Gun Chief’s BodyBlog

Well with one very successful competition completed, the outcome of which would’ve have been entirely different and much less of a success if it wasn’t for my partners encouraging support and steadfastness to what was needed.  I’ve decided to do two others next month.  The first one is in 3 weeks and then the next one is the week after.  They’re two different federations and require a bit of travel but I’m looking forward to them both.  Both are Natural competitions and are tested, which is good for me.  I’m too damn tall and not bulky enough to compete in the other ones yet.  Hopefully next year I will be able to do as well in the other federations as well.  With my partner by my side encouraging me and pushing me (probably harder then I do her) I’m sure alot of great things are around the corner.  

I could actually use some great (even just good) things as my personal life is a disaster and to go into detail would make it sound like fiction!  I couldn’t make up half this stuff much less believe it! The other half I barely believe and cause it sounds like I’m on a damn TV show!  Suffice it too say that I have a long road ahead of me and the only sanity I have to get me through it is my training partner (who pushes me better then anyone ever has) and my workouts.  Funny how they tie in together.  Can’t wait for her to get back, she got to go to the Olympia (wench!!) and she apparently had a blast meeting everybody (wench!!).  But she’s coming back today and we get to train tonight, and I don’t care how tired she may claim to be, it’s going to be a good workout!!  I’m changing our routine to 6 days a week to prep for the upcoming shows (and she’s going to have to follow suit till next year).  My diet hasn’t been as good as it was before my first show and I can chalk alot of that up to the stressors that I’m dealing with right now.  Thank Gawd today is a leg day cause I’m not sure how much longer I can deal with this crap!  At least on a leg day I can brutalize em, with enough energy and pain that I can work out my issues and forget about them (even if it’s temporary).  Well back to the grindstone!! 

Well I just finished my first BB show and did really well.  Taking a 2nd in the Novice heavy weight (was edged out due to a lack of a larger thigh sweep according to judges), took a 3rd in the Master’s 40+ (totally justified, the other guys were much leaner and ripped then me), and the best part a 1st place in the OPEN heavy weight class (totally dominated the other competitors according to two of the judges).   Getting to do a posedown was an awesome experience and to do it with a pro-card on the line was even that much more exciting.  The overall winner (middle wt class winner) had a much better total package but in the pictures I saw I looked like I belong there and had a shot at it.   

The elation of winning my class was incredible, it was only too bad that it wound up being a hollow feeling.  My personal life has become unmanagable and I’ve hurt someone very close to me very very badly.  It seems every time things start to go right for me I hurt someone close to me and I don’t know if it can be repaired to where it once was.  There is a lot of pain involved (caused by the situation we created and I’ve unintentionally made worse by asking the near impossible).  My first competition was suppose to be about me and celebrating my accomplishment, instead the one person whom I love and care about will barely speak to me (not out of anger but hurt), and I created that situation Saturday (despite what she says or thinks).  I have a lot of things to do this week and hopefully I can start making amends to her.