Gun Chief’s BodyBlog

Well this ends a rather busy week and amazingly enough I got all my workouts in so far.  The long weekend is looking real good right about now.  Finished my Back today and my Deadlifts are really starting to take off.  I’ve always loved the deadlift but after injurying my lowerback and insisting nothing was wrong (young, dumb, and full of *&$#), I tended to stay away from them.  I’m glad I’m doing them regularly again and while the back feels tight it doesn’t hurt and I can still move (both good signs in my mind).  I’m doing squats in a rack as I don’t have a lifting partner (which to be honest I’m too embarassed by my own current standings I don’t want any else to actually see how much I struggle with these weights) but they are starting to move easier for me.  I’ve even been able to hammer out pullups relatively easy (go figure - never really could before).  And again I can’t believe I’m actually looking forward to getting outside and doing cardio stuff (kayak, bike, and god forbid run) this weekend.  Must be all of ya’lls influence on here.  LOL   To all of ya’ll who have been so gracious with your comments and support,  Thank you.   

Well the eating is going better and I am definitely craving protien (mostly red meat, chicken, and turkey).   I thought having a pizza joint (a very good one too) next door might derail me into eating a bunch of worthless carbs but it’s been actually easier then I figured.  Still fighting with everyone else’s opinion of what I’m doing, you know the "your to old", "your fine the way you are", "why bother", and my favorite "what is wrong with you".  Fortunately, having found this site and seeing that I’m not alone makes it easier and knowing how well I thrive in the fight, these statements have energized and motivated me even more.  Especially since I’m done kicking my own ass for being a lazy piece of shit and taking charge of my situation instead of my situation taking charge of me.  It doesn’t really matter what anyone else thinks (and deep down, not even someone who reads this) but what ultimately counts is what I think and feel.  And right now I feel great!  I may not look like I did 2 and 3 years ago but I’m marching back there one day at a time.  Those pictures are one of my new primary sources of visual stimuli as I was there once I can get back there again!   I didn’t become a "red stripe" Senior Chief by playing nicely with those around me and following the crowd.  I did it by doing what was right (morally and ethically - not politically)!!  So if I’m going to achieve what it is I’ve set out to do, I only need someone to tell me I can’t and then I will!!  I had forgotten how much fun the fight can be and how much it can motivate ones self.  I had definitely fallen into a comfort zone that I can no longer accept and will no longer accept.  Again I know I’m no pretty bodybuilder, but I am me and I will be the best me I can be.  I’ve stood toe to toe with forces strong enough to destroy me in the past and have won, this is just another battle in which I will, no must prevail.  Surrender is what I had done when I retired and it is now no longer an option for me! 

Did a double up workout yesterday and man am I feeling it today!  Did Back in the morning and it didn’t go as well as I would have liked, just couldn’t seem to get moving, but in the evening when I did Shoulders, I couldn’t stop moving.  Felt really good by the end of the day and I was so amped up on adreniline, endorphines and a couple of other "ines" that sleep didn’t come easily.  I can’t remember the last time I was so pumped up during a workout that I actually gave myself a headache (without ingesting any stimulatnts).  I’m looking forward to todays cardio (did I really just type that???) and if the weather holds this weekend getting out and doin some road (cycling) or river (kayaking) work.  Tired and sore is an understatement, but I do feel so much better then last week.  My body even looks different and seems to be responding already.  I’m going to try and take some photos and put them up this weekend.  To all those who read these posts thank you for accompanying me on my journey. 

Well so far it’s been a week and I feel amazing.  I had forgotten just how good it feels to push the weights and feel the body respond.  My legs and back are still feeling sore, while my chest and shoulders are just pumped.  I know my numbers aren’t even close to what they used to be but they’ll get there soon enough.  Next item is to work on scheduling my cardio in so it doesn’t interrupt my clients workouts and it is a schedule I can work with.  Somehow I seem to enjoy morning cardio and afternoon lifting alot better then the other way around.  The eating cleaner isn’t as hard as it used to be but eating enough is going to be tough when you do 4-5 clients back to back.  I’ll figure it out I guess.  Hopefully next week I can improve a little more. 

Well, the journey’s begun and I’m both tired and a little sore already.  Didn’t seem like I did a lot but when I push myself like I push my clients it makes a difference.  No wonder they say doctors can’t treat themselves and Trainers can’t train themselves.  it’s too easy to say that seemed right and not press harder.  Today I did Deadlifts (first time in 2 1/2 years and they wore my ass out.  Glad I did them though because I’d forgotten just how satisfying it is to lift your bodyweight off the floor for 12 reps and use a 20 second rest between the sets, when none of your clients can do that with half their bodywieght.  Well except for one who can do 3/4’s of her body weight on a bad day and almost her bodyweight (about 10lbs shy) on a good day.  Tomorrow I’m doing some cardio (shudder at the thought) and Ab work.  Still trying to tighten the diet to match my caloric needs (with the correct breakdown).  Till next time. 

After much time guiding other people to achieving their fitness goals, I’ve determined that I need to get back to achieving mine.  Having read several entries I’m encouraged to know that I’m not alone and that others have started out much worse off then me and are making remarkable progress.  I truly look forward to the journey!