of day. I bring this up now because yesterday evening I got over what was a very long week, maybe even two weeks of this "low time" for me. Its hard to explain to the people around you how you are feeling and its hard not to be even more hurt when they dont understand you.
I am lucky however, i am VERY aware of my feeling this way and am able to "handle" it my own way. im slowly learning the proper ways of dealing with this stress, when anybody experiances these feelings it is so important not to be in it alone yet not to bring anyone else down with you. though the feelings are real they are exaggerated in your mind, like youu cant handle today what was easy yesterday yet all along it was never easy, now it just seems impossible. Self destruction comes easily with this. Everybody reacts differently, i eat like a pig, lay on the couch, cry and act rediculously miserable! its an awful way to handle these feelings because you make yourself suffer more. when my mind starts to turn around like it did yesterday I quickly react, clean my house, have a nice cleanseing bath and meditate. I clear the stress away and im okay! and now i feel better than ever.
why do we do this and whats makes it happen? i dont know, my opinion is that we keep too much inside and dont fully "release" our stresses until enentually our body says okay, you are going to deal with this! is it a bad thing? i honestly dont think so. though it seems that its an unhealthy even i think it is nessesary as long as you can handle it in an okay way and are not alone with your feelings. Its like house clenaing for your emotions really!!
so the pointt of the blog?!?! well i just wanted to explain myself a bit more and let anyone who feels this way (which im sure are many more than a handful) that it happens to most fo us and the important thing is to know it, handle it and pick yourself back up!
have a great week…i will!!!
ps…my run was AWESOME this morning lol
May 12, 2008 at 5:59 am
I understand what you are going through. I suffer very similar symptoms in late winter/early spring every year. I want to just withdraw myself from everything. It is tough to deal with, but it sounds like you have a handle on it and the right perspective. Good luck!
May 27, 2008 at 1:00 am
It’s funny you say this, because it’s just another example of lifes’ ups and downs. Even when everything is going perfect it seems a person can be down. It has to do with how we are wired; it seems stupid but humans always want more and more without looking back.
Just feeling this way doesn’t mean there you have to fix it. For centuries this is how people have lived and dealt with it. However if there are certain things you have to achieve you need strength and will. You need this now and you need to have it more of the time, then the time when it is not there.
To get strength, the most common method is comparison/competition. When you consider all the things you’ve done to be where you are, do you really want to go back, to have to work back to get it? Are there better ways to spend this time?
When you consider how far society has come to create all the comforts we take for granted and don’t even notice anymore, it becomes easier. Could you have even imagined doing what you do today 100 years back? We are priviledged.