~Heather’s World~

Okay, first, I told you that you had to get mad to get moving, then I told you to prioritize, I have also talked about reassessing your goals-well, today, it’s all about fine tuning.

Yes, that’s right, Fine tuning. I am learning a little more about myself mentally, physically, and emotionally everyday. People I’m fine tuning Heather into truly becoming Hot-Heather, The Heather that I truly want to become.

In the past few weeks, I have learned that you might be mad at someone, you might be holding onto all of this anger and bitterness but 9 times out of 10, they have moved on with their life and they are just freaking fine and they are NOT thinking about you or the way that you feel.  So I am learning to let the b.s. go. Just let it go, move on, kick it to the curb like Beckham, and keep focused on the most important thing-myself. The best revenge is looking and feeling amazing when you see that person.

I have come to the conclusion that an ‘Eat up’ day does NOT and I mean, does NOT give you a license to eat every single thing that can fit into your mouth.  My eyes are still bigger then my stomach. I can honestly say that I like having a food schedule and eating clean.  I feel good and energized. When I eat like I have 0 sense, I feel disgusting. I am learning that although I love sweets, sweets don’t love me. It just doesn’t sit well anymore. The sad thing is that I continue to want them or crave them. This past weekend, I pretty much went to town on a big pan of brownies that I made. By the time it was all said and done, I felt so sick. OMG! I had candy that day, along w/ my brownies, and a brat-ugh! Let’s just say, I much rather have grilled chicken and veggies. That crap made me totally sick! What a learning experience!

After a few weeks, I realized a pattern-I eat pretty good Monday through Thursday, but by the time Friday night comes around, I get bitchy and irritable, etc. Then Saturday comes and I go nuts and Sunday, I’m just plain old wishy-washy. The great thing is that I know realize that those 3 days are like caution days for me. Now, I just need to fix it. Can it be fixed-WELL HELLO! OF COURSE IT CAN BE FIXED. I JUST NEED TO FINE TUNE MY MIND TO FIX IT.

Most of you all do not know me personally, but let me tell you something about Heather. Heather is very sweet and loving-but Heather has a MEAN STREAK. Believe it. Heather allows a lot of people, situations, and things to get under her skin!! Those things push me to want to nibble and snack most of the time, but NOW I try to take that aggression and use it as something positive, hence the saying, “You go to the gym to workout; I go to KICK-ASS!”

I use a lot of negative things as fuel for my fire. Long story short- (are you guys ready??)

I dated a guy who goes to my gym. I hadn’t seen him in about a month or so. Well I ran into him last Thursday, Friday, and every morning since last week.

Anyhow-Everyday that I have seen him; he has pretty much sung my praises and stroked my ego. Is he a jerk?? YES, AN ARROGANT JERK AT THAT.  But, he gives credit where it is due. So, I do appreciate that. Each day he has told me, Gees-I don’t know what workout you are doing, but it’s working because you are looking amazing! Omg even your ass looks lifted! (I have a pretty pancakish booty! Lol) I saw him the other day and had on a pair of hip huggers and a white fitted tee and he just kept trying to hug me and kiss me, I finally had to get nasty and say, “WTF WOULD YOU STOP! IT’S SO NOT THAT TYPE OF PARTY!” He pulled back and was like, sh*t your just so pretty and strong, look at your shoulders and arms! Damn!

So, the point of that little personal story is that at one time this man drove me absolutely nuts! Not in a good way either! He stressed me out and drove me just crazy. I would just nibble because I was so stressed out w/ him. But, around the beginning of August, I said, “F*** him! I’m Hot heather, it’s a wrap and I am done w/ him” I said it and God knows, I meant it. I became focused again. I went back into the gym w/ a whoooooole different attitude. I went back to gym with a vengeance I fine tuned my lifting and cardio. I went back into that gym to kick ass, his in particular. I became much more keyed in. I refuse to let a man stress me out and detour me from doing what I want to do. I began journaling down what I ate, my exercise, etc. Every time I thought about him, it made me sick, but I kept telling myself, eventually you will run into him and I did. People, when I saw him last week, I was strolling on the treadmill, looked up and there he was- walking through the door. At that very moment in time, it was like someone took a lighter and put it directly under my ass. I was fierce and fabulous! I was no longer strolling; I was running, just like Flo-Jo! After that I ran into the studio and jumped on the spin bike and biked like Lance Armstrong! Yes! I was HOT! I was Mad! I didn’t expect to see him, but I did and I am soooo proud to say, YOU’RE GIRL WAS LOOKING REALLY GOOD DRIPPING SWEAT! Eventually he approached me and tried to talk. I blew him off and acted like he was bothering me!! Lol!

Every morning now, this man runs up to ME and says Good morning. I do the video thing, nod my head and say what’s up (that’s sooo not heather! Lol). I walked out of the gym this morning and he shouts clear across the gym, bye Heather-I kept walking like I didn’t hear him. I have selective hearing.

I no longer go to the gym just to workout. I go to KICK ASS!

Your ass, my ass, and anyone else who wants a piece of this!

I have a goal and I plan to meet it come hell or high water. I realize that it’s all about fine tuning. Fine tune your mind, body, and soul. Learn everything that you can about yourself! No one knows you better then you! Pay attention to the small stuff it will amaze you! Do NOT let bullshit detour you from dreams and goals. Obstacles will come up-I guarantee you-it’s called life, but you have to learn how to get around them, dodge them or jump over them! Sometimes we fall flat on our face (like I have) and sometimes we come out like a champ (like I did w/ ******* @ the gym!!)

Point being- either way, keep going, moving, learning, and trying. What separates winners from losers?? Losers stop when they first fall, make a mistake, fall off track, but a winner  keeps going, learning, and fine tuning himself! Winners push it to the limit, every time-no matter what. Winners fall like losers, but they get up every time, wipe themselves off and keep on trucking. A winner refuses to take NO for answer and winner refuses to be #2.   I don’t know about you, but I don’t train to be #2.

Do Not be ashamed to make mistakes, because sometimes those mistakes are just what we need to get ourselves back on the right track!!

Everyday I go to the gym and I have my cool little ipod w/ me. It is truly my saving grace. I just CAN NOT function without it. I often wonder if people can hear my music and if they did, what the hell they would think.

Sometimes I am exercising and just burst into laughter, because I think..OMG…if people knew what I was listening to, they would think that I am absoulutely nuts!! So, my question is, WHAT KIND OF MUSIC IS ON YOUR IPOD? What do YOU listen to when you are lifting or doing cardio, stretching-whatever. What do you listen to? I’m really curious!! I’ll give you a quick rundown of some of the things that I listen to. Promise not to laugh at me though!

Heather’s ipod tunes:

1. Maniac/flashdance soundtrack 2. What a feeling/flashdance soundtrack 3. Holding out for a hero/footloose soundtrack 4. Fame/ Fame soundtrack

5. Sweet dreams/Eurythmics 6. Proud Mary/Ike and Tina 7. Disco inferno Ike/Tina 8. I will survive/ Gloria Gayoner (I’ve had maaaaaaany drinks to this song! lmao) 9. Never gonna give you up /Rick Ashtley (80’s music) 10. In the club/50 cent 11. Snap yo fingers/Lil John (and NO I still can’t do that stupid ass dance in the video! lol I have tired though.) 12. It’s a fight, Rocky Balboa soundtrack/ 3-6 Mafia 13. Salt Shaker/Ying Yang twins (lol, I danced a whooooooole lot to this song in the clubs. lol) 14. Sexy lady/Yung Berg ( Everytime I hear this song, I think of the last man I dated. He was hot, but…like the song says, it was nice knowing you, but I GOTTA MOVE ON! HA!) 15. P.I.M.P/ 50Cents 16. Stunning like my daddy/Birdman & Little Wayne 17. Have a nice day/Bon Jovi 18. It’s my life/ Bon Jovi 19. B4 he cheats/Carrie Underwood (every women has got to love this song!! 20. Spanish Reggae (hey I love to dance..sometimes I catch myself in the mirrors at the gym dancing. lol..) 21. Que Hiciste/ Jennifer Lopez 22. Doing it well/Jennifer Lopez 23. Stronger/Kayne West 24. Whine it up/Kat Duluna 25. Let it go/Keyshia Cole 26. Like this/ Kelly Rowland 27. Push it/Rick Ross 28. Survivor/Destiny’s Child 29. Bootylicious/ Destiny’s Child

A few of my favorite artist are kayne west, rick ross, beyonce, pussy cat dolls, diddy, Young Jeezy, Madonna, Bon Jovi, Maroon 5, Cascada, Omarion ( I love ice box. Thats my cool down song!!) I love all the rocky soundtracks. These are just a few of my favorites. So, now I want to know..WHAT ARE YOU FAVORITE SONGS/ARTIST??? DO TELL!!

These are just a few of my favorite songs on my ipod. I have to admit though I love the flashdance soundtrack. I remember watching it when I was little! I use to wear my pink leg warmers and dance all around the living room. One day I was doing walking lunges in the studio and my flashdance music came on, I swear, I thought I was going to break into dance. I had to stop doing my lunges for a second and just laugh.