GrCherished’s BodyBlog

Today was my first day back to work since my surgery! It was nice to be back ( for about the first hour, then I realized I didnt miss it as much as I thought I did). Seriously though its nice to be getting back to my regular routine. Although I didnt get up at 5am like I would have in the past to workout. I was honestly going to skip it, until hubby sorta brought the subject up. Nothing I hate worse then disappointing the hubby. I’m really glad for his constant motivation. I know I can still get to where I want to be I just have to start all over and its going to be harder this time. I have to get my mind focused and quit feeling bad for what I lost and start looking forward to what I can and will achieve in the future! Its just kind WEIRD going to the gym with limits on what I can do and expecting results! But I will do this. I’ll let you know how I make out tomorrow! Plan is as of right now, wake up at 5am and get workout in before work! Lets see what happens.  

ok guys. I went back to the gym today. I know I said that before, but I only lasted two days and then didnt go back. Well I’m back in there and I have to stay. I have lost so much with being sick, and now that makes me sick! I dont care this time if I get sore or whatever, I have to stay in there. I loved it before and now I’m having problems. I need your help, bad! This is something I want, I just need some motivation I guess. Well summer is coming and I dont want this flabby belly to still be there, so I guess I’ll use that as motivation! 

well I went back today! LOL! I did cardio and it was only 20 minutes of walking on the treadmill. Just think I was running 20 minutes and getting almost 2 miles before I had surgery! Man it was tough walking a mile tonight. Anyways I’m working on getting my strength back up and I’m doing everything easy and slow. I used very light weight in the gym last night and my triceps are sore today so the light weight must be doing something as well. I want to be back where I wa so bad! No limits and pushing myself to the limits! I want that so badly! Well I’ll let you know how day #3 goes!

so I went back today! I know Dr. said not until the new year but I feel good enough to lift light. I dont expect big changes or anything, but to be completely honest with you guys if I continue what I was doing I’ll be right back up there at that 187 pounds I never want to see again! I have been really down on myself and had to boost my confidence back up a little. So I started light. Same routine just a little lighter. I hit chest, shoulders and triceps today! Not bad! It didnt hurt my stomach at all, so thats a plus. I’m going to cut the N.O. Explode out completely and just go with the protein. As of tomorrow morning I will be 100% back on track with working out and eating clean. Thanks to everyone for all the motivation, the kicks in the butt, and helping me to believe in myself again. I know I can still do this, its just going to a little harder now then it was 13 weeks ago! Thanks guys! 

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ok so everyone knows I have totally lost focus here. I got sick, had surgery and well now its hard to get started again. The dr. says I have to wait until the new year, but I honestly feel ok. I think I can start again. In fact I was going to start again this morning, but my lazy butt wouldnt get out of bed. I have found every excuse not to start again. I have set my hubby back along with myself. He hasnt even done his 12 week pictures. I know I helped him stay motivated and without me in the game I guess there isnt any compition. The real thing is I never felt better then I did that 8 weeks I spent in the gym and eating clean. It was awesome. I loved it, I loved posting pictures and I loved how I felt. The thing is I’ve never been sick my whole life and as soon as I started this workout program, bam, I Spent 8 days in the hospital with surgery! I’m so afraid that its linked somehow to either working out, drinking the protein shakes or drinking the N.O. explode! I have no real real proof  that any of this could have caused the ordeal I went through but then again I’m not even sure the Dr.’s still no whats going on with me. I want to be back to where I was. I want to help my hubby again. I want to feel good about myself again. I want my strength back again and I want to look good summer of 08!! Help I need some good advice and motivation. I want my hubby to be proud of me again!

So yesterday I went to the dr. I had high hopes of being able to start back to the gym light easy and slow. Well he said that it could be my new years day present. New years day thats like 7 weeks away! I cant wait that long. They said I could go back to work monday after thanksgiving and I’m allowed to lift up to 20 pounds. Ok so maybe if I start back in the gym the next couple of weeks working with say like 20 pounds and doing some tread mill walking, which he said is fine, maybe I wont lose every single little thing I’ve accomplished! what do you guys think. I know 20 pounds isnt much and I’m not going to become the next woman body builder working with 20 pounds but something is better then nothing right. And he did ok 20 pounds!!!

well I was up again today at 5am to help my niece workout. I’m really having some problems here. I dont like waking up early but when I was able to workout I learned to like it ALOT! Well now that I cant lift and I’m just showing her the ropes its kinda tuff! I think I’m ready to be back in the gym. At least my mind is telling me I’m ready. I dont know if I’m physically ready yet but I want to try again. I started my diet back up yesterday! That felt really good! I’m not going to look back anymore on what happened. I want to keep pushing forward and start this thing again. Tomorrow I will have my answer as to wether I can start lifting again yet. I’ll keep you all posted! 

Today would have been the day to take my 12 week photos. Didnt happen due to circumstances. I go back to the dr. on Tuesday! I think I’m ready to get this thing started again. I’m going back on my strict diet tomorrow morning and hopefully will be able to hit the gym again real soon! I’m think I’m going to start a new 12 week program when released from the dr! I was planning on doing that anyways once I finished my first 12 weeks, due to the fact of addiction LOL! I have to quite feeling sorry for myself for getting knocked down for a spell and focus on starting this again. One plus is I’m down that 10-12 pounds i wanted to lose now I have to just tone and tighten up! Not a fun way to lose weight though! Its time to except what happened and move forward instead of focusing on where I would be if……..blah blah blah………new beginning tomorrow! This time (hopefully) there will be no stopping me! Best of luck to you all and thanks to everyone who kept me in their thoughts and prayers during my surgery! Your a great bunch of friends and i would have never kept my head as high as I did without my husband,  you guys and bb.com! Thanks guys! 

Well let me tell you I’m living it. I been with my husband for 13 years and he has tried repeatedly to get me to lift weights and workout. No way was I lifting weights. I would do cardio and that would be good. Well in August of this year he convinced me to give it a try for 12 weeks. If I made it through the 12 weeks and didnt like it fine, then at least he knew I tried. Well I made it through 8 weeks of 100% dedication and absolutely loved it. So what happened right? I had to have surgery on my abdomin and havent been in the gym now for almost 4 weeks. I’m going crazy. I never wanted something so bad. I went back to the Dr. on Monday with high hopes of being able to start back up light easy and slow, but I was wrong. My incision was infected so they had to re-cut it and let it drain. Now I go back on Tuesday! I been waking up at 5am and going to the gym with my neice to help her out and show her what to do, and thats like an alcoholic going to a bar to drink soda! I never thought I would love working out as much as I do. I want my strength back and I want to be back in there. I was so excited with all the progress I was making and I want to get back there before I lose what I had accomplished!!!! ERRRRR……..never wanted it, had it, lost it, want it back NOW!!!!   

Well I was supposed to have a dr.’s appointment yesterday but when we got there we found out he was in surgery and would be for some time. I had to reschedule the appointment for monday. I want to know if he will let me start things real slow. I’m going crazy here. I walk down to my gym and sit there looking around just wanting to be able to do it again so bad. I try to get on here to keep my spirits up. Sometimes it works and other times I get to looking at my pictures and I’m like man…………But anyways I’ll let you all know what the big DR tells me on Monday! Hopefully I can start something slow, light and easy!! Hope all is going well for you guys with great progress!!! TTY soon!