HourGlass357’s BodyBlog

For the most part training is coming along… For me, I’m not making the strides I want I suppose because I keep assuming that if I lift a bar off my chest 15 times I’m going to have a ripped huge chest like Arnold… I’m not sure if it’s narsasistism or am I that full of crap… I’ll run around to a couple differnt people who train very hard for thier insight and advice… Always the same answer… Eat right, train hard, get enough rest and drink a gallon of water every day… Geez when is a body builder going to tell me my dream of being able to scarf down a king size snikers and a case of beer for those amazing strides I want… Okay I know enough of the crap… I’ve learned a lot this past year and the best part is that it’s only the first coupld steps towards what I want! I have a better understanding and how to approch this thing called  "Body Building" I was so wrong in the past to think bodybuidling was only for those giants we see on stage wonder how in the hell or what did they have to do to get that point? I always imagined countless hours of some far off dungenon…. Never realizing that this was an actual life style for a lot of people… For me… I want this life style, I want to pass on the chip isle an get the fresh veggies… Oh man I gave up soda a while back, and last night I took a drink… I almsot felt like throwing up! It was horrible I’m so happy with just the little things… Now I look forward to resuming training tomorrow and getting the most out of this life the best way I can…. Oh dang that means I also have to give up smoking…. I hate saying it like that… I really do, I just guess I don’t want to quit bad enough!?!

Okay so you got those people (me before) who would slap together a couple routines from differnt sources and hit the gym putting minimum effort while nervously looking around the gym wondering why it seems that every one but you is getting the results they came in for!?!  Then there are those few people you see TRAINING… Some are called gym rats or meat heads, what ever the hell their called I wana be one too… Sure I said it I’m a wana be, but the truth is I’m also doing… This is blog maynot be for those of you who got your stuff together already… I’m trying to reach out those just like me who maybe had too much pride or just didn’t know where to start with all this… Oh and I’m not trying to express any kind of man love for SteveP78 or some wierd stuff like that ethier…. But the truth is, with the training regiment he designed for me, and the breakdown of the excercies he went over… I’m not longer "that guy" well at least going on a week and half, and nooooo I’m not going to be the guy who gives up when it gets hard… I’ve already lost over 50lbs of fat and have a new found respect for the gym… Sure I get a little upset how if I’d of asked for help sooner the results I’d have today…. But screw thinking about the past…. I’ve been crawling out of the gym nightly, and working my butt off during cardio… I have so much more energy and yes the training is really that tough…. well as tough as you allow it to get… I was using the tri-phase training wich is good don’t get me wrong, but since I’ve started with this new program… It’s just been the right stuff and the right order… I really feel like I’m challanging myself, and I’m hitting more wieght than before… So if you think you may need some help the dude is here on bodyspace SteveP78 he also has a website contact him okay….  I just look forward to the next challanges each time I hit the gym and I know a lot of the progress I’m making is because of his guidence!

Well week 1 is done an gone… I’ve started taking anabolic Halo from Muscle Tech and I’m not sure if it’s the stuff or if I am on the right work out program…? Before I wasn’t able to hardely get through a work out with becoming exahusted, and now even a day later I feel like I didn’t even put enough into it…? I see some guys in the gym who spend five minutes talking knock out six reps and then talk for another ten minutes, wipe their head and head out the door… I don’t want to be one of those guys! I want to train! I wana have sweat dripping off my face and some times need be have to ring out my beanine bcause I’m giving 100% How the hell you seld analyse yourself into becoming better… I keep track of the wieght, I keep track of the reps, and the results… But, there’s this disguhsting feeling each time I leave the gym that I didn’t give it 100% and that pisses me off very much… I’m tired of being the wanabe!

“People will show you who they are, and when they do – you should listen!” by, Ummmm I forgot; but, I remember the first time I heard that quote… SFC Green was my squad leader in 1^st TSC. A man I didn’t have to much favor for, after all he was no Lenore, nor was he a Gore, or SFC McDonald… After all those were leaders who I had the most respect for because after all they we’re in many ways great mentors and taught me a lot about myself and life in general!

Still, one thing SFC Green did teach me was to look at myself in a true perspective… Even though the man never took his foot of my neck… He certainly provided a certain drive I’ve had since I got out of Active Duty and that is to improve myself… I have been working out for about 8 months now, and yea I’ve lost a lot of weight, but I’ve not been giving it my all… I’ve not been training…Even with the threat of failure the first unkind words spoken to me sends me into strife of self pity, self loathing, and self destruction!

I’m a feel good eater! I know it sounds stupid, but if there’s good food, hell if there’s food around and I’m in a bad mood I’ll start eating… those temporary  moments of pleasure that food can bring is all I trick my mind into thinking that I need it! I know now… I don’t need it!

I have shown myself too myself, and I am listening!

No more binges eating… No more feel good foods… No more slacking off on the gym just because I don’t feel like being there… It’s time train and train I will!

I think I’ve had enough opportunities to prove to myself that I can be more dedicated than I ever have and the most frustrating part of all of it… is that I’m still talking about what I’m going to do! I need to start showing it more in actions!

Well maybe I should have said it’s finally time… Because I’ve been Bsing for so long being one of those guys who slaps together a mini-routine found in an article and not really pushing myself to really test myself and see what is beyond the limits of my own capabilities… Mentally I’ve just never been ready? I suppose, just another endless excuse to why I don’t have the results that I want and the execution required to obtain the goals I so desperatly want!

 Not any more… No more will I just think  "It’s a cheat day and gorge out on stupid crap" No more will I think "Ahh that’s enough, I don’t wana over do it" No more will I pass up an opportunity to improve or succumb to a superfulity that will also allow my training to be derailed… It’s time, and I’ve already wasted so much of it that I need to realize that I am going to accomplish through any means nessacery!

Man oh man, I finally found a trainer that I think would push me to the limits, and I was right; however, since he’s so specfic, and has been at the national level himself he critiques form… Form I know is the most important, and I’ve been doing things as usual with what I thought was good form, but he’s shown me what the right way is, and it feels good… He doesn’t let me back down, and pushes me harder and harder so I’m very happy…. I have to go through all my lifting stats again, and update them since I didn’t even realize I was doing this wrong… I mean after all I’ve been losing wieght? I’ve been increasing the reps, sets, and wieght I pushed…So Geez I always thought things were going the way they we’re supposed to go! Well, I’m very excited and determind to get this down at any cost…. I’ll write more and update the stats as soon as I can!

Never mind, I know the answer to that question… I ate way too much, stoped doing my regular PT and got out of shape fast… I know it’s my responsibility, I knew back then, and I wont make any more excuses why or how, but what I’m doing to fix it….

I’m more motivated now to getting in the best shape of life than I ever have been… I can’t wait to post those pictures of a body I know I can be very proud of!

My platoon Sergant would scream out during a road march "Your feet is form of transportion that wont ‘****ing’ faile you!" I guess he was right… I was going for my two-mile time test tonight at the gym on a treadmil and shortly after the first mile at a very strong pace, with plenty of energy to finish strong, the belt sliped and injured my leg. At first, I thought I could run it out, but it my shin started hurting too bad, and I tried to walk it out, all the same having to get off and accept defeat…

A part of me is wondering if I was going to fast… maybe? If I was going to fast then why is that I was maintaing my breathing, and there was no…soreness? Well all the same, my leg is killing me, I have wraped and put some Ice/hot on the affected areas, and now I’m writting this…bumed I couldn’t add the time to my progress tracker!

Welcome to the Bodybuilding.com BodyBlogs. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!