Steamnsweat´s BodyBlog

Just gonna hit the weights like crazy again. I know I´m seeking refuge from self confrontation but what the hell, my body will thank me for it. Eating OK even though I´m not getting hungry as usual because of depression. Seeing positive results and will put some new pictures up later on.

STAY FOCUSED EVERYBODY!!!

Got a lot of s#~t on my mind lately. Working morning and night shifts monday through friday and  8 to 5 on saturdays. After one rest day and a hectic saturday I can´t wait to get to the gym and exhaust my pre-occupied brain and body. Achieve some clarity, sleep and not give a crap for a while.

I´m really depressed about not being able to do normal things like putting on some socks let alone pick up a dumbbell. It all happened on sunday when I was squating. I was going up on weight as usual when I got to my last set on the 5th rep and felt this painful squeeze above my left buttock and knew something was wrong. I barely put the bar upon the rack and just stood stiff for the next two minutes. Obviously went to the hospital fearing serious back injury. Luckily it was just a muscular problem and I´m feeling better, but will I ever be able to squat or deadlift again? Ironic. I´m actually MISSING Squats and deadlifts already.