GDI’sBodyBlog

Well, Ive been at this for a while now.. 14 or so weeks, lost a bit gained a bit..  i feel better. but today was the 1st day i truly wanted to give up.. Mind numbing loss of hope and conviction. feeling like I’m not getting anywhere.

So how to cope? what to do? and how to go about it…..   the feeling of not getting anywhere is such a void of despair..

But thanks to my friend and gym partner ( calling me a pussy for thinking of giving up & giving me the motivation to keep going ) i went to the gym. did my workout even though i was having the day from hell.

Today i had to think about why i wanted to get fit and loose weight..  have a lifestyle change.  i thought it might be for my kids..  or my health or my self esteem..  but it all kept coming back to 2 things…  1:  my overweight mother having to be lifted by a firemen cause she fell to the floor and could not get up..  i tried to help but was not strong enough..  shes dead now  2 years back. but that image and the day she died still haunts me…

2:  the fact I’m lonely .. single and i miss having someone in my life.. but today women all seem to be superficial and only go for the good looking guys with a good bod. lol

but thankfully the day from hell is over.. but i am still having to convince myself that I’m doing the right thing. that i wont be fat and 50 with no one in my life… i don’t even want to be fat and 35 lol ( so i got 2 years to fix that )

so how do you cope with the giving up feeling?  what do you do .?  any ideas!…………….. 1: DO it cause its the right thing to do ..

Welcome to the Bodybuilding.com BodyBlogs. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!