~Heather’s World~

Friday’s Fluff, on Thursday 

~Well, I know today is NOT Friday, however-since I am carbed up, I thought it would be to my advantage to write now, verse the depleted state I will be in tomorrow! I will probably be a crank! Lol. 

Alright, well, as everyone knows, I was very sick last week! However-this past Saturday I got some of my energy back! I worked out twice on Saturday and Sunday! I had to great workouts! Sunday, I felt pretty much 100% normal. 

Now, eating-the wonderful world of diet! Haha! Well, it’s been pretty damn clean this week, however I did have a few slipups and it was hard to get back into the protein cycling type thing, because my body and meal times were so thrown off from the week before, however-I have gotten that back on track. Let’s see, the worst thing in my eating this week are as follows: 

3 pieces of cheese in an omlet last night! (no dairy! I knew better then this, so I am blasting myself right here!) 

I had 3 cups of coffee w/ cream! (I should NOT be drinking cream in the brew! I just hate black coffee, but I have to get over that! If I did it before, I can do it again! ) 

Then in a PMS rage, I had about 4 tiny peanut butter cups in moose icecream! Now, I didn’t eat the ice-cream, just the p.b. cups! They are tiny! Smaller then a penny! Case in point, when I realized what I was doing-It immediately ceased! 

People think that prayer is a joke! It’s not-The power of prayer got me through yesterday w/out eating a candy man out of a house and home! PMS was raging! I just kept praying and mediating on my goals and what I know that I will accomplish and out of all day yesterday-I had cheese and coffee cream! It’s okay though, I notated when and what times I had the intense, cravings and wanted to mindlessly eat! So, I’ll be aware for next month! 

Today, I get 3 free meals! I no longer call them cheat meals, because I refuse to give myself a license to go wild! So, for my 3 meals, this is what I had: 

M1: pancakes w/ s.f. syrup and shake 

M2: 2 nectarines w/ a shake 

M3: sandwich (w.w. bread) turkey/provolone cheese and chips (however, I have started to munch on the chips at 9.44am. lol 

Now, for the next day and half or so-it’s just protein and water! That’s it! I’m okay w/ it though! I totally see the changes in my body! Everyone at the gym, home, and work notice the difference! 

My trainer, Phil Valenti is currently putting my program together! I will compete in november1 November 1^st to be exact! 

I realize that a lot of changes need to be made! It’s scary, but I believe that I can do all things through Christ! He is my strength! He has brought me this far and I feel like it will only get better! 

I know that in the next 4 months, I have to push and pray myself to the limits! I have to mediate on this show and God’s word’s daily-otherwise I will lose heart! I know me and I know that I lose steam midway through, I can NOT do this now! I have told EVERYONE! I AM SPENDING MONEY NOW! I have to much to lose! I have a picture on my desk of 5 figure competors and I mediate on those pics all day and I keep saying my verses over and over in my head! I am more then a conquer through Christ! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! My strength is perfected in your weakness! I mean, I just mediate over and over and over and over and this time, I stand in faith and I refuse to give up! I know it will NOT be easy and I know Phil will NOT always tell me what I want to hear! But…it says in that old book: 

Do NOT grow weary while doing good for in due season, you will reap if you do NOT lose heart! 

So, I can NOT grow weary! I kept saying, I can do this! I got this! I even looked on the NPC website to see my competition-she was cute and built nice, but I could totally kick her ass, if I committed myself to this competition as a husband to a wife! Yes, i saw her and felt intimidated and then I heard that little voice in my head! Fear not-I am w/ you and YOU will NOT be disgraced! Ha! All I could do was say, Okay! I am ready! 

I’m so excited, but so nervous and scared to FAIL! It’s sad, but being scared to fail usually is the thing that keeps us from every excelling or surpassing our goals! 

In the past week while being sick-I mediated, prayed and read! I realize that it’s true: As a man thinks, so he is! Hmm-I use to always say, you’ll never do that! You can’t do that! That attitude and mentality has ceased! I might not be able to do it all today, but I will give it all that I have to try to obtain it! I will press on to make it my own! I no longer say, I’ll never place or I can’t do that much dieting! Like hell I can’t! I can do ANYTHING that I put my mind to! I am determined to push and push until I can NOT push anymore. 

A lot of folks don’t understand how my faith plays apart in it, but honestly, it’s built solely on my faith in God and his promises! First I build this show off faith, then diet and training! Yeah, most start the other way-no faith is the substance of things hoped for yet not seen! I call those things that be not as though they are! Every morning I pray and I thank God for my tight taut abs! I thank him for victory in November! I thank him in advance for breaking my addictions to food and emotional eating! I am a new creature today. Not the same person I was a year ago and this time, I stand on Christ in faith, that victory is mine in HIS NAME! yep-call me a Jesus freak, a fanatic, whatever-I don’t care, but I know that Christ saves and crack kills! Feel me?! 

On another note, my weight was back to 149 the other day and I’m at 29.5in in the waist, I went a .5 in from being sick. But I look better and feel better! So I really can’t complain. 

My goal for this week is to complete all workouts that Phil has planned for the week and to eat right down to the very penny each day! I also want to focus on one day at a time! I don’t want to worry about being depleted of carbs! I want to enjoy each day and journey! 

I will continue on w/ my positive thinking and above all else my mediation on the word! It’s what I’m about and built on! 

Remember that intense faith will cause the walls to collapse! 

Heaven will marry your diligence! 

If you can see it, YOU can have it!! 

~much love~ 

Heather 

Yesterday I had to take pictures to send to my trainer, because he putting my program together for me. I took the pictures, looked at them and said-they are okay. I just thought, man, if only I could nip this or tuck that-I’d be good to go! However, I happened to see the pictures I took in February-HA! They were a far cry from a gym rat! I could totally see the difference in my body! It was amazing! It’s true, pictures really do tell you everything you need to know and they do NOT lie!
So, today I was outside and I thought commitment! That was the difference between February and now! You see, its like a marriage or relationship!
Yes, I am in a long distance relationship! Do I get lonely, sad, aggravated, discouraged, and plain old pissy at times-ABSOLUTELY, but at the end of the day-I love him to death and he is worth all the time and energy I do invest in him! He is worth the planned vacation, the plane ticket, the lonely nights! I am totally committed to him! So, despite the bad days, he is my other half and I know that I am his! I know that he is committed to me and to our relationship! We both and laugh and say, how did this even happen! We both said, we would NEVER do a long distance relationship, but we ended up in one and we are both happy! We are COMMITTED to eachother-all of the time! Not just Monday through Thursday! Then on the weekends, we show our ass! No-it doesn’t work like that, we are committed 24/7!
Case in point, you need that commitment and devotion to the gym and the kitchen! You have to be committed and 100% vested!
Just in a matter of about 3 weeks, I notice TREMENDOUS changes in my body! Why, because I became committed, no matter what! Period! Not only was I committed and devoted to my workouts, I became committed to eating properly! I gave my appetite, food addictions and the whole 9 to God! For me, that’s all it’s really taken! I no longer feel bound to emotional eating, addiction to sugar or things of that nature! No, I have faith that I have been set free from that! Now, I am not saying I never crave candy, I do-but I do NOT sit and eat it like its going out of style. I know when to walk a way! I know the difference between a bite and the whole damn bar! You know! I have become committed to pre-paring my meals, ahead of time! I have become committed to spending more money on cleaner, more natural food! My body is becoming faithful to me! Understand where I am going with this?
If you become committed and devoted to the workouts and the eating-your body will become faithful to you! YOUR body will show the changes and it will feel better and look better! Your goals are NOT out of reach!
I realize that my eating ran so deep; it killed me-all of the time! Some people struggle from bulimia, anorexia, but me-I binged! I used any excuse to binge! That is so wrong and I was so mistreating my body! I was an emotional eater! I ate when I was happy, sad, bored, depressed! I had that whoa is me mentality! I was so weak, I would NEVER dream of passing up on candy or sweets. Now, I’m just like, whatever-it’s not a big deal-I just need a little, not a lot! I have go to the point, where I can buy a bar, take 2 bites and toss the rest! I do NOT need it all-just a taste and I savor it and I’m good to go!
See, for me, by getting into the word, I realized that his strength is made perfect in my weakness. I started confessing I’m so weak when it comes to food-if you are your word, show up. Ha! He has shown up for the past few weeks! I no longer feel bound to food! I will be forever grateful and praiseful of that!
So the point of this whole blog is this:
If you become committed to your gym & meals-
They will become faithful to you!
Remember, that your weakest link might actually just be you’re strongest suit! Get committed and start working from the inside out!                      
 

Friday’s Fluff

This week has been trying with a capital T! My God-ugh. It’s been a long painful, aggravating, depressing, and down right pitiful week! Well-let’s get on w/ it.

I challenged everyone to go into this week w/ a fervent desire to reach their goals! I kept my part and I was so psyched and ready for it! Sat & Sun went awesome! Monday, I was at work all of 21/2 hours and it was like, physically-all hell broke loss! I was sick as a dog! I mean, I was painfully sick! All I could do was sit in the handicap stall and shake. My stomach was just feeling gross! I went back to my desk and finally just told my boss, I have to go, I thought I was okay-but I’m not! I called the doctor, they said to come in. By the time I made it home, I ran to the potty and was literally there for an hour in tears! I was cramping, cold sweats, everything! I was so, so, weak I thought I was going to pass out! I was miserable!

By God’s good grace I made it to the doctor, praying the whole way! I mean, every verse I knew, I mediated on it! I cried and prayed and thought, My God why! Why NOW! Why do I have to get sick and knocked down when all is well, diet and training! Finally I saw the dr. she said it’s a virus or salmonella. So she politely tells me I have to give a poop sample! I looked at her like she lost her damn mind!! I said, “ummm, okay and how do I do that?” She says, you scoop it in a container! Okay, so I was thinking, WTF! I pretty much lost all Christ-likeness inside! I just said, ”okay.” So, then she goes on to tell me to basically chalk it up, I’d be aight!! I was FUMING INSIDE! She tells me, NO TRAINING, NO NOTHING-JUST REST! As if that wasn’t bad enough, she says,” Oh make sure you drink Gatorade to replenish and eat a lot of STARCH!!! I WAS DISGUSTED. I JUST SAID, “FINE.” So, I left, went home, and just felt down. 

Tuesday morning, I woke up and felt okay. I stayed home (mind you this is day 3 I had to call in w/ the I don’t know what’s wrong excuse. I was pissed!) By the late afternoon, I felt normal and decided to go to the gym-I made up my mind, no virus is going to knock me on my ass! So I did just that and knocked out a workout in 1.5hrs. I felt good. I came home, ate protein for the rest of the night-PERFECTLY FINE! 

Wednesday, I got up went to work and felt fine all day until lunch. I was running errands on lunch and I felt myself getting weak, I felt my stomach cramping and all I could do was say, oh God-why???? I went to my desk and I felt weak, like someone sucked the life out of me! I kept going back and forth to the bathroom and just felt the same damn way. I just cracked in the bathroom, crying! 

I went back to my desk and told my big boss, “I have to go-like right now.” He looked at me and said, “honey, you still feel that bad?” I lost it! I just broke down and said, I don’t know what the hell is wrong w/ me and I hate it! This is NOT normal and it’s screwing up everything that I have been planning and doing (he knows my goal to compete is totally behind me!) I went on to tell him, I hate this because I can’t do anything. He told me to stop crying and to go home and rest and stay on the damn dr’s for an answer! He told me that it was okay and not to worry about anything but myself! He truly is a wonderful boss and I thank God that he is MY boss and not someone else! 

I cried on the whole way home! I WAS PISSED! I WAS SAD! I WAS JUST AGGRAVATED AND ANGRY! Angry, because I didn’t know what the hell was wrong w/ me and aggravated because I had to eat crackers and bread, all the crap I had got out of my system! It was as if I had shit, and then had to step right back in it! 

Now in the midst of my crying and whining-the spirit hit me and it says, when you are going in the right direction, ROADBLOCKS WILL COME! Where is YOUR faith?! 

It came back to my remembrance, when I finalized my decision to compete Monday morning and shortly after-physically my body broke down and caved in! 

I said, well I’ll be damned! I’ll be damned! There must be potential there then! I really must be making the right decision! That alone filled me up! Thank YOU GOD! See, I prayed on the whole competing thing and I said, Lord-if it’s YOUR will fill me w/ a fire and desire to do it for YOUR glory, not mine! Allow a testimony for YOU to come through this test! See, the game is already on! I see that now! 

But see what was meant for harm to take my joy away and mess up all I had done, I turned it into something positive! I took this time off to rest, pray, and start getting mentally and spiritually ready for the next 4 months that lay ahead of me! I took this time to create a new vision board, because I have a NEW vision! I am so fired up to get my ass back in that gym tomorrow! I need to go grocery shopping! I need to set and keep my eyes on the prize! I listened to so many uplifting things-I felt spiritually revived! 

All I know is that I am focused on what I plan to achieve! I’m thanking my God in advance for victory! At first I thought well, God-I just want to do it, I don’t care if I win or not, I just want to do it, one time! I listened to a podcast and the guy was saying, don’t settle for 2^nd best! If you do it for God, you go for the gusto! Thank him in advance for his help and guidance! So, I’m going to step out on FAITH right now, not my faith in myself, but FAITH in God, that I will place, I will come home w/ a trophy and baby-I’VE ALREADY CLEANED THE PLACE THAT IT IS GOING TO GO IN! 

So, although this week was what most would call a flop-I learned a valuable lesson: 

If God leaves breath in my body, come hell or high water, I WILL PRAISE HIM IN THE STORM! I DON’T CARE HOW BAD THINGS LOOK OR FEEL, HE IS IN CHARGE! HE IS MY COMMANDER AND CHIEF AND WHAT IS MEANT FOR HARM HE WILL TURN IT INTO GOOD AND HE WILL TAKE CARE OF ME! As long as I can sing his praises, I will do it! Remember in order to get taken to another level, you have to endure the test. My test was getting sick! I got sick and could’ve used this as a time to just fall all the way off and say, screw competing. I can’t! But instead, it made me want it that much more and keep telling myself, I CAN AND WILL DO THIS! I want this! I can taste it! I want it for his glory, not my own! I used this time to mediate and focus! So, all wasn’t wasted! It was mental and spiritual exercise this week! 

Food obviously didn’t go as planned, but it’s still be fairly clean. I had 2 free meals yesterday. I had a mint milky way and a small latte. That’s it! So, not to bad. Today, protein. That’s it and smart water! 

I know I am back at my start point 151 and I know that I’m retaining water, because I haven’t drank as much as I was before. So I start from a clean slate tomorrow. 

Be blessed this week! Stay fervent! Be prayerful and remember, what is meant for harm to pull you down, he can take it and use it to propel you up to another level! 

Well, something was put on my heart to share w/ everyone, not just my de-fluffing crew-but anyone who reads my blog. So, here we go-this might be another long one! Lol!

This is going to be pretty biblically based, so if you aren’t about that, click the small x at the top of the page and stop here. If you know God and truly believe in him, then please continue on.

Well, all my life I believed in God-no doubt! I was born and raised in the church. I went to vacation bible school, weekend retreats, Sunday school, Awana’s, etc! If it had to do w/ church and the Lord-my mother had me there, front and center! I use to wake up on Sunday and say, Mom-I just don’t feel well. I don’t think I can go. She would hug me and tell me, “Okay Heather. Here’s what were going to do-you go get dressed, we’ll pray and go to church, the Lord will make you feel better! NOW GET DRESSED!” lol, needless to say, I went faithfully. However, as you get older-you want to do your own thing and that is exactly what I did-my own thing. Man, it’s us that screw things up, NOT God! I finally realize that! Anyways, so what in the world does that have to do w/ bodyspace? Well continue reading and you will see!

As a child I use to watch bodybuilding shows w/ my dad and he would say, wouldn’t you love to do that Heather?! I would jump up off of the couch and say, “Yeah Dad!!” (mind you I was about 8-10 and I would flex my biceps and giggle!) I use to watch my dad exercise and lift faithfully and eventually he bought me a set of 3lb weights and he showed me how to lift w/ my 3 pounders! Lol! I would perform curls, shoulder presses, and other exercises! My dad instilled a fit lifestyle in me and I will be forever grateful for that! The one thing my dad had that I didn’t was self-discipline, consistency, and self control with my food! I was lacking those 3 imperative things!!!

So, in the past year and half I truly gave my life to the gym. Yes, I saw the physical changes in my body and I was pleased! Yet, the diet was still crap! Some days good and most days a far cry from that! I hated the fact that I was the very epitome of an emotional eater and that I over dosed on everything that I shouldn’t! I hated it, yet I had NO control over it! Many people saw my pictures and encouraged me to compete! I thought they were NUTS because there was NO way at that time I could’ve followed through on a diet. It just was NOT going to happen. I knew that, so I just pushed the idea of competing out of my mind, but it never truly left my heart, because it was planted there as a child.

Well, in the midst of me getting right w/ God and just surrendering my life to HIM-THINGS HAVE COMPLETELY CHANGED! It’s amazing! Out of no where the passion and desire to compete came out life a thief in the night. I had to take a few steps back and ask God, “What is going on? Why do I feel this need to compete?? Why?”

As time went on more people encouraged me to compete! I became overtaken by this urge to train for it!

See, it’s hard to explain, because I never thought that I could! I never saw my potential! I never saw my weakness being my strength! Once you get into the word and take it to heart, you see who you really are THROUGH HIM AND WITH HIM!

His strength is made perfect in our weakness! We are MORE then conquer’s through him who loved us! We are made in his IMAGE!

So, I decided to start praying before I workout, at first it was a generic prayer. I noticed my workouts were a bit better, a bit more focused. However, once I got intense w/ my prayers and started reaffirming them w/ scriptures-MY WORKOUTS HAVE BEEN TAKEN TO ANOTHER LEVEL THAT I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN! See, intense faith w/ make the walls fall down and heaven will marry your diligence! With that being said, I gave my diet to him, 100%! I said, Okay God-I need you to take control over these addictions to junk (sweets), I can NOT do this alone! Take it away from me, I am sick of being bond to these things! I’m tired of it! What eating plan should I follow to see the results that I would like to? Show me!!!

He put my mentor on my mind-big time and it was that still small voice that whispered, I HAVE ALREADY GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING THAT YOU NEED ALL YOU NEED TO DO, IS DO IT! DO NOT DETOUR FROM IT, DO NOT MAKE EXCUSES! YOU HAVE ALL THE KEYS THAT YOU NEED TO SURPASS YOUR GOALS! So, I made excuses, I can’t eat that way, it’s to hard! I can’t do that! Well, I listened and just did it, I did NOT detour, and I WAS FINE! My cravings have subsided in such a big way that it is truly beyond belief!

So in the midst of the diet and workouts coming along, the competing bug still lingered. I finally prayed on it and said, If it’s YOUR will-I will do it! If you do NOT want me to do it, it’s done! Either take the passion away or fill me w/ a fire and desire to train and to press on and allow me to do it to YOUR GLORY, NOT TO MINES!

Since that time, I have been filled w/ a fire like I have never, ever, experienced! There have been days I have been so tired and wanted to just go home, but I went to the gym and he has showed up every workout and pulled me through! It’s almost creepy, because I get this surge of energy and it’s like I can NOT stop until I obtain my goal for that workout! I even get teary eyed! I exercise and become overcome w/ emotions, like this is what I should be doing, this is where I am suppose to be!! One day I was reading about everything that goes into preparing for a show, I was at work, and all of a sudden I got chills and started crying. I literally had to get up and walk to the bathroom! OMG! What was that about! I believe that was my answer from him, go forth!

You see, by becoming close to the Lord he has closed my eyes and opened my heart to all of my possibilities! He has revealed so many things to me in his word! I realize now that as long as I am in HIS will for my life, heaven will back up everything I do and place the right people in my path to push me forward! See, I don’t just believe in God, I KNOW HIM NOW AND I KNOW THAT HE IS JUST AS REAL AS YOU AND ME! I stand strongly and firmly in my faith!

True faith is like a lifting session! How? Your muscles grow my intensity! The fat eventually melts off by intense cardio sessions! The same w/ Faith, things change when you have intense faith! INTESE FAITH WILL MAKE THE WALLS COLLAPSE! INTENSE FAITH GURANTEE CHANGE!

There are a few things we know in the new testament of the bible:

1. Call those things that be not, as though they already are
2. According to your faith, let it be done to you
3. he has given us a sense of power, sound mind, and love
4. whatever you bind on earth, will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven
5. all things that are old have PASSED AWAY and become NEW
6. His strength is made perfect in our weakness
7. 2 of the fruit’s of the spirit is SELF CONTROL AND LONG SUFFERING
8. Praise the Lord in the storm and during the hard, trying times
9. Discipline your body and bring it into subjection
10. Greater is HE that is in ME then he that is in this world!

See, it’s perfectly clear in his word that things will not always be easy or perfect, but we are to stand steadfast in our faith in HIM, not in US!

So, once I finally decided to compete, my so-called diarrhea issue got worse!! Yeah, I had to go back to the doctor and it’s either a virus or salmonella! They told me, no heavy exercise, no lifting, no intense cardio, and STARCH (especially bread, crackers, etc.)! I about had a damn fit! Gatorade?! That crap is like sugar water! I left the Dr and cried! All I could say was damnit! Damnit! Why?! Why now when I’m doing so well and everything is falling into place? Why? The first thing I could think about was, I have barely eaten protein today! My body is going to eat my muscle! I went through a miniature breakdown needless to say and I came to this realization: when you are going in the right path, the enemy is going to throw roadblocks in your path to keep you from getting there, because he does NOT want you in the will of God!

See satan is NOT a little creature w/ horns and a pitch fork! He is disease, sickness, an evil boss, negative people, hell he could be your brother or sister! He is EVERYWHERE! Anything that is NOT positive or uplifting is NOT OF GOD! I felt really bad and down yesterday! However, I prayed and read my bible and dozed off! I woke up and I thought about it and I said, NO! I BUILT MY HOUSE ON THE ROCK! I WILL BE BETTER AND WHEN I GET BACK IN THE GYM, I WILL BE THAT MUCH STRONGER AND THAT MUCH BETTER, BECAUSE I AM IN HIS WILL! I WILL STUMBLE, I WILL FALL DOWN, I WILL BE PUSHED AND SHOVED, BUT I WILL NOT BE MOVED, BECAUSE MY HOUSE IS NOT BUILT UPON SINKING SAND!

I’m going to be back to normal in a few days, I have faith in my God! I will NOT fold down and I will NOT let this get me down! If my God brings me to it, he will surely bring me through it! I am going to praise him in this storm! If you want him to show up, I dare you to step out in the storm and praise him! He will show up! See, when the 3 boys (me-shack, shad-rack, and abindigo) were in jail-they PRAISED GOD!!! THEY PRAISED HIM THROUGHOUT THEIR ORDEAL! Do you know what happened? The doors were opened and they were allowed to escape! The criminals however had NO idea what was going on and they were scared to escape! So, though I feel weak and sick right now, I do NOT care! My God does EVERYTHING EXCEPT FAIL!

I just felt the need to share it and post it!

Take care

P.S. I want to compete November 1^st for NPC, I’m exactly 20 weeks out this week!

Good morning ladies! I had originally wrote my blog 2 days ago at work, however  I have had some technical difficulty! Yeah, so I have been out of the office. It was nice to be off for these 2 days, but in retrospect it sucked because I had the runs. Yeah, not the runs, like sprints…but the runs like, OMG-I CAN’T STOP SPITTING THE KIDS OUT IN THE POOL!

So, last Saturday I decided to O.D on fiber, because I knew that I would be into the groove this week, low carbs, lots of protein. Well, for days, nothing happened. Then Tuesday, I noticed a slight difference w/ my ‘movement’. However, I thought nothing of it, I was honestly just thankful that I wasn’t stopped up! Well, Wednesday I felt my tummy bubbling and making all sorts of out this world noises…okay-I blew it off, it got worse when I got to the gym..all I could do was say, damnit! Whatever, I prayed and just said, Alright, just get me through an hour God, PLEASE!! He did just that. My workout was short sweet and to the point and I still burned 1000 calories. Finally I had to wrap it up, because I felt in eruption-I literally sped home, backed into the garage and bolted into the house! My mom look a bit bamboozled! I left everything in my car and just made a mad dash to the ‘John’. SWEET RELIEF!  OMG…it was down hill from that point! I called in yesterday and today! It just got worse. I thought it was diarrhea, but I have taken stuff, no big change-so today I get to skip my butt to the dr! yuck! Oh well, right. Now, onto better things! I just thought I would share that w/ everyone. Lol J

Despite my issue yesterday, I still managed to be blessed w/ 2 kick ass workouts. It was a cardio day only. My am workout was as follows:

Treadmill, 15% incline, 3mph 30 mins, Spin bike 30 min. intervals and ab exercises about 15 minutes. My pm workout: jumping rope (hiit) about 30 minutes

This week has been a blessing! It’s been so good and I am so very thankful for the progress that I have made, I don’t take credit for it, I put it in my God’s hand’s and he handled it, cravings and all!

My diet this week was clean as a whistle! My body is definitely showing it and I get so overwhelmed at times! All I want to do is stand in my mirror w/ my bra and panties! I see my ass is looking round and pumped! My back is slimming out! I see my cuts coming back and I’m just like, I can do this! God, I really can!

This week has been as perfect as ever! NO SLIP UPS! Whew hew! I never thought it was possible, not for me anyways! The only thing I would like to change this week is NO more cool-whip, whip cream, or coffee cream! That’s all. I measure everything out and do NOT add salt to things anymore. I also would like to get a full gallon of H20 in everyday. I have been hitting a little more then a half gallon! Lucky for me, I have finished all my cool-whip and finished my whip cream yesterday! So, I won’t buy anymore!

Today is my day for 3 free meals. I had my first one this morning, I had ½ a bagel and 1 full doughnut and 2 small bites of another-then I tossed it and personally, I don’t even have a taste of craving for anything else. I know that is God because the old heather would have baked a pan of brownies and devoured the whole pan! I have NO cravings!!!! AMEN! AMEN! AMEN! I feel in control. I do NOT feel controlled by the food, for the first time in my whole life!

I realize now that when you truly give something to God..he will handle it! I use to look at people and think..oh they are holy rollers or Jesus Freaks..whatever, but now, I see why! I’m a Fanatic! Lol! I’m hungry for the Lord first, then the gym and its like that hunger for him pushes me in the gym, because I know its NOT by my strength, it’s by his! I have had some of the best workouts this week, and I swear I think its because of how I pray and ask him to bless me and go w/ me! There were times where I thought, omg, I’m going to fall off this stairmill and out of no  where I get chills down my back and I take it up like 5 notches-and I make it through. Then when I stop and get off-I feel tired. What in the world? God puts his Nikes on and he pushes me! J

Diet has always been my weakest link, diet has always kept me from going over the threshold and I finally had enough of it 2 weeks ago! I finally said, enough is enough is enough. I cried, because I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t control it-it truly controlled me! I do NOT like to be controlled by anything or anyone! I cried and cried. I started watching everything I put in my mouth, however the diet was not truly on point, better then the previous week, but not what I wanted. So, I heard a podcast on how to pray. I took it, listened to it and put it into action and surrendered my fitness life to him and man..in 1 week, do you hear me-1 week, I have had tremendous progress! In the midst of that I found you wonderful bunch of women-so I take you all as a blessing and I hope to be a blessing to you all!

Here is the way I pray for anyone who wants to know! I have verses that I use to read everyday. Just recite them because they were encouraging to me. However, I don’t just recite them now, I start praying, and then I reaffirm them w/ Him. Those scriptures are my CONFIRMATION #’S FOR WHAT I NEED! He says, My grace is sufficient, my strength is made perfect in your weakness! You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you! I am the Vine you are the branches, he who abides in me, bears much fruit, for w/out me-you can do nothing! Have you found Honey? Eat only as much as you need, lest you be filled w/ vomit! Whew! A man who can not control his spirit, is like a city broken down w/out walls! Yeah, I stand firm on these and many more and I swear, he has shown up every single time! He has NOT let me down! I could go on and on!

I am fit for God and I am fervent about him and this lifestyle! I believe I have a calling in this industry and writing! Writing books or something, but writing will come to play.

Aight! J Here it goes my weight went from 151 on Monday to 149 and I believe my waist (bb) was 31in and its at 29 now! I’m not to concerned about the scale, I want to drop b.f. and inches! That’s about diet and cardio and heavy focused lifting! I haven’t had time to take pictures, but I will soon. It’s just busy-that’s all. But I can see the changes in my body and have received many compliments from the people at the gym! So, I know that my body is changing!

My goals for this week are as follows:

No cream (coffee, whipped, or coolwhip) period

Am cardio mon-thurs, double workouts on Sat. and Sunday

Stick to my diet

1 gallon of H20 daily

Find new verses to add to my list

Focus more on core workouts (I lack in this department)

Now, I challenge you de-fluffing ladies to go into this upcoming week, with a fervent desire!

Fervent-Showing passionate enthusiasm, glowingly hot as a result of intense heat
Do not be luke warm this week, bring it up one notch or two! But be fervent; get lock jaw on those desires and dreams! I have a desire and a dream to compete in November. I’m praying on it and I’ll have my decision made at the end of the Month!

Remember, the past does NOT define you! Last week is over, it’s time to focus on looking forward, not the past! Learn from the past but let it go! If you had a crappy week, it’s okay-dust your shoulders off and keep on keeping on! Stay focused!

I’ll close w/ this:

Do NOT grow weary while doing good, for in due season you will reap if YOU do NOT lose heart! (Galatians)
 

Do NOT lose heart girls! Keep going!!!!

My schedule for the week:

Sat: am-back/chest, hiit/ pm 1 hr cardio-abs

Sun: am- Legs/Hiit/ pm 45 min of cardio

Mon: 20min hiit am/arms/cardio/abs pm

Tues: 30min cardio am/ shoulders/cardio pm

Wed:20 min cardio am/  Legs/20min hiit

Thrus: 1hr steady state cardio/30 min of hiit (all protein today, 0 carbs!!!)

Friday: REST, REST, REST AND 3 FREE MEALS! J

*alright, I’m off to the dr in about 15 minutes to get a plug put in the hole! Have a great weekend and hang tough!*

Faithfully de-fluffing my mind, body, and most importantly-My Spirit!
Okay, here it goes…I have just the FTF crew! Yes, I to am fighting the Fluff! I am very excited to join this crew of women and I know that we will all strengthen and encourage one another!
Well, I started back about 2 weeks ago trying to fine tune. Yet again. I was up, then down, and finally-I did what I should’ve done-gave it to God. My eating has always been the worst part for me. I had no self-control or self discipline. However, this desire to train and encourage others always remained. Even in the middle of a brownie binge. Imagine that!
Well, since I started searching for the Lord before my workouts and gave him the rule over my hunger and food cravings and emotional eating-I have been on point! I have already lost an inch on my waist and everyone is noticing my definition again and encouraging me to compete.
To anyone who is ‘saved’ or believes in God, I might seem over the top and that’s okay. It totally doesn’t bother me, because I know that he is there guiding me and pulling me through. If any of you are saved or know the bible, trust me, I dare you to seek him before a workout and watch how he moves you.
Fitness is my 2^nd religion and I take it differently now! I do NOT take it lightly!
 

Okay so here are my 5-week goals!

1. Clean eating. I want to eat clean every week! Well, get cleaner each week. I’m still eating cool whip this week, but once it’s gone-it’s gone. 1 thing at a time!
   
2. I want to log all my meals and water and workouts! I like paper trails! What can I say!
   
3. I weighed this am it says I was 150lbs, but I know that I have lose an inch around my waist. I’m not concerned w/ my weight! However, I do have a clothes o meter that I use!
   

I would like to meet the following goals by August 28^th! Am doing it right now, in small, steady increments! I bought 3 swimsuits, 2-2 pieces, and 1 really cute one piece! I will wear them and look great in them! I believe I can surpass my goal by the end of August! Yes, I’m going to see my beau for Labor-day weekend! I intend on being my best and completely shocking him! J haha
1. Exercise 6 days a week. 5 day body split, 6 days of cardio!
2. Pre pack all meals and have ready for week (I did this yesterday)
Wake up between 4-4.15am and do my morning jog! (I started today w/ an easy 2o minutes! It’s not easy, but I can do it! My body needs to become readjusted! J)

4. My waist is currently at 29in, I think it had a got as big as 31in. well, this morning after 1 week of really pretty clean eating it is at 29in! My goal is for it to be anywhere for 24-26in.
   
5. Work my abs every other day! I had the best ab workout Saturday! I was totally stoked! My tummy is still sore!!
   
6.  work on my spiritual fitness as well. It’s more the physically being fit! What is the use of looking awesome, if you are just screwed up, upstairs! As my soul prospers, my body will as well! Let’s get our mind right to! You have to clean the inside, before the outside. So everyday, I mediate in the am and the pm. I mediate on God and draw my energy and knowledge from him! It works! Trust me!
   
7. my ultimate surpassing goal of goals is VISIBLE ABS! I have ‘em, and I can feel em and if I look hard enough, I can see them, now, I want everyone to see them! J
   

*exercise 6 days a week, cardio in the am*
*eat clean, follow the meal plan that was given to me*
*continue mediating and putting God first in my workouts and eating regime*
Current-150lbs, 29in (weighed and measured this am. I will take my body fat when I go to the gym)
My goal…hmmmm, I am not to concerned w/ actual scale weight. I would like to see it at 140 again. More importantly, I would like to see my waist get down to 24-25 inches and have visible ab muscles (not just visible to me though! Lol)
All these things will come to pass!
*slow and steady wins the race*
*Do not grow weary will doing good, for in due season YOU will reap, if you do NOT lose heart*-Galatians (4-got the exact location, but its in this book of the bible!)
Aight girls, do NOT grow weary or lose heart! We will reap all the love and positives (words, actions, pm, comments! Our words are our thoughts and our thoughts become our action!) we sow! We will reap from awesome meals and workouts! If you are a believer in God, I encourage you to invite him to the gym w/ you and ask him to give you clarity and focus, I bet you 100,000. Bucks your workout will be one of the best ever!
 

*be blessed and I’ll update on Friday*
 forgive my typos! i’m at work, multi-tasking!