Gutiesc’s BodyBlog

Well, I don’t know what’s up with me this week (or these last couple of weeks) but my diet has been horrible. The thing is when I am feeling low about myself, I eat whatever I want because I don’t feel I deserve to have a healthy body. I don’t even know why that makes sense to me. This week I have been a complete saint (diet and exercise wise) and I still don’t feel good about any of it. Reason being that I went to a PTL (physical training Leader) class and had our waists measured. Now I bust my ass in the gym yet all the other girls were a lot smaller. The girl who looked the most fit said she hadn’t been to the gym in 6 months! I get so freaken pissed that I bust my ass all the time for 2 F&#*$ pounds!

 Today, we had to get taped for our PT scores and again, I am the most fit person in my squadron but I have a 34 inch waist. Which means that it doesn’t matter that I MAX my run (10 min 30 sec mile and a half) my push ups (52 in 1 min) and my situps (56 in 1 min) because apparently i’m a fatass according to the Air Force. I will never get the coveted 100 pts I so blatenly deserve. F@*! yeah I’m sour! Why wouldn’t I be? So this week is a piece of freaken $h!t.  and I found out a friend of mine is getting kicked out.

 Sometimes, I wish they would kick me out. But I’m not a quitter, and you shouldn’t be either.

A gym partner and I made a deal. He wants to gain 10 lbs of muscle and I want to lose 15 lbs of fat….so being completitive, we made a bet. If by 4th of July I lose 15 lbs, he has to grow out his hair (he has been shaving his head since he was 15); if he gains 10lbs, I have to CUT my hair 10 FREAKEN INCHES!!! NOW THAT"S MOTIVATION!!! I’m so excited and nervous! I"ll write more when I have a chance but I gotta go to bed….Good nite!

The joke of the day was my diet. Let me break it down:

0600: 1 cut steel cut oats, 3 egg whites, 1 egg.

0830: 2 LARGE pancakes w/3 tbsp honey, 2 hashbrowns (with 2 packets of Ketchup), 1 "wheat" slice of toast, 2 tbsp jelly, I HUGE Vegetable Omelet with plenty of cheese.

1030: 1 cup coffee with approx. 5 oz rhudabarb (sp?) cake.

1145: Special edition 3 mustateers bar (mint flavor with dark chocolate)

1400: 1 Chicken breast, 1 cup vegetables, 1 cup brown rice

 1500: 1 apple with 1 tbsp Natural PB

1530: Strawberry nutrigrain bar

1600: 2 scoops italian ice cream on cone

(I’m sure you’re nausated by now…)

Post work out (1 hr cardio)

2100: I scoop protein powder (what a waste huh?), 1/2 cup soy milk, 1/2 cup kashi cereal, 1/2 of Craisins.

You know what pisses me off? That I probably won’t gain an ounce for this because when I "diet" (eat healthy) I don’t lose any weight either!!!!!!!!!! Yet, I still need to feel as though I’m doing something good. This was the first time in a long time (6 or 6 months?) that I have eaten like this…all this because Lent was over with! Tomorrow is another day…