ARRRGGG!
I know that I am not doing EVERYTHING that I could. I have an attitude about eating too clean- the wrong attitude obviously. But I have cut back on the junk with 1 treat a day and getting some fruit and veggies at lunch and dinner. I’ve been working out at least 5 days a week with 2 days of strength training. I’ve been set up with some difficult circumstances (had to quit the gym for money, broke my toe-and still can’t wear shoes for very long!, have 2 demanding children, breastfeeding every 3 hours) But I made solutions to work with (pilates/cardio videos, recumbant bike, free weights, and ball all barefoot!) I just kept getting higher numbers on the scale- although the pant size never did change? Saturday I finally saw a 2lb loss, but I need to see the number again so I know its not a fluke. However, I have at least gained some strength. I am trying to focus on this postive, but I really want to get into the clothes in my closet!! BUT- when I started working out again after baby I was barely able to knock out 1 pushup. Last week I was able to get 3, and then Saturday I was up to 5. I feel my form is a little shaky but I’m proud that I am seeing some kind of result. All this jazz is a lot of really hard work and focus- and that would be why not everyone is fit.
At the grocery store last week I was nearly done with the run around and saw a female bodybuilder pushing her cart around. She was maybe 5′5′’ and had the broad stocky form that is easier to build. It was a great mood lifter for some inspiration, as you rarely see female builders out there, even if I don’t want to get quite as large as she was I can admire her hard work. Although she was on her cheat day cause she grabbed quite a few candy bars on her way to checkout!
