GoJoFit’s BodyBlog

train and diet, diet and train..months..years.. get endurance up.. avoid injury..try to get confidence up.. when is too much dieting..when is not enough.. when is too much training, when is not enough?   avoid thinking about your ex’s.. and what is wrong with you..and just concentrate on the task at hand.. don’t worry about what might be.. might have been.. or what the heck is going on right now..  try to relax.. I never feel ready for this comp..last year I was probably the most ready and got injured 2 weeks out..  a week ago..I felt pretty ready for this year..now I just feel blah!  PMSing.. stressing..did I mention I started a new job last week.. well at least they are all nice and supportive there.  I think I’m packed..I don’t think I forgot anything.. I scrap’d the idea of doing my routine..even though its the best one I’ve got in a long time.. I just don’t feel ready.  All my closest friends are supportive.. although I think some are just being nice..or are partial   But regardless of if my confidence is being sapped due to a stupid bday card.. that mentioned my break up from earlier this year of a long term relationship…and through me for a loop(my bday is still weeks away)  or the fact that I’m getting up in age.. or the fact that I don’t feel I dieted enough.. too soft this year?  Last year I was too skinny…will I ever get the combo right?  but regardless of each and every obstacle..I will once again, for the 3rd year in a row..make the trek to the desert.. with the intention of giving it my all.. Winning(or getting a new personal best) is the combination of .. training/hard work, talent, and confidence I have one.. I have a little of another..and I’m always working on the 3rd.  So I’m leaving all of you..and all of my stresses and my cats, behind..and going to the desert.. where I will give it my all..once again.. and let the cards fall where they may..in less then a week it will be all be over.. and we will all say.. we will do better next year.. we will change this or that.. all this prep…all this work..all this DIETING…all for a few days.. in the desert.. competing with some of the best athletes in the world!  Go Tri-Fitness!

Chicken?  oats?  Tuna?  Veggies..maybe some berries?  or nuts?   Is a hotdog really worth it… or that bun that won’t do anyone a bit of good?  I’m one week out so I won’t be having any treats today…other then fireworks.  So if its your cheat day…enjoy a brownie for me!  I’ll be making up for lost time next weekend.  If your dieting today like me..know you are not alone. 

If the family is bugging you.. try just keeping your diet to yourself.. ask them to bbq some chicken breast, bring a veggie platter..  or some strawberries/blueberries.. bring some whipped topping, for them…  Hang in there. 

I received this in response to the blog I wrote yesterday…this motivates me…I wish we had presidential candidates like this, this year!

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; because there is not effort without error and shortcomings; but who does actually strive to do the deed; who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion, who spends himself in a worthy cause, who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly. So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat. Theodore Roosevelt 

I’m not ‘popular’, I don’t have the typical fitness ’look’ sure plenty of you are nice enough to complement me on my ‘accomplishments’..and I thank you.. today is not turning out to be a good day.. for me..and why we have bad days I don’t know?  I’m frustrated that after months of dieting and months of training…I don’t feel ready …my fitness routine.. I knew what I wanted months ago..but I kept putting it off why, fear..I hate practicing it..because I want to do it perfect the first time.. I finally got a dance instructor to help me..and I was doing good..but its too little to late..I don’t think I will have the confidence to pull it off in a week.. As for the rest of the competition.. I don’t know why I do this to myself sometimes..

Bench, lets start with the impossible.. I am not losing weight.. I look better then I did 2 months ago..but I’ve lost maybe 3-4 pounds.. and I need to lose..3 1/2 more to bench 80 pounds which is still too heavy for me to make a good score..because for some reason..I can’t seem to get strong in the bench press.  As I’ve been saying for 3 years.. there’s always next year..but I’m sick of saying that..

Box jumps..I’m getting better..but I’m not there yet..I’m fast..but I can’t finish.. it just sucks that no matter how hard I train at this..I’m still struggling and my body feels like its breaking down. 

Shuttle run.. Its improved but right now.. I feel sluggish. 

 The course.. used to be my best event..and if we break it down..obstacle by obstacle it is my best…but.. I haven’t had a good run ever in Vegas..and I haven’t had a good run.. on the course in over a year(last Spring 2007, was the last time I broke a minute..and my last personal best was.. October 2006!)   I know my negative attitude isn’t helping..I train hard.. I do.. but somehow..it never seems to be enough..someone else’s body holds up better then mine.. and they can train harder.. or they have more energy..so they can train harder… or maybe they are just more disiciplined so they can train harder(but..I have my doubts on that one.. I do train hard)  I’m extremely frustrated right now..but I have some maturity in this sport and I know a lot of it is mental.. and that tomorrow I will wake up..and I might still be negative or I might..be great and positive.. and ready to go…and that..keeps me from going and buying a chocolate cake and eating it.. and thinking what’s the point in trying.. its too difficult.. the hope ..that tomorrow or the next day.. my body will finally respond to all the dieting and training..and I will get lucky ..and do something right.. finally.. that small hope keeps me going..but getting disappointed year after year takes its toll.. the same ppl win.. the same ppl place high.. for a year I was one of them.. I was top 5 in almost every obstacle course run in 2006, after Vegas…it was my moment to shine…but it seems since then its been one injury after another.. is it time to hang up the shoes, heels and running.. and give it up..and admit my moment is over.. or.. do I take yet another year..and train hard..and put my body through torture and deprive myself of enjoying things like.. Brownies cookies..cakes..even fruits.. and milk.. all to have another miserable.. competition where.. someone else.. passes me by.. and  I just have to sit and watch and listen as they give me advice on what I’m doing wrong.. I’m not doing anything wrong.. really I’m not..I’ve been doing this longer then most.. but I’ve hit a rough spot.. and I’m not sure how to get through it…