Beauty Revealed…

Oh my, my emotions are playing tricks on me. Change in life is never easy and it certainly fits the cliche when you’re going through a seperation soon to be divorce. I have been alot better lately since I started working out again. I took a whole year to get back to the gym consistently and let me tell you I am glad I did. But, wow these feelings of sadness just gets to me sometimes. Fear of starting over. The isolation I feel is wicked. I have to regain that single mindset that Crisha’s got to take care of Crisha and that has been a down-upward battle. Not to mention my 4yr old who’s depending on me. I just had to tell myself today, "Girl get a grip." So much pressures and responsablilities as a single mom with an average job. Well I know things will work out for me and I just have to keep mentally focused on the end result, a better me overall.

In spite of the emotional challenges I am facing right now I’m happy to share that I am down 6lbs from my highest weight of 250. The walking and cardio at the gym I have been doing is finally working. I’m still inconsistent with my nutrition but better than I was before. My eating habits tend to still be guided by how I am feeling each day. I know each day will get better but I do miss being that beautiful wife and family. But, see now that people change and life happens. Something I have to realize I don’t have any control over. I’m just going to really have to get a grip and take control of my thoughts and focus points.

Oh my, my emotions are playing tricks on me. Change in life is never easy and it certainly fits the cliche when you’re going through a seperation soon to be divorce. I have been alot better lately since I started working out again. I took a whole year to get back to the gym consistently and let me tell you I am glad I did. But, wow these feelings of sadness just gets to me sometimes. Fear of starting over. The isolation I feel is wicked. I have to regain that single mindset that Crisha’s got to take care of Crisha and that has been a down-upward battle. Not to mention my 4yr old who’s depending on me. I just had to tell myself today, "Girl get a grip." So much pressures and responsablilities as a single mom with an average job. Well I know things will work out for me and I just have to keep mentally focused on the end result, a better me overall.

In spite of the emotional challenges I am facing right now I’m happy to share that I am down 6lbs from my highest weight of 250. The walking and cardio at the gym I have been doing is finally working. I’m still inconsistent with my nutrition but better than I was before. My eating habits tend to still be guided by how I am feeling each day. I know each day will get better but I do miss being that beautiful wife and family. But, see now that people change and life happens. Something I have to realize I don’t have any control over. I’m just going to really have to get a grip and take control of my thoughts and focus points.