Beauty Revealed…

 Derived from the Latin gluttire, meaning to gulp down or swallow, gluttony is the over-indulgence and over-consumption of anything to the point of waste. In the Christian religions, it is considered a sin because of the excessive desire for food, or its withholding from the needy…….OK I AM REPENTING THIS WEEK….

 So I had all kinds of crap still this week. What in the world! All that focus blab I was doing. And what…still not eating clean. On top of the eating like a GLUTTON! No need to get down though cause I realize how I got caught up. It’s was the lack of preparation….

Each day I work no less than 16hrs with my two jobs combined. You would think I’d pack my lunches and be ready to take on the task of super woman for the week. However the criptonite (junk food) seem to be the most convenient food as I only had my shake maker and some protein paks in my lunch box. Whos going to drink protein shakes all day. No wonder  I was tempted and gave in. I had nothing healthy to fill me up….nothing that was beneficial to my goals to help me fight the cakes and cookies, candy and sweets. On top of that I gave into the fast food band wagon this week. But fear not repentance has come and I am ready to regain myself control through preparation.

Talking to my trainer today helped alot. I was able to use what was shared to evaluate my failures and channel my emotions and junkie cravings through prior preparation of the weeks means. So this is my focus for the coming week. PREP PREP PREP PREP! I’m sure that will make a difference. Otherwise I’ve got a lot explaining to do before the Creator can you picture it.LOL

“Oh yeah God….about that Gluttony thing. Can we work something out?”

Ok, so I am so ready to go get some little ceasars, no wait and some Ms. Fields cookies and wait. Anything that taste good. (so I think). I am really struggling cause these people up in here eat all kinds of junk and unclean foods. It’s lunch time and man I am seriously irritated. God I know falling away right now would be the worst oh God please help me. What can I eat that’s healthy and taste good. I mean what, a salad? Man what I got to learn about this nutrition thing cause I am so dying up in here. Maybe I’ll go to meijers and buy something healthy. Oh God I feel so deprived right now. I’m just really pissed. This is the part I don’t like about transformation. I am so not feeling the clean food but what choice do I have. I mean I actually feel like crying. Ok so I’ve got to find some clean foods that taste good or just suck it up cause nothing clean will probably taste good to me this first week. I have to get through this today. I can’t keep giving in to cravings. Man Man Man Man! I feel like hitting somebody lOL really I do. Is Chinese fatting? I mean I got to get somethiing. I made a salad for lunch but it’s so not calling my name. What in the world. I just want to go and crawl into a corner. But I’m a work and that’s not about to happen. It was better when I was home in the day time. At least I could go sleep the temptations/cravings off. Oh boy!

Well,

Today is the beginning of a new nutritional life for me. I haven’t received my eating plan yet from my trainer but I am committed to let go of the "crap" and eat "clean" the best I know how. I tried all weekend but I wasn’t psyched up enough and kept eating what I wanted. I’ve been reading alot lately on this site and alot of my books (Body for Life, Burn the Fat Feed the Muscle, Diet Mind, etc. etc.) And I really did forget how important nutrition is. I also failed to remember that bad nutrition can cause major health problems. I guess this came to mind because it seems like I have been holding alot of water weight. More than I usually do. I’m hoping those trials of diet pills and daily does of 5hour energy shots to stay woke at work hasn’t cause me any internal issues. I’m going to schedule a full physical and make sure. I did go to the OBGYN a week ago and everything seem to be cool (BP, Insulin, etc etc) But why have I put on so much weight in the last 3 months…water weight at that. I mean when I started working I was 189lbs in May. Now it’s August and I am tipping the scale at 221. 30lbs in 3 months? Anyway. This week will tell because I am going to stand strong this week. It’s not going to be easy because I go through some kind of withdrawal like a dope fein or nicotine addict. It’s not my imagination it’s real. I get real cranky coming off the sweets and the breads and the fast foods and the vending machine crap. I mean, I struggled real hard this morning not to stop at dunkin donuts or mcdonald to get me a breakfast sandwich. Instead   when I got to work I made my protein shake, took my vitamins and said NO TO CRAVINGS! I’m good after the first week so please, all who read this please please drop some encouraging words. The last time I went through this I slept alot because I was so tempted. But now that I work 80 hours a week that’s not an option. Bodyspace will be my place of regrouping when I am getting through these urges.

On another note the crossover in exercise has been excellent. I never had a problem with working out once I got started. I love working out! It feels so good even when it hurts. And to know that you are helping your body sure motivates me. I gain muscle easy too so this part of the transformation comes natural. However knowing what to do specifically to get the results I’m looking for is what I am not knowledgable in. Thats what Azifukared is going to help me with.

Peace Out…

AAAAAAAHHHH MAN! I JUST EAT MCDONALDS WHAT THE HECK? i’LL BURN IT ON THE TREAD….

I need a laptop. Cause I want to post every temptation every victory everything related to me gaining a healthy fit body. So much is in my way and it’s been so easy to just grab a pack of twizzlers and ritzer cheese and cracker mini’s out of the vending machine at work (Which I just did). NOt to mention the chicken sandwich I had from Burger King today with Fries. I guess the only thing I am proud of is the fact that I stopped all the calorie drinks and I only drin water or tea. But that’s not going to alone get this body of mind in shape. Unfortunately I have to be honest and post my current weight which is so so so shameful. But alot of it is water weight that I am holding. I think because I tried some stupid prescription drugs and a water pill that now my body is all out of wack. I didn’t stay on them but for like a week and stopped cause I didn’t like how I felt on them. I did better just working out like crazy and using meal replacements. God help me I feel like I’m slipping away here and I’ll look like a big fat balloon in a minute. Gogetter is tired of Going what the heck happen to me!