WTF was that?
It’s been one weird week. Not in a good way either. Dealing with the mental aftermath now…wont get into it. Trust me. I’m doing it for you.
The nutrition aspect is making much more sense, so I can relax and breathe a little in regards to that…and work on advances with the workouts. I’m trying not to freak out about the slight rise in the scale. I did expect it since I’m upping calories after a lifetime of restricting. I don’t like it, but I expect it. *sigh* 
Anyway, I’m thinking of putting up a few more pics so you can maybe get to know who I am. I have this great little home gym I would love to show off. It’s probably my favorite room in the whole house. I’ll miss that room when we move…however I’m already planning the new one. So there.
Gonna do a lot of thinking today and try not to feel so bad about myself. I’m really beating myself up a lot. That’s making me a miserable person inside. Probably outside, too. *shrug* Maybe I’ll beat the crap out of that part of me when I hit the gym. 
March 3, 2008 at 10:39 pm
Are you weighing yourself everyday? I’m sure you don’t, but that scale lies!!! Day to day, especially for a girl is I don’t know….DEPRESSING!! hahaa.
Yeah, you gotta stop beating yourself up! You will never succeed otherwise….and that stress will kill you and make you gain weight in some way, whether it’s physical or mental!
March 6, 2008 at 10:11 am
Well of COURSE I’m weighing every day. Sometimes more than once. Depressing doesn’t even begin to cover it.
Mental weight…always makes me think of that Offspring song, "She’s got issues".
March 6, 2008 at 10:26 am
Feel free to share your issue with us all. If there is ever a place to do it, and it will be understood, it is here. BTW….feel free to love yourself with reckless abandonment. It is what I do, and the only way I have learned to be healthy, happy, and sane.
March 14, 2008 at 9:24 am
Thank you, Maddi. I’m really struggling with not beating myself up. It’s a lifetime habit, and it’ll take time, I’m sure.
Sanity? What is that?