Just shoot me!
I am hanging on by a thread. My workouts are pretty much all that is keeping me together. I’m feeling pretty self-destructive right now. I would like to drink a handle by myself and destroy all the hard work I’ve been doing. It would be a pretty stupid thing to do because quite honestly, my body is the only aspect of my life I am pretty much alright with right now. But, regardless, I have the tendency to drink away my problems which really only makes them worse, and certainly doesn’t help my body any. Anyway, I had two beers at the beach today, which I think is OK(I recorded them and everything!), but my drinking got a little out of hand a couple of nights last month and I feel like this seriously inhibited my progress. I think it is excellent that I am not going out and drinking tonight, but I also feel like a friendless loser which only increases my desire to drink that handle by myself….
April 19, 2008 at 11:41 pm
hey there
take care
I couldn’t help but respond after readnig your blog…we all have days when we feel like crap and doing whatever we think, or thers thinks, we "shouldn’t" be doing. Just trust yourself and don’t beat yourself up too much. IMHO its cool that you’re blogging about whatever’s going on rather than acting out. Anyways, just thought I would try and give some words of encouragement…If it helps any I am home alone right now too lol! And, your progress pics look great…!
April 19, 2008 at 11:49 pm
Just keep fighting and everything will work its self out in time. we all have our runs of bad times, but dont let a few bad things possibly ruin the rest of your life. if you give in then you give up which will lead to regret and more pain. you owe it to yourself to keep fighting
April 20, 2008 at 12:49 am
I think that we all get down on our self about one thing or the other once in a while (some more then others) I used to be very self destructive and when I felt like crap about whatever I would fight that pain with drugs, food , booze. I still struggle with this once in a while but now I just go to the gym and kill my self. I push my self as hard as I can until I want to scream with pain from the burn.
I know that might not be for everyone but it beats going out and getting trashed, right?
April 23, 2008 at 12:02 am
you can,t be a loser cause your getting a handle on your life, not sure what a handle is when it comes to beer i,m a dumb "limey" but no pun intended. stick with it you are worth it and you,ll be so glad you did and hey i,m your friend so there at least you,ve got one cheer up and take care and always remember " never let the bast***s grind youi down"