~Heather’s World~

I must say that this week has been awesome! First, I am thankful to God that I have survived thus far! Seriously, for the first time in my life, I’m so proud of my eating. I have been eating more clean and I can look at my body and already tell. I really started to alter my food last week, but this week, I have taken it to another level and it shows! Granted, a lot of work goes into this. 

I have been waking up at 4a, doing cardio first thing in the am for 30-40 minutes, then I work, then go to the gym, do my lifting and do some extra cardio10-20min. nothing big-its just the icing on the cake! 

I have been going to sleep around 9-10a. sometimes earlier. I haven’t missed one workout in the past 2 weeks. I am trying really hard to bring sexy back! Somedays I feel better then others. Today is one of those days, that I just feel blah. Well, I decided to rest this am, I didn’t do my cardio and I haven’t had starchy carbs since about 9.00am. Yeah. So right now, I have the look of death in my eyes! I don’t want to talk, smile or anything. All I can do is just sit at my desk and say, God-get me through the next few hours-Please. He will. I believe it! I’ll be okay, once I leave work for the evening. Lol. 

I tend to want to cheat most while I’m at work, because I see and smell all of the food that everyone orders, but so far so good. I see fries right now, popcorn, pizza..you name it, it’s lurking around here!! I’ve been fine though. I don’t want to be like everyone else. I guess im going down a road that isn’t traveled to often. 

Its amazing, that in such a short amount of time, I can notice small differences, it’s just great! I feel so motivated, just ready to take on the world. I can’t believe I haven’t had any crazy cravings or withdrawl symptoms. I feel really great!! I’ve also been drinking a gallon of water a day! My mom has noticed a physical difference. 

Let me tell you all the changing point for me. I have started reading daily devotions for weightloss. It is soooooooooo freaking refreshing. I read these things every morning after I do cardio, shower, and get ready. I drink my coffee and I read a few of these devotions/meditations! I mean, everyday hits on something different, something that I need. I realize now that everyone needs to ‘water their spiritual garden’ and I have been watering mine! I am so thankful for the things that God is revealing to me and helping me w/. I believe that all things are possible with God. Today is a great example, I decided to rest, no am cardio-just lifting a hiit after.Well, I have been carb cycling this week and I haven’t had starchy carbs since about 9.30a today. I feel out of it. Part of me just wants to yell, because I feel moody and part of me is just like…whatever! Lol! I actually feel really tired-out of it. I’m not sure if its from the lack of morning cardio or carbs. All I know is that I invite tomorrow morning to come for that cardio and protein pancake! Lol! Case in point is this, today I have let go and let God. Let God what, you ask. Let God get me through this, cause me-personally I’m ‘bout to go nuts! Lol! 

I have also come to the realization to take 1 day at a time when it comes to eating clean. I can’t worry about Friday, when Monday morning isn’t even over. When I take 1 day and try to make that the best day, it seems to come easier. Instead of thinking damn, Friday I have barely any carbs..how am I gonna get through that day. All I say, is thank goodness its Monday and I can be a little more laid back and enjoy my clean carbs!! I will deal w/ Friday when I wake up-as long as I have the food that I can eat w/ me-I will be fine! So, when it comes to eating now, I take it 1 meal at a time. This seems to really help me. 

I’ve also realized how much I love training and working out! I feel so energized! Geez, I just feel awesome after all of my workouts and I don’t even call them workouts anymore-I refer to them as divine appointments! Lol! Ya’ll can laugh if you want, but it’s working!! I love to train because physically I feel strong and free. Training is all about hh-no one and nothing else. I train to be fit and to feel good mentally, physically, and emotionally. I have such clarity after I train. 

The amazing thing is that even though all the junk looks and smells great-its so bad for you and it makes you feel pretty crappy after the fact. I have ate clean for a little while now and I feel good-I really do. 

Everyone at work calls me a fitness freak!! Some people praise me for what I do, some criticize me. It’s amazing. The people who praise me, really do praise me and people who try to criticize me are just ignorant. I don’t let naysayers get to me. They aren’t worth my time or energy. You know. 

I’ve also started looking into upcoming competitions in Chicago. I have found 2 that I would consider doing. One competition is in October and one is in November about a week or 2 part. The more I think about it, the more tempted I am to do it. I’m still not sure yet. 

So, in conclusion to week1 round up-I leave you all with this- 

Never give up on what it is you want or desire. Put God first, let go and LET GOD, give your body time to become adjusted to these new changes. Change one thing at a time, remember, Rome was NOT built in a day! Become obsessed w/ the lifestyle and focus on change. If you focus on results, you will never change, but if you focus on change, you will get results. Be happy and proud of the little things that you accomplish everyday. Log your workouts and meals, its rewarding to look back and see how good or bad you have done. Well, on that note, I’ll be around-and I’ll keep you all updated within the next week, week#2 roundup!! 

So, for the past few months, let’s say since January I have been less then up to par. I was totally half assing around. The truth is I was hanging on by a thread, a very thin thread. But that was the past and I am focused on the present and the future.
For the past week I have been on the ball. I feel so proud of myself. I have gotten up every morning to do cardio. Yes, 4a, I am getting out of bed to do cardio! Lol! Crazy, but true! Yes, I do it. Now, I gotta be real..I’m not really into it. I kinda laugh and think, I’m nuts. But I’m still kinda sleepy. I know that eventually my body will get adjusted to it and it will become a quality cardio workout. Lol. So, in the meantime, I go to train at night and do cardio after as well. Usually 10-20min. Just to cap it all off.
My diet this week has been better. It hasn’t been great and definitely not perfect, but it was much cleaner then before. So, now my goal for this week is to really clean it up. I tend to want to munch while I’m at work at my desk, because I cant have a cigarette. That is something that I am going to have to deal w/ and get over, real fast. I mean, I can only chew so much gum and eat so many tic-tacs. Lol. It will get better, it just takes time, that’s all. I have to take it one day at a time and find other things to replace that cigarette and munching. I can’t get up and run outside every 30 min or once an hour at work. You know. Lol. So, I guess I will be chewing coffee stirrers or something. Lol.
So, what is this is operation-sexy back. Yes, that is what I am calling these next few months, phase 1 of the OSB! Here is what’s to be expected :

1. Cardio in the morning 6 days a week starting with 30 minutes, as the months go by I will add time or I might vary it day to day. Variety is the spice of life
   
2. Weight training in the evening, heavy to moderately heavy weight. I’m sure I will be on a 5 day split and I will be doing some light cardio after 15-20 min..
   
3. Diet..Well, my goal is to stick to 6 clean days and 1 cheat day. Unlike before, a cheat does not mean, CHEAT ALL DAY AND EAT JUNK FOR BREAKFAST LUNCH OR DINNER. These cheat meals need to be sacred. Something that I really want. Here is an example, I woke up today and really wanted a bagel. Well, I fought it most of the day, I said, I’ll wait till Saturday. Well, my buddy at work bought bagels and gave me one. Let me tell you, that was the best damn bagel I ever ate. Okay. Maybe not, but the point is that I really, really wanted that bagel and it was so damn good when I had it. I’m good now. I don’t need anymore bagels for a while J Now, for dinner, I know my mom is buying boneless buffalo wings and I will enjoy those, but I do know that will be it, no other junk.
   

I have to find my happy medium. A little will not hurt you or set you back, but a lot will. I tend to go over board, I am trying to avoid that like the black plague. I know I love candy and cookies. I have an all or nothing attitude. I can NOT eat just 1 cookie, hence my girl scout cookie episode this week. Lol. I tried to eat 2 cookies, I ended up eating like 10! I gave the others away, because I knew I would eat ‘em all. They were great, no more of those until next year! Hopefully! Lol!
I have 2 major goals, as of right now-the first one is that I want to get back to 140lbs like I was in the summer and get my waist back down to 28.5in the 2^nd goal is that I want ab definition by the end of August. I’m not worried about weight, mostly bodyfat and when I do achieve this goal, I will be able to look at my abs and know that I have indeed arrived.
Those are my 2 major goals. I know it will take time, dedication, patience, and a whole lot of other stuff to achieve, but it can be done. I have no doubt about that.
I have other goals that I want to reach here are a few of them,
1. Run a 10 min mile
2. Be able to do 20 boy pushups
3. be able to curl 30lb d.bells
4. Be able to deadlift 100lbs (I’m at 60lbs right now)
5. Be able to shoulder press 60lbs,( I did 40lbs the other day!!)
6. be able to do 1 pullup
7. Be able to squat 150lbs on the hack machine
Those are just a few goals that I have set for myself!
So, for me, it’s OSB-I am getting geared up for summer! It will be upon us before you realize it! February is almost over, soon enough, the weather will break and it will be time to pull out the shorts, tanks, bathingsuits, and mini skirts.
Ladies, let’s pull our heads outta our butts and get ready for the summer. Lets get pumped up and motivated! Don’t let summer catch YOU not at your best. It’s hard to get into the swing right now, but it will be so worth it once that first day of warm weather comes around!
So, I am going to start logging and journaling everything, my food, mood, exercise, everything! I will be doing weekly updates, probably on Fridays. Just to let everyone know what is going on and how I am doing.
So, ladies, it’s OSB! My trial run started Monday, Now, it’s time to really bring the heat!!!!
Remember, if YOU can’t take the heat, get the hell outta the kitchen J
Your sister
Health, fitness, & hotness HH

The fact of the matter is most people have low to no self esteem. Lets talk about it. Here are some general things that I know for sure.
If you feel tired, go to the gym-I promise after 10 minutes you can stop, but I am willing to bet you won’t. It takes 10 minutes to get started and then you will be pumped and ready to go. I do this all the time when I feel lazy. I wheel and dela with myself. Heather, 10 minutes-if you wanna stop, fine, but do atleast that much and I end up doing anywhere for 30-60 minutes!
If you’re mad, go to the gym.
If you need downtime, go to the gym. Use the gym as your place of “om” or YOUR own personal time to be away from family, kids, etc!
If you feel depressed, go to the gym, get those feel good endorphins going or pray. That’s my thing, pray and workout! God is ALWAYS listening!
 

If your self esteem is down or even worse, non existant, go to the gym, everyday!
Here is what I know for sure-Looks are NOT everything, but when you look good, you will definitely feel good. When you look good and get kicked in the butt, when someone gets out of line, when a boyfriend or girlfriend ends up being a loser, YOU are much more likely to handle the situation like a champ, because you are NOT insecure in yourself.
Let me tell you-I get sh*t left and right about being vain-call it what you want, but I CARE ABOUT THE WAY I LOOK AND FEEL! I love the smiles and compliments I get! Someone once made a comment about me because I wore short shorts..Well, here is my rebutle, I bust my but in the gym and damnit, if I have nice muscular legs and want to show ‘em off, MORE POWER TO ME! I DO NOT DRESS TO PLEASE OTHER, I DRESS TO PLEASE MYSELF.
My self-esteem for the most part is extremely…well, let’s just say, I am very confident. Someone I worked w/ at the gym told me that when I walk, I have this ‘way’ about me. I walk with confidence and I am willing to bet that most bodyspacers walk with confidence as well. I believe that this comes from training! Stand straight, stomach in tight, shoulders back, etc..you all know how it goes!
 I am not cocky, stuck up or stuck on myself. I am confident in who I am and what I know and I am even comfortable admiting the things that I do NOT know. Lol. When I shake someone’s hand, I try to break it, why-because it says, I mean business, do NOT let my smile fool you, and make please believe that I am far from weak or weak minded! That is just me though.
I think instead of our young girls looking for love from guys, they need to be playing sports, finding a hobby, etc. YOU have to love you before anyone else can.
The truth is that we all have those days where we feel ugly, fat, or just plain old blah and its okay. It will pass. The most important thing is to think of things in the big perspective, example: today, I look beat up. I look like someone beat me w/ an ugly stick, but I know that if I wanted to go home, get dolled up-I could do it and completely transform into a diva. Today, is a lazy day. Lol. I just threw on a fleece, jeans, and hair pulled back, no makeup, no nothing-just me and I feel good. People still flirt w/ me when I look tired. Lol. Why, cause I ooze confidence.
The fact is that, everyone needs their ego stroked sometimes. It’s the best feeling in the world and it makes you say, damn-I still got it! Lol! Can you think of anything better then getting stopped at the gas station and complimented, or the grocery store..or even the gym when your stank and sweaty! I meet guys everywhere I go and I even meet a lot of nice women that give me props because of the way I look and the lifestyle I try to live.
There are times I get a lot of crap because I smoke, but atleast I smoke and exercise, its better then just sittin on my butt. When I am ready to quit smoking I will. The same way I make myself get up to workout at 4a, I will make myself stop smoking. I am not ready now. Pushup and puff, someone said one day. Lol. I laughed, didn’t take it to heart, I bet I can push up more then most. I’m happy w/ me and who I am. I am happy and proud of what I stand for and what I believe.  DoNT criticize the lifestyle just because YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND IT! IGNORANCE IS BLISS! It’s easy to sit and cricitize me because I constantly pose in the mirror. But, do you see me when Im panting and sweating and my ugly vein is poppin out of my forehead when I train or are you there running with me at 4a mon-friday, NO-YOU WERE AT HOME ON YOUR @$$ WATCHING TV, FLIPPIN THE CHANNEL or SLEEPING IN YOUR BED.
 

Case in point is this-get to the gym and I guranttee you will get some self-esteem! You will have some ‘get up and go’ about you and I gurantee the whole world will be able to tell!
 

Yours in health, fitness,
And hotness J HH
 

So, it has been a longtime since I have blogged. Well, for the most part, everything is good-on the up and up. So..where do I begin??
Well, I have been trying to write a blog for the past 2 months or so, but I have just been stumped. I didn’t have to much to say, because I was just going through a thing…so, I didn’t feel ‘moved’ to write. Well, I am feeling it now..so, here it flows…..
First off, everyone ain’t able…what in the hell do I mean by that? It dawned on me while sitting at my desk…bombarded by the lingering smells of French fries, pizza, and other tasty treats…everyone is NOT able to live this lifestyle or even let alone understand it.
Although it seems like we are the wierdo’s, we aren’t-we are just the minority. You see, it’s so much easier to sit and watch tv all evening and crash in front of the tv, versus going to train after a 8-10hr day, its easier to snooze in the morning, instead of getting up at 4a to do a hiit workout. Its waaaaay easier to pickup the phone and order breakfast, lunch, and or dinner then to make out a menu for the week, go grocery shopping, prepare food 7 days in advance and bag it up. So, who has it easier, us or them? They do by far, but in retrospect, who will have a better quality of life? We will without a doubt!
For the past few months, I have been in the majority…lazy,unmotivated, and just drained mentally. Yes, I had fallen way off the wagon and it has taken a whole lot to get myself back on-but I am there, by the grace of God.
I thought that personal training was going to move me and motivate me in ways unheard of to man. That was absolutely NOT the case. It worked against me. I was drained, tired, and just aggravated. Training was fun and somewhat rewarding, but at the end of the day, I lost myself because I was worried about everyone else. There were many days that I didn’t train, because I was just tired and ready to leave the gym. The gym was no longer was calm in the storm-it was my storm.
I had literally got to the point where I didn’t want to be there. I went trained others and ran out the door. The was NOT the HH that most of you all know. The fact is that there is so much drama and crap behind the scenes at these gyms…and personally I want NO part of it. I put in my notice and am no longer training. I am working a 9-5  and I am very happy about it. I enjoy what I do and the people that I do it w/. I actually work 7a-5p, although the day is longer, the pay is freaking great and most importantly its steady income that is dependable. I am happy. I have structure again! Thank goodness! I wake up at 4a, do some hiit, shower, get ready, make it to work at 6.30a, eat breakfast and work until 4.45p, leave and go do my lifting! I feel wonderful!
I have structure and a schedule and my body is becoming adjusted again and I am just geeked about it! Now, I can get back on the ball. You see, w/ p.t. you have no structure what’s so ever. Somedays, you can sleep late, others you could be up at the crack of dawn! I hated that! My body was out of wack!
I actually gained about 8-10lbs as a result of everything that was going on. Between the laziness, depression, aggravation, and lack of structure it all took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally.
Now, when I go into the gym, I feel a sense of peace and relief. When I put my notice in, it was if 1000 bricks were lifted off my shoulders! I felt free! Free to focus on me!
It’s been about a year since I started this journey and I’m just breaking even. I have gotten refocused on my goals and what it is that I need to do to get over the threshold!
This lifestyle is NOT easy, by any means, but it is worth it at the end of the day, because of the way that you will feel and look! It will be what YOU make of it and the only person that can stop YOU from achieving your goals is YOU!
For the first time in a long time I feel fired up! Fired up to train hard! Fired up to pull my sweet tooth!
My first goal is to get these extra lbs off that I gained and get my biceps to bulge and my lats and booty to POP! That’s right. I would love for my abs to emerge, but I know that all goes back to that terrible 4 letter word, DIET!
So, in closing-try to stay focused! We all have our ups and downs, I had my downtime for months, 7 months! 7 long, long, months-but I am in such a better place right now! I am appreciative of everything that I have! I appreciative of all of my family and friends that have supported me during this and most importantly, I thank God for blessing me! J

Yours in health, fitness,

and hotness!

So, it has been a longtime since I have blogged. Well, for the most part, everything is good-on the up and up. So..where do I begin??
Well, I have been trying to write a blog for the past 2 months or so, but I have just been stumped. I didn’t have to much to say, because I was just going through a thing…so, I didn’t feel ‘moved’ to write. Well, I am feeling it now..so, here it flows…..
First off, everyone ain’t able…what in the hell do I mean by that? It dawned on me while sitting at my desk…bombarded by the lingering smells of French fries, pizza, and other tasty treats…everyone is NOT able to live this lifestyle or even let alone understand it.
Although it seems like we are the wierdo’s, we aren’t-we are just the minority. You see, it’s so much easier to sit and watch tv all evening and crash in front of the tv, versus going to train after a 8-10hr day, its easier to snooze in the morning, instead of getting up at 4a to do a hiit workout. Its waaaaay easier to pickup the phone and order breakfast, lunch, and or dinner then to make out a menu for the week, go grocery shopping, prepare food 7 days in advance and bag it up. So, who has it easier, us or them? They do by far, but in retrospect, who will have a better quality of life? We will without a doubt!
For the past few months, I have been in the majority…lazy,unmotivated, and just drained mentally. Yes, I had fallen way off the wagon and it has taken a whole lot to get myself back on-but I am there, by the grace of God.
I thought that personal training was going to move me and motivate me in ways unheard of to man. That was absolutely NOT the case. It worked against me. I was drained, tired, and just aggravated. Training was fun and somewhat rewarding, but at the end of the day, I lost myself because I was worried about everyone else. There were many days that I didn’t train, because I was just tired and ready to leave the gym. The gym was no longer was calm in the storm-it was my storm.
I had literally got to the point where I didn’t want to be there. I went trained others and ran out the door. The was NOT the HH that most of you all know. The fact is that there is so much drama and crap behind the scenes at these gyms…and personally I want NO part of it. I put in my notice and am no longer training. I am working a 9-5  and I am very happy about it. I enjoy what I do and the people that I do it w/. I actually work 7a-5p, although the day is longer, the pay is freaking great and most importantly its steady income that is dependable. I am happy. I have structure again! Thank goodness! I wake up at 4a, do some hiit, shower, get ready, make it to work at 6.30a, eat breakfast and work until 4.45p, leave and go do my lifting! I feel wonderful!
I have structure and a schedule and my body is becoming adjusted again and I am just geeked about it! Now, I can get back on the ball. You see, w/ p.t. you have no structure what’s so ever. Somedays, you can sleep late, others you could be up at the crack of dawn! I hated that! My body was out of wack!
I actually gained about 8-10lbs as a result of everything that was going on. Between the laziness, depression, aggravation, and lack of structure it all took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally.
Now, when I go into the gym, I feel a sense of peace and relief. When I put my notice in, it was if 1000 bricks were lifted off my shoulders! I felt free! Free to focus on me!
It’s been about a year since I started this journey and I’m just breaking even. I have gotten refocused on my goals and what it is that I need to do to get over the threshold!
This lifestyle is NOT easy, by any means, but it is worth it at the end of the day, because of the way that you will feel and look! It will be what YOU make of it and the only person that can stop YOU from achieving your goals is YOU!
For the first time in a long time I feel fired up! Fired up to train hard! Fired up to pull my sweet tooth!
My first goal is to get these extra lbs off that I gained and get my biceps to bulge and my lats and booty to POP! That’s right. I would love for my abs to emerge, but I know that all goes back to that terrible 4 letter word, DIET!
So, in closing-try to stay focused! We all have our ups and downs, I had my downtime for months, 7 months! 7 long, long, months-but I am in such a better place right now! I am appreciative of everything that I have! I appreciative of all of my family and friends that have supported me during this and most importantly, I thank God for blessing me! J

Yours in health, fitness,

and hotness!

So, it has been a longtime since I have blogged. Well, for the most part, everything is good-on the up and up. So..where do I begin??
Well, I have been trying to write a blog for the past 2 months or so, but I have just been stumped. I didn’t have to much to say, because I was just going through a thing…so, I didn’t feel ‘moved’ to write. Well, I am feeling it now..so, here it flows…..
First off, everyone ain’t able…what in the hell do I mean by that? It dawned on me while sitting at my desk…bombarded by the lingering smells of French fries, pizza, and other tasty treats…everyone is NOT able to live this lifestyle or even let alone understand it.
Although it seems like we are the wierdo’s, we aren’t-we are just the minority. You see, it’s so much easier to sit and watch tv all evening and crash in front of the tv, versus going to train after a 8-10hr day, its easier to snooze in the morning, instead of getting up at 4a to do a hiit workout. Its waaaaay easier to pickup the phone and order breakfast, lunch, and or dinner then to make out a menu for the week, go grocery shopping, prepare food 7 days in advance and bag it up. So, who has it easier, us or them? They do by far, but in retrospect, who will have a better quality of life? We will without a doubt!
For the past few months, I have been in the majority…lazy,unmotivated, and just drained mentally. Yes, I had fallen way off the wagon and it has taken a whole lot to get myself back on-but I am there, by the grace of God.
I thought that personal training was going to move me and motivate me in ways unheard of to man. That was absolutely NOT the case. It worked against me. I was drained, tired, and just aggravated. Training was fun and somewhat rewarding, but at the end of the day, I lost myself because I was worried about everyone else. There were many days that I didn’t train, because I was just tired and ready to leave the gym. The gym was no longer was calm in the storm-it was my storm.
I had literally got to the point where I didn’t want to be there. I went trained others and ran out the door. The was NOT the HH that most of you all know. The fact is that there is so much drama and crap behind the scenes at these gyms…and personally I want NO part of it. I put in my notice and am no longer training. I am working a 9-5  and I am very happy about it. I enjoy what I do and the people that I do it w/. I actually work 7a-5p, although the day is longer, the pay is freaking great and most importantly its steady income that is dependable. I am happy. I have structure again! Thank goodness! I wake up at 4a, do some hiit, shower, get ready, make it to work at 6.30a, eat breakfast and work until 4.45p, leave and go do my lifting! I feel wonderful!
I have structure and a schedule and my body is becoming adjusted again and I am just geeked about it! Now, I can get back on the ball. You see, w/ p.t. you have no structure what’s so ever. Somedays, you can sleep late, others you could be up at the crack of dawn! I hated that!

So, it has been a longtime since I have blogged. Well, for the most part, everything is good-on the up and up. So..where do I begin??
Well, I have been trying to write a blog for the past 2 months or so, but I have just been stumped. I didn’t have to much to say, because I was just going through a thing…so, I didn’t feel ‘moved’ to write. Well, I am feeling it now..so, here it flows…..
First off, everyone ain’t able…what in the hell do I mean by that? It dawned on me while sitting at my desk…bombarded by the lingering smells of French fries, pizza, and other tasty treats…everyone is NOT able to live this lifestyle or even let alone understand it.
Although it seems like we are the wierdo’s, we aren’t-we are just the minority. You see, it’s so much easier to sit and watch tv all evening and crash in front of the tv, versus going to train after a 8-10hr day, its easier to snooze in the morning, instead of getting up at 4a to do a hiit workout. Its waaaaay easier to pickup the phone and order breakfast, lunch, and or dinner then to make out a menu for the week, go grocery shopping, prepare food 7 days in advance and bag it up. So, who has it easier, us or them? They do by far, but in retrospect, who will have a better quality of life? We will without a doubt!
For the past few months, I have been in the majority…lazy,unmotivated, and just drained mentally. Yes, I had fallen way off the wagon and it has taken a whole lot to get myself back on-but I am there, by the grace of God.
I thought that personal training was going to move me and motivate me in ways unheard of to man. That was absolutely NOT the case. It worked against me. I was drained, tired, and just aggravated. Training was fun and somewhat rewarding, but at the end of the day, I lost myself because I was worried about everyone else. There were many days that I didn’t train, because I was just tired and ready to leave the gym. The gym was no longer was calm in the storm-it was my storm.
I had literally got to the point where I didn’t want to be there. I went trained others and ran out the door. The was NOT the HH that most of you all know. The fact is that there is so much drama and crap behind the scenes at these gyms…and personally I want NO part of it. I put in my notice and am no longer training. I am working a 9-5  and I am very happy about it. I enjoy what I do and the people that I do it w/. I actually work 7a-5p, although the day is longer, the pay is freaking great and most importantly its steady income that is dependable. I am happy. I have structure again! Thank goodness! I wake up at 4a, do some hiit, shower, get ready, make it to work at 6.30a, eat breakfast and work until 4.45p, leave and go do my lifting! I feel wonderful!
I have structure and a schedule and my body is becoming adjusted again and I am just geeked about it! Now, I can get back on the ball. You see, w/ p.t. you have no structure what’s so ever. Somedays, you can sleep late, others you could be up at the crack of dawn! I hated that!

So, it has been a longtime since I have blogged. Well, for the most part, everything is good-on the up and up. So..where do I begin??
Well, I have been trying to write a blog for the past 2 months or so, but I have just been stumped. I didn’t have to much to say, because I was just going through a thing…so, I didn’t feel ‘moved’ to write. Well, I am feeling it now..so, here it flows…..
First off, everyone ain’t able…what in the hell do I mean by that? It dawned on me while sitting at my desk…bombarded by the lingering smells of French fries, pizza, and other tasty treats…everyone is NOT able to live this lifestyle or even let alone understand it.
Although it seems like we are the wierdo’s, we aren’t-we are just the minority. You see, it’s so much easier to sit and watch tv all evening and crash in front of the tv, versus going to train after a 8-10hr day, its easier to snooze in the morning, instead of getting up at 4a to do a hiit workout. Its waaaaay easier to pickup the phone and order breakfast, lunch, and or dinner then to make out a menu for the week, go grocery shopping, prepare food 7 days in advance and bag it up. So, who has it easier, us or them? They do by far, but in retrospect, who will have a better quality of life? We will without a doubt!
For the past few months, I have been in the majority…lazy,unmotivated, and just drained mentally. Yes, I had fallen way off the wagon and it has taken a whole lot to get myself back on-but I am there, by the grace of God.
I thought that personal training was going to move me and motivate me in ways unheard of to man. That was absolutely NOT the case. It worked against me. I was drained, tired, and just aggravated. Training was fun and somewhat rewarding, but at the end of the day, I lost myself because I was worried about everyone else. There were many days that I didn’t train, because I was just tired and ready to leave the gym. The gym was no longer was calm in the storm-it was my storm.
I had literally got to the point where I didn’t want to be there. I went trained others and ran out the door. The was NOT the HH that most of you all know. The fact is that there is so much drama and crap behind the scenes at these gyms…and personally I want NO part of it. I put in my notice and am no longer training. I am working a 9-5  and I am very happy about it. I enjoy what I do and the people that I do it w/. I actually work 7a-5p, although the day is longer, the pay is freaking great and most importantly its steady income that is dependable. I am happy. I have structure again! Thank goodness! I wake up at 4a, do some hiit, shower, get ready, make it to work at 6.30a, eat breakfast and work until 4.45p, leave and go do my lifting! I feel wonderful!
I have structure and a schedule and my body is becoming adjusted again and I am just geeked about it! Now, I can get back on the ball. You see, w/ p.t. you have no structure what’s so ever. Somedays, you can sleep late, others you could be up at the crack of dawn! I hated that! My body was out of wack!
I actually gained about 8-10lbs as a result of everything that was going on. Between the laziness, depression, aggravation, and lack of structure it all took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally.
Now, when I go into the gym, I feel a sense of peace and relief. When I put my notice in, it was if 1000 bricks were lifted off my shoulders! I felt free! Free to focus on me!
It’s been about a year since I started this journey and I’m just breaking even. I have gotten refocused on my goals and what it is that I need to do to get over the threshold!
This lifestyle is NOT easy, by any means, but it is worth it at the end of the day, because of the way that you will feel and look! It will be what YOU make of it and the only person that can stop YOU from achieving your goals is YOU!
For the first time in a long time I feel fired up! Fired up to train hard! Fired up to pull my sweet tooth!
My first goal is to get these extra lbs off that I gained and get my biceps to bulge and my lats and booty to POP! That’s right. I would love for my abs to emerge, but I know that all goes back to that terrible 4 letter word, DIET!
So, in closing-try to stay focused! We all have our ups and downs, I had my downtime for months, 7 months! 7 long, long, months-but I am in such a better place right now! I am appreciative of everything that I have! I appreciative of all of my family and friends that have supported me during this and most importantly, I thank God for blessing me! J

Yours in health, fitness,

and hotness!