~Heather’s World~

Okay, bare with me, I didn’t pre-write this blog..so it might sound like mumbo-jumbo. lol

 Things here are going extremely well! I have been working at the gym and I am loving it! For about 2 weeks, I had training at another one of our gyms-I had 2 awesome instructors! They totally let me pick their brain and I enjoyed every minute of it! The funny thing is that my boss told me that all of the really big bosses or shot callers are nuts about me! They love my passion and desire to learn and to be #1, by whatever means necessary and they love the way that I look. lol. They are constantly encourging me to learn as much as I can and I am. My brain is on automatic pilot-it just won’t be quiet.

 So far I have 2 clients, 1 women and 1 man. I think the guy kinda likes me, cause he just kept starring at me all starry eyed. it was kinda funny. lol. I love my women client! She doesn’t care what I tell her to do, she just says, I wanna look like you…LIKE ME-I think. lol. I said, ummm…okay-let’s talk about YOUR goals. lol. i actually train her today at 10a and the guy at 11. So, this should be interesting.

A few of the girls that I talk to all the time on here actually wanted to be my guniea pigs…WOOOOW! I’m scared, but if they are willing to work with me, then I am more then willing to work with them and be their coach. The funny thing is that..now, everything is becoming so much more serious to me. I still enjoy it, dont get me wrong-but I see myself as a leader now, not just a gym rat and to be a leader-you must lead by example-HENCE….i feel sooooo guilty about smoking. I already said Saturday afternoon. I have to stop this…I really do. It’s no longer just about me, its about what I do-and smoking is such a conflict of interest. So, that’s the major thing on my to do list…become a NON SMOKER.

I have been wishy washy with my exercise regime. I was just caught up in class, studying for my test, etc. Now, I can focus on myself again and that is what i have started doing. So, I’m back with exercising in the morning on an empty stomach and doing my weights at night or early afternoon. I already said that  my training time is from 1p-2.30p. I WILL NOT TRAIN ANYONE AT THAT TIME. I have to take care of myself and strive to be better and stronger. How can I preach to them and neglect myself. It doesn’t work that way.

I am also back to eatting clean. Yeah, it’s kinda hard..but I can do it-It just takes time to get use to it again. I have faith in myself though.

Well, I am off to the gym. lol. Take care and I just wanted to let everyone know what was going on with me.

Just an update on H.H

Well, as usual, I hope that everyone can walk away with something from my blog

As you all know I am currently studying for my personal training certification test. The 1^st certification that I am working on is through NESTA. I take my test on 11/17. I just received my stuff last Wednesday. So, the pressure is on-big time.  I have been studying the practice test since Friday evening. It’s funny because I wake up shouting out terms and definitions. I’m literally trying to brand these things into my brain-consciously and unconsciously.

I have recently been in a relationship that I thought was really good, I was mistaken. I’m going to give you a long story in the shortest way possible (Really, I am. Lol)

Girl and boy meet, girl and boy start pretty great relationship-which was quickly followed by a lot of drama on the boy’s end. Girl and boy decide to work through the boy’s drama. Girl keeps her word, gives, gives, and never gets anything in return. Boy goes back on all he said at the last minute and decides to call it a wrap at approximately the same time girl has taken about all she could take and is ready to throw in the towel.  Boy decides to take the easy way out and send it all via email, girl reads email and hits the roof beyond belief, so she calls boy and demands to say her piece in person, because she is 110% grown women  and wants to tell him in person. Boy initially agrees and then changes his mind the following day. So, girl calls boy and says all that was bothering her and that was on her mind-and MOVES ON!

That was the just of this past relationship. Well, guess what-H.H. is doing GREAT! I’m not down, sad, depressed or angry anymore. I fought a good fight, kept my word and stood my ground. I still have my pride and integrity. See I had got to the point where I had become worried, stressed, doubtful and alone. Those are NOT qualities of a happy and healthy relationship. Relationships are give and take. I gave and he took. Well he took past his allowed limit. Just like Visa will deny your charge if there is no available credit, I denied his. Better luck next time. The truth be told, I was more upset then hurt. I was beyond pissed. He wasted my time, energy, and then went back on his word. I can’t trust, let alone be with someone like that. When it was all said and done, I said No love lost-only wisdom gained. And I meant that. I got off the phone and felt completely relieved. I was free again. Free of b.s. stress, baby mama drama, empty promises, etc.

Yes I cared deeply for him, but he took my kindness for weakness and stupidity. I’m a lot of things but stupid, desperate, or hard up for a man aren’t any of them. When I last spoke to him, he got Heather the B****, because he made me go there. The kind, caring, concerned Heather had to step back. He didn’t break me. I can’t be broken. I slipped, but I am standing tall and proud, yet again. The fact of the matter is that I was brave, followed my heart, but also listened to my 2^nd sense. I put my fear to the side. This relationship has made me wiser and that much stronger.

It wasn’t until a few weeks ago that I even realized this relationship was literally draining me. I was over eating like crazy, on a roller coaster of emotions, I had become lazy –my workouts were suffering and my body was definitely showing it. If something is draining you-X it out of your life. Let it go-it so not worth it!

Friday afternoon, I had my first workshop for work. They were basically giving the new trainers a pep talk, teaching us protocol, techniques, attitude, etc. The man that was speaking was one of the big wigs in the company. This man literally lit a fire under my @$$ just by speaking to the group as a whole and then to me, individually.  He’s a powerful speaker! He has been in the business for about 20 years or longer. After I spent my afternoon there-Something inside snapped. It literally snapped. The fact that he was able to sit and talk to me and say that he saw my passion, desire, motivation, and enthusiasm meant a lot to me. He told me, heather you are going to go far in whatever you want to do.  Put your passion 1^st and I guarantee the money will follow. Be the best trainer that you can, never stop learning, always be willing to listen, carry yourself with confidence and pride and always lead by example. He says they want to train me to become a FM (fitness manger, they manage all of a gym’s p.t.’s), because I have so much potential.

He asked the group what they wanted and I blurted out, I want your job! He looked and started laughing, he said that’s good. You should and one day you can, if you put the effort into it.

This man was not only easy on the eyes (LOL), but he was so knowledgeable and down to earth. I seriously could’ve just sat and talked to him forever-granted he is pretty damn hot- BUT he is an amazing individual. He is 1 of the most powerful speakers that I’ve ever heard. He told my boss that he sees great things for me and also mentioned to him that he thinks I’m so gorgeous. Lol. I was flattered.  He also mentioned to me on Friday that all of the big bosses are nuts about me and can not wait for me to really start. That made me feel so good! Man I felt like I was literally walking on clouds. I feel so strong in mind, body, and soul.

I was so, so, scared to follow my heart about training and I didn’t want to step out of the box, I did and I feel unstoppable. The sky is my limit. There is no where to go from here except up. I’m building a dream with elevators in it.

I was scared to train, because I didn’t feel I looked the part and I was scared to train someone and then they don’t reach their goals. That scared me, but I have taken that fear and used it as a positive. Those things keep me on track and up to par now. I’m glad to say I have been back in the gym and eating much better. I’m studying hard and trying to learn all that I can. My main focus is just passing this test on Saturday, and then I can slow it down a bit.

This isn’t about money for me. This is about my passion, doing something I want to do and enriching people’s lives. I want all my clients to learn how to walk in the gym and kick ass now, take names later. I want to teach those women how to strengthen their body and mind. I want each of my clients to be able to say that I helped change their life and attitude. That’s when I will know that my job is done. Just like the people who have trained me or worked out with me, taught me different things-they all helped me and have changed my life. I want to be someone’s Phil, Dee, Mike, Vince, Sean, or B. All of those men have pushed me beyond my limits, encouraged me, made me accountable, taught me that I can do anything-it all boils down to

Being brave

Fine tuning your program/diet and mind

Never settling for mediocrity in life or from yourself

Deciding how bad YOU really want something

I’m not going to take this test on Saturday to fail-I’m going to pass-with flying colors. There is no place in my life for mediocrity

So in closing, don’t be afraid to let go of things that hold you back. Don’t be scared to step out your comfort zone. Go that extra mile. It might just be what you need. Follow your heart but take your 2^nd sense into consideration. 

Go out with determination, stand tall and do what you have to do, because I am here to tell you, life is short, real short. Stop just breathing, going through the motions, that is NOT living-you are merely taking up space. Start living, being brave! All my life I have settled for #2. This is one thing that I will NOT settle to be second best in; I want to be #1. If I push you of happen to step on your toes, I’m sorry, but get out of my way. If I can’t always be #1, I am going to bust my butt and try to get there!!

On that note, I’m going to leave you with a verse from a song “Brave”, by Jennifer Lopez. Take care and I will keep everyone updated. I won’t be around to much, I have a lot of studying to do, plus I’ll be at the gym-but I will check in w/ everyone J

Thank you for all your support!!

Xoxox

Brave

This is your day; this is your day,

It’s time to be brave, say I’m not afraid, not anymore

I use to be cold, now the temperature changed, it just ain’t the same

I’m not afraid, I’m not afraid, because I’ve become brave as the light of day

I wouldn’t take back anything that I have gone through and I pray for strength for anything I’m going to do,

Regardless if it’s joy or its pain-I’m still okay. I’m gonna be alright because I’m not afraid, I am BRAVE!