What the hell
OH MY GOD. What a pile of sh*t I am. I worked so hard over the past year and threw it all down the drain the past 3 months while planning and recovering from my ELECTIVE surgery. So I gained like 15 pounds (that’s including the weight of my implants, lol) and my bodyfat shot up and my midsection got bigger. For f*ck’s sake, what the hell man. I mean it’s my fault but I can’t believe I let myself do that. Shame on me times infinity.
So I met w/ a PT at the gym to do my stats and I did a quick 30 minute workout w/ him. It was painful. So not only did I get FAT I lost energy and wind in my system.
So I’m punishing myself. I’m not gonna buy any new clothes until I can fit my old Sergio jeans lol. BLAH. AAAHH. The weekend was good. I worked out and ate right. I did have a glass of wine w/ dinner last night but other than that did really well. Going to do cardio tonight. My goal at this point is to lose 10 pounds by February 1, 2009. Reading my old blogs I wonder wtf happened to me. I know that I started to drink more which contributed to my weight gain and stopped working out which contributed to the flabbiness.
I also have to work on keeping the timing of my eating. I get so caught up working cases I forget the time and forget to eat. 
And fruitsnacks. OH MY GOD they are my weakness. I can say no to cookies and cake but give me some fruitsnacks or gummy bears?! SHOOOOT ME! I was at the commissary yesterday and ate some gummy bears while shopping for my healthy food. And for f*ck sake, the commisary ran out of chicken so I had to get frozen "seasoned" chicken. BACK TO WHOLE FOOOOODS!!!!!
 AAAAHHHHH!! Grumpy.
