Motivation
Well, I don’t know what’s up with me this week (or these last couple of weeks) but my diet has been horrible. The thing is when I am feeling low about myself, I eat whatever I want because I don’t feel I deserve to have a healthy body. I don’t even know why that makes sense to me. This week I have been a complete saint (diet and exercise wise) and I still don’t feel good about any of it. Reason being that I went to a PTL (physical training Leader) class and had our waists measured. Now I bust my ass in the gym yet all the other girls were a lot smaller. The girl who looked the most fit said she hadn’t been to the gym in 6 months! I get so freaken pissed that I bust my ass all the time for 2 F&#*$ pounds!
Today, we had to get taped for our PT scores and again, I am the most fit person in my squadron but I have a 34 inch waist. Which means that it doesn’t matter that I MAX my run (10 min 30 sec mile and a half) my push ups (52 in 1 min) and my situps (56 in 1 min) because apparently i’m a fatass according to the Air Force. I will never get the coveted 100 pts I so blatenly deserve. F@*! yeah I’m sour! Why wouldn’t I be? So this week is a piece of freaken $h!t. and I found out a friend of mine is getting kicked out.
Sometimes, I wish they would kick me out. But I’m not a quitter, and you shouldn’t be either.
April 22, 2008 at 1:30 pm
Wow 52 push ups. That is better than most of my command. And from the look of the pics you have no reason to be mad. At all!! You look great keep at it.
April 22, 2008 at 1:49 pm
She said that to psyche you out. She’s been in the gym within 6 mos. Guys do that crap all the time. She feels better by making others feel worse. I wouldn’t worry.
April 22, 2008 at 2:15 pm
I totally agree with you about the PT program. It is a bit crazy, how if you don’t fit into a certain area, then you are "fat". I TOTALLY feel your pain purty lady.
May 3, 2008 at 9:36 am
Those reg are written so troops look good. Not so they are fit. Its now hoe you look-it how you perform!! Its been that way since good know when. Stormin Norman complained in books about it in the 1970’s working at the pentagon.