“Girl Get a Grip!”
Oh my, my emotions are playing tricks on me. Change in life is never easy and it certainly fits the cliche when you’re going through a seperation soon to be divorce. I have been alot better lately since I started working out again. I took a whole year to get back to the gym consistently and let me tell you I am glad I did. But, wow these feelings of sadness just gets to me sometimes. Fear of starting over. The isolation I feel is wicked. I have to regain that single mindset that Crisha’s got to take care of Crisha and that has been a down-upward battle. Not to mention my 4yr old who’s depending on me. I just had to tell myself today, "Girl get a grip." So much pressures and responsablilities as a single mom with an average job. Well I know things will work out for me and I just have to keep mentally focused on the end result, a better me overall.
In spite of the emotional challenges I am facing right now I’m happy to share that I am down 6lbs from my highest weight of 250. The walking and cardio at the gym I have been doing is finally working. I’m still inconsistent with my nutrition but better than I was before. My eating habits tend to still be guided by how I am feeling each day. I know each day will get better but I do miss being that beautiful wife and family. But, see now that people change and life happens. Something I have to realize I don’t have any control over. I’m just going to really have to get a grip and take control of my thoughts and focus points.
May 18, 2009 at 10:28 am
Sorry to hear you are so down. Keep your head up and keep pushing. Time will heal your wounds.
May 18, 2009 at 10:41 am
Thanks I will keep pushing.