well that is certainly something I don't believe in... always a stubborn child, a fighter and an now independent woman I cannot stand it when women hide behind the fact they cannot do something because they are female... I have been working out on my fav Jamie Eason's 12 week plan.. I love love the workouts..and I admit it...my diet slACKS.. I work for someone who got the awards of "best restaurant in town" and "best chef in town" and so my motivation especially during stressful times and emotional crises and the presence of my childhood love NUTELLA didnt make it easy... But the new year I bowed to myself to not let emotions cross my line... so since 2012 hit the marks I have been eating clean and sugar free Well back to the workouts.. So I have been hitting the gym hard these days and loving every second of it..besides fulltime work and fulltime college schedules... hello crazy.. but today I dared it...300lbs incline leg press .... Oh what a feeling of joy - a rush of adrenaline and satisfaction... who said I cant do that

Oh and so excited to go to the Arnolds Games in two weeks!!!"

Since we are all human and social animals we tend to surround ourselves with others and tend to spend a lot of time socializing rather than alone, but.. when is enough enough? Should we rather spend our time alone and be happy rather than be a social butterfly and be stressed and annoyed?

I just had another moment where I just stood there and laughed... my so called friends tell me they miss me.. but cant make it to get up early to follow up a coffee invite I extended them the night before?

Certainly, I enjoy my time to myself- I work full time and go full time to school, the amount of friends/ people around me who enjoy eating clean and working out is not more than 3 but is it wrong to be totally happy to spend time alone focusing on own goals and dreams? looking around in those who surround me I more and more realize that there is a lot of jealousy, envy and those who rather enjoy seeing me struggle than succeed.

My monday motto is.. surround yourself with positivity, embrace who you are and dont follow society telling you you are a weirdo by doing 90% of your daily activities on your own.. dont get me wrong.. I love my friends.. but friends are those who matter and those who bring negativity to your life are not considered as friends - frenemies describes those better.. but indeed..dont become hostile and negative towards them- rather smile and nod and show them a happy , postitive and healthy you.. inside and out.. because thats what gets them the most...

Always follow your dreams, mend your heart and soul, love who you are... Be1ToughCookie and embrace yourself whole heartedly and laugh about yourself!!!

WOAH... weekend is here... another two workouts are waiting... have  been eating clean all week..and have a lot of energy back in school and back at regular work schedule... so its a busy day everyday...but today I realized once again why I love working out.... did a killer workout today..one of jamie easons life challenge..week 10... and seeing never seen muscle definition makes this girl happy... and also seeing boys bicep girl 15pds while I do more..makes me giggle

Over all... happy week... Motto of the week and weekend: What matters to you? Sit..Think.. and do what you think is right and good for you... and not meeting friends is just fine... Also...do not spend your time with people who dont value you...being on facebook or on the phone while you having cofffeee after not seeing each other for one month...def NOT cool memo to self... that hour would have better be spent reading on new workouts or trying to cook a new clean eat dinner