GoJoFit’s BodyBlog

16 days out from WTF Vegas and I injure myself.  Nothing’s broken, but my left hip has a pretty bad pull.  I’m going to miss obstacle course practice today and this pretty much negates me doing a routine.  I’m extremely frustrated, but trying to play the wait and see game on the rest of the competition.  I hope it heals in time.  I went to a Sports Medicine doc…he said its possible but not likely.  He is sending me for physical therapy but they didn’t have an open appt until Tuesday.

  Others say…I wish I looked like you.  But inside you aren’t yet happy, you want to look like a pro.  I personally don’t care if I ever become a pro, yeah sure that would be great, however..more important to me is to look like one.  To feel like I belong in this industry!!  (ie not to be a joke)  But handling this fine line..of you already look great, why can’t you skip a workout or eat what you want, I wish, I looked like you…is a bit difficult at times.  Point is.. if I skipped workouts and ate whatever I wanted, I wouldn’t look like this..no matter what anyone believes.  OK, sorry all just had to vent.

9 months ago then you do now.  I have trained hard and dieted hard for the last 6 months.  I have never in my life been so clean on my diet.  And that was the feedback.  I think I might be doing something wrong???  That and my waist is too wide, my trainer had me doing sidebenders with weights for this and the Judges advised me to switch to twists, no weights, of course my trainer had me doing those too.  Is it possible to over train your abs?  Mine are flat, but never show…even when I’m extremely lean.  Very frustrated right now. 

hmmmmmmmmmm maybe this should’ve been done before I started competing in the sport.  LOL  It was definately a different point of view found I didn’t always agree with the judges decisions, but they seemed consistant.  So that’s all that matters right?  It was interesting to watch, however I like competing better.  I don’t like sitting and waiting.  I think I would really like a higher level show.  This one was at the level I’ve competed at so it just felt normal.  Not exciting.  Although it made me a little nervous again for my competition coming up next weekend, I think that one will be a big competition, even though it is the same level.  All I know is I am motivated to train hard and do my best even when all I did was pay to put my butt in the seat.  Its still intimidating.  I still want to be/look like the pros.  Lots more work ahead of me.

Almost there!  I just need to be a little leaner and I will be happy.  The judges want my shoulders bigger..well they won’t be happy for a while..lol  Posing didn’t go well again this time in prejudging..but I did much better at the night show..sigh..when it doesn’t really count.  I keep asking for feed back and keep getting told I’m doing great keep it up…sigh.  Easy for them to say, lol.  But I’m trying. 

I still don’t feel ready, but I feel more ready then last week.  Frustrated that all the dieting has not yet produced the results I want.  But not giving up as I have another show in 2 weeks, after which, I want to put on some serious muscle so that when I diet down.. I look better!!!!  good pts of doing 2 shows in two weeks.. 2 shows for the price of one diet?  lol  You can try and correct your mistakes  …bad points.. you want to cheat on your diet but can’t, you have to tan two weeks in a row, cranky isn’t a mood, its your only mood.  I’m glad I did this twice in a row right now, but not sure I’ll ever do it that way again?  But knowing me.. I probably will.