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I Luv HH..snowballs, sugar interventions…wtf?!

Thursday, December 6th, 2007

Inney, meany, miny, moe~which way will I allow this blog to go? Well, for starters-

This is Heather and you all know me well enough to know that I will always be real

and frank with the things that I say-regardless to the situation.

The fact of the matter is that I’m doing okay, not great-but not bad either. There are days that I smile from ear to ear and days where I merely smile just because it’s easier to smile then to frown and be negative.

There are alot of days that I am just so consumed with putting together routines & sensible diets for others, that I just neglect myself. Then I have those emotional days where the past few months just play out in my head over and over again.

Yet again, I have come to realize a few things. The 1st being that I am still pissed about B. Yes, deep down inside, I am still hot under the collar-due to the lies he told me and the games that he played.. At the time I took everything with a grain of salt and moved on rather quickly, because I do NOT allow the grass to grow under my feet to long. Yes, I am over him. I have absolutely no want or need for him-but I am MAD because I never got a chance to read him his rights face to face. He was to much of a coward to come to my house and allow me to say what I needed to. Now, add the holidays to the mix and I get even more upset, because we had all of these plans. 4 words, LIES, LIES, AND LIES! So, yes, I’ll declare online-I am still angry as hell! If I were to see him today, I’d throw an ice filled snowball @ his truck! Merry Christmas and furthermore-I HOPE SANTA LEAVES COAL IN HIS STOCKING!!!!!!

Nextly, I’m lonely. I’m alot more lonely then I’d like to admit It’s amazing to me, so many guys pm me , leave me comments, chat on IM w/ me, email me-YET I’M FREAKING SINGLE AND 110% UNATTACHED TO ANYONE BUT MYSELF! I don’t get it. I meet 1 jerk after the other, the only common denominator is ME. At this point, I just don’t know. In the past few weeks a few guys have approached me, but I’ve got a pretty keen sense for recongizing game when I see it. You can’t play a player and game always recongizes game. Need I say more? Then I have a lingering ex who decides he wants to call all the damn time and pop up at the gym when he knows i’m there. Well, I pretty much sent him to hell w/ a can of gasoline-reason being, he wanted to play the man whore card-so, I brushed my shoulders off and just kept on going.

The other evening, me and a co-worker went for coffee. We left the gym about 9.45p. It was late, super cold and snowy outside. Well, being that I am the goofball that I am- I didn’t have a brush to clean all the snow off my car…..but I had one of my ex’s shirts in my trunk-so, i put it to use and started to clean off the snow, just enough to see-well, my co-worker came and saved me. lol. Bless his heart, he started to clean all the snow off my car and asked me what i was using…I WAS TOTALLY EMBARRASED..BUT I SAID, MY EX’S SHIRT! LOL. He kinda looked at me and laughed, like he thought i was nuts. After that we went and had coffee, we sat and talked for about 2 hours. I smiled so much that my cheeks hurt and my ugly vein began to seriously emerge! Now, my ugly vein is dead in the center of my forehead and it only makes itself noticable when I am training really hard, really, really upset or really, really, happy and gitty. So, anyways, we finished up and went outside and began throwing snowballs at eachother. I felt like a teenager. Man, it’s been a long time since I had someone make me feel 14 or 15 again. Hell, I shouldve kissed him, then ran and jumped in my car, but being that I am who I am-1 of the following wouldve happened, I would’be slipped running towards him, or away from him or I wouldve stood there like a deer caught in headlights. So, instead I played the super cool roll, I said good night, smiled, and got in my car and glided home on the ice! Yes, I do like him, where it will go..I have NO clue, but I do believe that he geniunely likes me. Granted, the first day he started at the gym, he approached me and we immediately hit it off and talked. He totally messed my leg workout up, but I liked him, so i was all smiles. lol. We ended up talking all evening and going for coffee, but I had to much going on and simply because in my heart I felt he was a good guy, i backed off before I could really go for the kill. I just didn’t want to get him sucked into all my drama at the time. Now, I have no drama-so we’ll see where it goes, the ball is in his court this time around.

BILLS! BILLS! BILLS! Bills are steady coming and I’m steady robbing Paul to pay Peter. Its just really, really, taking a toll on me. If I didn’t have my parents, I’d be living in a card board box or in my car, but the repo man would probably evict me! I love training, I really do, it builds me up more and more with each session. I feel so positive and I just pray that God will work it out, because I know that HE can make a way out of no way-cause i sure can’t. I’ve got alot of talents, but that isn’t one of them!

It’s amazing to me that these women look up to me, little ol Heather. I had a client call me today because the guy she is dating is being a HATER! He told her she shouldn’t eat 5-6 times a day. He also told her that, that is why she is over weight. I just got her to start eatting breakfast and now this jerkhole is undoing my work! I instantly wanted to open up a can of whoop ass for him! I was pissed off! I feel like my clients are my babies and it’s my job to help ‘em, lead them down the right path and take on all of the hater’s and naysayers!!!!! I told her, you tell him to let me do my damn job and keep his mouth shut-SPEAK TO WHEN SPOKEN TO. and I told her-if he has beef-tell him to holla at me at x-sport. Oh, YES-I was pissed. I meant every word that I said to. I’m alot of things, but a chicken, coward..no-not me! I will stand my ground, fight you to the bitter end if I know in my heart I am right and in this case, I am! So, trainer Heather, turned into robo-cop and then dr.Phil.

Then I had a client email me the other day and tell me that I truly inspire her to be her best. Then a few weeks ago I was at the gym talking to this young girl. She was about 17. She has issues…geez. She completely opened up and poured herself out to me. She thinks she is fat and she is tall and slender. She really could be a model and she is so pretty, but her mind is so long gone. All I thought was I need a degree to council-next thing I knew, I started crying, I literally had to stop, turn around take a deep breath and turn back around, cause i was gonna break down. WTF IS GOING ON?! I am emotionally getting involved with all these people. Now everytime I see her, I wonder if she has ate, or if she is starving..i worry about what will happen if she goes in there and works out being completely famished..she’s gonna pass out and it worries the hell outta me. I just keep my eyes on her and pray that God keeps her safe. I can’t save the world. This is NOT about the money for me. Right now, I would just be happy to do this and make ends meet.

This is about enriching other people’s lives-making them feel priceless! It’s about inspiring, motivating, encourging and pushing them to be their best. I had one client say she couldn’t do lunges, her legs were sore-I told her, she could and she would and I told her my legs were sore to, but just to prove that it could be done and be done correctly, I did them with her. Yeah-all of ‘em.She was so happy and suprised that I did ‘em. I believe that this is one of my many passions. I give my clients 110% of me-each session. Its just a financial struggle for me right now, but my parents keep pushing me and backing me up. So I just pray for strength and know how.

Then, my sugar intervention. Don’t lol, but I need a room full of bodyspacers to put me through a sugar intervention!!!!

It’s funny, but kind of sad, when my co-worker and I went for coffee, I was like literally losing it! I was like, wow! look at all these sweeeeet treats! They looked soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good! YUMMY! It was like I snapped, I just freaking lost it…and he was like, damn-you sound like a crack head, but only for sugar! All I could do was say, I know! It’s my downfall.

So, not only am I addicted to nicotine, but I am addicted to sugar! It’s terrible, I can eat veggies, chicken breast, clean food all day, but show me a pan of home made brownies, cakes, pies, doughnuts, caaaaaaannnnddddy, pasteries-AND ITS A DONE DEAL! I have fallen so far off, diet wise. I feel like that old lady in the commerical,

“HELP! I’VE FALLEN AND I CAN’T GET UP!”

My workouts have still been on point, so I am maintaining, not gaining, but definately not really losing. All I know is that it is time for me to man-up. Its time for me to get focused and back on track, before my thighs start rubbing together and start talking to me!

So, to bring this looong blog to a close-let’s recap

*I’m still finanically struggling, still single, loving myclients and training more and more everyday, still praying that God will make a way out of no way so I can continue to train and maintain.

*I’m no longer a closet sugar addict. My name is Heather and I am a sugar addict. So, I’m out now!

* I realize that Snow isn’t so bad when you have a cute guy to clean your car! I also know for sure that throwing snowballs at someone you like can be a whoooole lot of fun.

I don’t know everything, but I do know that I have wonderful, loving, and supportive people in my life. Besides God, they are my rock and calm in the storm. I have no idea what I’d do with out my parents and my best friend. I love them all dearly.

I don’t know what you all took away from this..if nothing else, i hope you all got a good laugh..

and p.s.

IF I HAVEN’T MET ANYONE WORTH WHILE BY MY DAMN B-DAY 1/28-

I WANT MY OWN SHOW, I LUV HH! (I think I’d be better then New York! DON’T ACT LIKE YOU ALL NEVER SAW THE SHOW!!)

*AUDITIONS START 1/28 @ a hot spot in Chicago!!!!

Take care and be easy!

~Hot Heather~

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Inspired

Wednesday, December 5th, 2007

These past 9 months have been a huge rollercoaster. I had alot of good days and a whole lot of days.

All in all though, it was a learning process about myself and life in general. Ya’ll know how many people

I dated-that came in and out of my life. lol. You all know the situation with my previous job. When it was all

happening-I didn’t understand why. All I could say to myself was, if God brought me to it-HE will bring me

through it-one way or another. Well, he did.

When I got fired in August I had no idea what was in store for me. I really didn’t. I never saw myself being a personal

trainer. That was the furthest thing from my mind. It really was. The fact of the matter is that I am HAPPY right now. I am

happy and I do feel blessed. I made alot of changes within my life. The first one being-do what you love and love what you do.

I love being at the gym and I love to workout and most of all-I love to see others get excited! It makes me that much more excited.

I also got rid of alot of dead weight-meaning the men in my life. maaaan, if I had a quater for every jerkhole I met-I WOULD BE

RICH!! I swear I would! At the end of the day though, it was a learning experience. I know that I am that much closer to finding the

right one. Going through the jerks, just made me that much stronger and more aware of what I want and what I DO NOT WANT OR WILL

TOLERATE FROM SOMEONE ELSE.

Right now, I am so focused on what I am trying to achieve, I’m really not concerned about dating or anything like that. If I find a good guy,

YES-I will give him the time of day. Other then that-there is the door and please don’t let it hit you where the good Lord split you. Simple as

that.

My clients really make what I do worth my while! I’m such a people person and I love to talk and most of these women are so down to earth and so

willing to listen! I love it! Granted, I don’t have alot right now, my goal is to have a waiting list!! The few that I do have are just awesome though. THEY

INSPIRE ME TO REALLY GET MY BUTT BACK INTO GEAR!!

Yesterday, I trained 3 teachers. They are all friends, young and say they want Kelly Ripa arms! lol! I call them my teaching trio. It’s funny because they teach highschool boys, but when they come into the gym, I am the teacher! They are all ears and they get excited. They told me yesterday after their workout that they had so much fun w/ me and couldn’t wait to see me again next week! It’s pretty hard to train 3 people at one time, but at this point I am game for anything. I had all 3 in the studio and we were doing circuits. Needless to say, they were beat when I was through w/ them! lol!

I have a new client today and she is all about having a personal trainer. She just signed up for 3 sessions to get a feel for the training and myself-I already met her, but I really get a chance to sit down and talk with her tonight! I am so excited!

Then there is another young lady, about my age-she just told me, Ma-I wanna look like selma Hyak. lol..I said, Okay-work w/ me and I will work w/ you. She hates lunges-but I didn’t give her a choice..i merely reminded her what she wanted and she was lunging. I even did them w/ her for a few sets, just to prove my point.

Yesterday, I met w/ another trio-I love them as well. Its a mom and her 2 daughters. Being that I am so close to my mom and just love great moms-they are a pretty special and I will keep an eye on them regardless to if they continue training or not. I had so much fun w/ them last night. They all want to be hot and fit by August when they go on their trip to Puerto Rico. So, it’s my job to get them there and give them all the support, encourgement, and knowledge that I can. When I asked them to paint of a picture of what they want to look like, they said, WE WANNA LOOK LIKE YOU! oh man, you could’ve bought me for a wooden nickel! That made me feel so, so good inside and it was like, everything that I had been through to get to that point was worth the sweat, tears, protein shakes, unsalted rice cakes, and studying. I didn’t want to exercise this am, but I thought about that and it made me do that. They look at me, the way that I look at many of the ripped and lean women on here. It’s amazing!

Last but not least, is my bff! lol (best friend forever-yes, I took you all back to like grammar school on that one!) Oh, I just love her to death. I am so proud of her and what she has accomplished thus far. She has lost 6lbs and a whole lot of inchs. She motivates me all of the time and inspires me. I love the fact that she is willing to be my guniea pig and do anything that I need her to do. Her helping me just makes me that much better! I love the fact that when I train her or workout w/ her-that’s our girl time. When I train her, I really do work her butt! That hour isn’t about HEATHER-It’s all about her and me helping her to get to where she wants to be!! I love the fact that she is working harder and tries to hang w/ me. lol. She got sick of using 10lb weights and said, HEY! Give me the 15lbs. I kinda looked and said, are you sure-she said yep! She did it! She is my Champ! She is going to get to where I am and she is going to knock ‘em all dead. I refuse to let her fail and I will never give up on her.

That’s basically all that has been going on. I’m just trying to get into the swing of things for the most part and get myself back into a set in stone schedule, but my schedule is so nuts, that it is pretty hard. I think by January Ill have everything back in tact and be ready to go full throttle.

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