The Best is Yet to Come

I can’t wait a moment more
Tell me quando, quando, quando
Say it’s me that you adore
And then darling, tell me when…..

Sometimes the waiting makes the time spent together that much sweeter…..and is a little reminder to not take the people in our lives for granted.

Scent of the pine, you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine and I know how I feel
It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life
And I’m feeling goood

FINALLY!!! I’m back to feeling good. Work is good, my home is good, the man seems pretty good….all in all, it’s ALL good!

So, now I’m just working on making the parts between my ankles and my collarbone good….and failure is not an option.

Got a new camera….haven’t played with it yet, since my head has been aching terribly for the last week.

….or the sick, eat Thanksgiving dinner alone!!!!

Since I still have this nasty bug, I wasn’t going to risk getting my mother, who has Celiac disease and can’t take most OTC’s, sick. Nor was I going to drive 4 hours round-trip in one day in crappy weather just the eat MORE turkey!

So, here was my little Thanksgiving dinner….cooked a spiral cut ham and made yummy ham gravy to go with it, had some homemade mashed potatoes and fresh veggies. Was going to cook up some acorn squash, and heat up some dinner rolls - but just wasn’t that hungry….as it was, I didn’t even finish this little bit! I’m the only one I know who lost weight over this Thanksgiving holiday!

It was only a 5 lb ham, but I have plenty of leftover ham and potatoes……and of course, LOTS of ham gravy!!!! MMMMmmmmm…….yummy ham sammies on the little dinner rolls for when I get home tonight!

Wow…so much to be thankful for….where to start???

I’m thankful for my family who are always there for me, no matter what. I didn’t choose them, but whoever did made those choices for a reason. I’ve learned a lot and continue to learn more from them each and every day. I’m thankful for their love and support without conditions.

I’m thankful for my wonderful friends, whose love is also unconditional. I am very fortunate to have great people in my life and their friendship is more valuable than gold.

I’m thankful for my health, and the determination I’ve developed to continue to improve it. I’m thankful that my body is capable of doing the actions required to transform it.

I’m thankful for the loved ones that have passed…and the impact they have made and continue to make on my life.

I’m thankful for this site, and the support that I’ve found here…as well as this blog and the opportunity to put my thoughts down as I continue on this journey.

There are many more things I’m thankful for, to be sure, but these are the ones that matter the most. As the day continues, I’m sure that all of my blessings will be running through my mind.

Happy Thanksgiving to my fellow US friends, and to anyone else, don’t forget to be thankful for your own blessings……because Thanksgiving is something we should have in our hearts every day.

oh baby refrain, from breaking my heart…..
I’m so in (something that’s not quite love) with you, I’ll be forever blue
That you give me no reason, Why you’re making me work so hard
That you give me no, that you give me no
That you give me no, that you give me no soul
I hear you calling, oh, baby please give a little respect to me

Here’s the thing….I need to spend some time respecting myself just a little bit more before anyone else is going to. Being sick this past week and dealing with some overwhelming personal stuff has put me in a bit of a funk, and it’s caused my self confidence to suffer just a tad.

So, I’m pulling myself out of my funk by the bootstraps and kicking my own ass to get back in the good-vibe groove that I’m much more accustomed to being in.

No more funky junk for this girl. Nuh-uh, no sir.

The way you came down to my rescue
Heaven must be watchin’ over me

Sometimes I get a feelin’ like a fever comin’ over me
Just a touch of my angels hand and I’m right back on my feet

So, the oddities continue, but yes, I truly believe that there are angels out there watching over all of us. Some things are just too chance to be mere coincidence.

Now, if one of them would kindly kick me in the butt and shove me out the door to the gym….

ok, so maybe not everybody…….but I know I am. Getting up at the buttcrack of dawn to head up to Wisconsin. Back again on Sunday. Thank goodness I’m off next weekend - it’ll actually be my first weekend at home in my new place.

My girlfriend Heather may actually be spending the weekend in my place this weekend, which means that she gets to do it before me!!!!!! WTF?????

I need to make some scheduling adjustments.

As for everything else, all appears to be back to normal, and I’m smiling once again. Thanks for your thoughts and advice, it doesn’t go unnoticed or unappreciated.

Now I’ve got that feeling once again
I can’t explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become Comfortably Numb

Being a Cancerian sucks. We’re just way too emotional….and the emotions of the last 4 days have so overwhelmed me that I’m now just numb from it all.

That being said, I’m not at all comfortable with it. I’d much rather get back to our regularly scheduled programming of normalcy, or as close to it as my life gets, anyway. Stay tuned….

Blue eyes holding back the tears…

It’s been an emotional couple of days for me…..and this entry could have also been titled "signs, signs, everywhere signs"……because it’s also been a spiritually odd time for me as well.

I find myself questioning my purpose and that of those around me. Some of the realizations I’ve come to have been very emotional - not sad or unhappy, but almost fearful, really. Moreso because I’ve realized that a certain person means more to me than I was willing to let myself admit and it leaves me more open to hurt than I care to be after going through the rollercoaster of my last relationship. I find myself wanting to wrap my arms around myself to protect my heart. Logic and emotion are clearly duking it out and I’m not sure which one’s in the lead.

Thankfully, I have a few very close friends who know me so well and are there when I need an ear or a reality check. They mean the world to me and I’m grateful that I have such good people in my life to help keep me grounded.

I really need to stop pondering so much and go for a good mind-clearing run, or maybe a brisk bike ride to help me find some balance again. This off-kilter crap is really starting to drive me nuts - like I wasn’t nuts enough already!