In_Flight’s BodyBlog

It was a few days again..thursday i think and i realized that i wasnt into my workouts anymore and that i was craving ALOT of food. Not only that but my jogs were dreadful and i was not enjoying my lifestyle. So i decided that i just needed a few days. I havent ran, done pilates, trained or really watched what i ate for these last few days and guess whta?…im excited to get back to it tomorrow lol.

i bought new weights and a stetch band and we are changing the room around so these more room for me to workout yay!!! tomorrow’s a new day but im going to suck up tonight for all it’s worth (eating chocolate, coffee and baha and doing my paper lol )

as i always do.. i changed up my stuff for the month. And with exams i of course had to go for something new in my personal life as well.

Chopped it all off!! that’s righ my hair i gone hahhaha. i donno, i was scared but it doesnt look too bad, itll be fun My tan is comming along well. quickly! thank god b/c i dont have much time to work on it lol.

So for june im going to work on taking it easy as far as weights go i think. I bought a stretch band so i can use my own bodyweight for most of my exercises. Im going to be super busy with exams  stated yesterday and after that is over im going home for almost a week so i need an easy plan! basically im going to do what i can do when i can do it lol. A full body workout everyday…if its sore i wont work it and if i feel like making it sore i’ll pound it!! nothing too extreme just go with what my body wants. Im thinking my pilates videos will be good for some in door stuff and walks and jog to get me out of the house. Food wise, keeping it simple too! im going to cut back a bit for at least a week then focus on alot of salads and tuna/eggs for some proteins..lots of shakes too…yummy summer treats

What am i expecting out of june as far as body wise?? nothing special…slim the belly a bit and see where the rest goes. this will be an easy month

im nervous lol. i dont like the measuring tape much hahaha

well that lovely end of semester is comming near again!!! this time im busier than ever! im still gong to focus on my training of course but i will have to modify it a bit to fit my shedule. im thinking smaller workouts, maybe 2 a day for diff muscle groups, just to keep my head in it. i will also have to be prepared with some fresh food on hand b/c boy doesnt chips and dip taste some good when those books are shoved in your face hahhaha. Ive also got to find some way to bring my books with me places b/c this body need to get this tan!!

anyways i have a bit of time to think about how i will handle june, when its all figured out i’ll let u  know!

june= end of c3, i never find the time to log on much but im sticking to it! though i dont think ive met my goals as planned i think that ive learned alot from trying to reach them…we’ll see how that goes

it felt great hahha!! the only ppl who saw me were my mom and my boyfriend. of course he complimented me lol mom didnt say anything but my mom is different like that lol. shes not the compliemnting type most times so i ddint feel awful. i felt great though. i noticed that i need to work some more on my bodyfat getting down there but as far and muscle goes i think its all comming well!! i got a burn on my shoulders and im peeling yuck!!! but i am going to start the tanning bed today and hopefull the summer will continue with positive feeling about my body!

we found out this morning my bf’s grandfather passed away last night. it’s always hard to deal with a death, he’s handling it as good as he can, keeping his head up. so we are going home for 3 days with the family, this will put a curve ball in my trainign/ diet. this needs a plan. Im feeling like this may be a bit selfish, trying to figure out how to help myself while all this is going on. but here it goes-

diet wise: im figuring there will be junk foods and liqour. so im going to go light while on my own and see where the rest of the time takes me, just try to keep my head about me. i think since the last time everyone saw me, my body id better so i have that in the back of my mind to help keep it that way.

trainng:i think i’ll take my weights and push out some curls,squats and crunches in between showering and stuff like that. lots of walking.

there, simple and easy. if i fail on this one its usless lol

We all have our moments, our down times, our lows. but we usually quickly forget how it feels and forget it happens. IM not sure if i suffer from depression, ive ALWAYS went through these "bad times" but i know its bad and i know im not alone in feeling this way. There are days and even weeks where i cry, feel TERRIBLE and would rather stay at home and wallow in self pity then see the light of day. I bring this up now because yesterday evening I got over what was a very long week, maybe even two weeks of this "low time" for me. Its hard to explain to the people around you how you are feeling and its hard not to be even more hurt when they dont understand you.

I am lucky however, i am VERY aware of my feeling this way and am able to "handle" it my own way. im slowly learning the proper ways of dealing with this stress, when anybody experiances these feelings it is so important not to be in it alone yet not to bring anyone else down with you. though the feelings are real they are exaggerated in your mind, like youu cant handle today what was easy yesterday yet all along it was never easy, now it just seems impossible. Self destruction comes easily with this. Everybody reacts differently, i eat like a pig, lay on the couch, cry and act rediculously miserable! its an awful way to handle these feelings because you make yourself suffer more. when my mind starts to turn around like it did yesterday I quickly react, clean my house, have a nice cleanseing bath and meditate. I clear the stress away and im okay! and now i feel better than ever.

why do we do this and whats makes it happen? i dont know, my opinion is that we keep too much inside and dont fully "release" our stresses until enentually our body says okay, you are going to deal with this! is it a bad thing? i honestly dont think so. though it seems that its an unhealthy even i think it is nessesary as long as you can handle it in an okay way and are not alone with your feelings. Its like house clenaing for your emotions really!!

so the pointt of the blog?!?! well i just wanted to explain myself a bit more and let anyone who feels this way (which im sure are many more than a handful) that it happens to most fo us and the important thing is to know it, handle it and pick yourself back up!

have a great week…i will!!!

ps…my run was AWESOME this morning lol

why!? ive mastered getting up JUST before work on saturdays which is at 10 am ..even if im hung over!! but today im up at 7 am. today is rest day so no training or even cardio today…my glutes are killing me so im just fine with it. my house is kinda of messy and i have a paper to get to writing so i figured get up and start a good day woman!!!! lol

have a great weekend everyone

tired!! fighting a sickness for sure…and tirness helps NONE!! i also started a fat burner this week which always seems to tire me out a bit too in the mornings, agood ol nap is what i need lol. i went out for a run this morning and in total i may run for like 10 min lol it turned into a walk quickly. but he i was out and mving so im happy! diet wise im kind of stuck at where i have been, doing great when im good and sill making those few mess ups a week. i dont know though i WANt to be more strick but its really hard. in 6 months iv come SOOOO far with my diet. little by little im getting better, not as quick as i wanted but better than i expected. trainng wise im doing great. ive broke my workout down to more specific workouts per day ex: glute and shoulder day unlike before when i did an all leg and arm day. my abs have been sore and my glutes too!! wooo hooo.  anyways im off to class and clinic.

have a good one

well since classes were cancelled thrusday an d friday i had a long weekend..but i didnt accomlish much. its funny b/c when i think about what i accomplished or screwed up on i think about food. traing is fun so it doesnt seem like work much, unless i have a really dissapointing session. my weekend was FULL of bbqs!!! but i was good..salads, fish and chicken waas all that landed on my plate. i had a few drinks one night..but we walked and danced ALOT so im cacelling that out ahhaha, i was good with the amount though. 3 other nights though there were drinks and i didnt have one drop!!! and i was the only one lol.

me n my guy like to chill alot, watch some tv and have some munchies. this usually gets me! last night i was pprepared lol. we got a few whole grain tortilas and i made shakes. the shakes included protein, choc milk, 2 bananas and a tab of dream whip and cinnamon on top. a few extra calories but SOOO much better than ice cream and ketchup chip lol and we traeted our salty/sweet tooth ( which we woulkd have n e way lol ) i thought it was successful.

i think i may be getting a bug! not cool, my whole body hurts and my recovery time after a workout is drawling out which is a huge sign to me. im going to keep the food to and frsh air and baby myself to get over this. i do not want to be sick!!!

have a great week!!!